crossroads

people always say that life is like travelling on the road. when it comes to making decision abt life, people say it's like coming to a crossroad.

when travelling, if u make a wrong turn, u can always u-turn back. in life, if u make a wrong turn, can u turn it back? no, u can't. people say u can turn back, yah, i do somehow agree, but if u turn back, will things be the same as before?

maybe it's not abt making a decision which way to turn, and then worry abt the whether we can u-turn or not. maybe it's about the final destination.

but problem is, wat is my final destination? i'm now like travelling on newton circus like that, turning round and round and round, aimlessly. can i juz drive straight into something and juz die?

i juz feel that really, maybe i should leave, this is the best way where none is hurt the most. no one deserves to be hurt the most. i am the one who deserves to die, who deserves to carry all the sins.