still in semi state of shock.
Juz knew that a friend got into trouble with the narcotics officer. and you have to know this through reading the newspaper yourself. then you will begin to wonder if is it that friend, then you start calling up friends to double confirm. this is the second time i have to read from the newspaper about a friend getting into trouble. the first time happened to one of my JC friend.
it's really kind of sad to have to read about your friend from the newspaper. can't do much, can only pray for them and wish them all the best. It will get kind of tricky next time if your paths meet.
so a word of advice to the young readers out there and my dear students, really, do not get into trouble with the law. if your name has to be reported in the newspaper, it's really very embarrassing.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Monks receive luxury car as gift
in today's newspapers, some people made comments after the Shaolin monk receive a luxury car as gift. some people felt that the monk shouldn't have receive the gift.
i was thinking: (anyway, a fren told me this....)
Monks in Thailand do eat meat. (Shock! thought monks not suppose to eat meat) yes, you are right, the monks go out every morning to ask for food, so they are eating what people has offered them. It would be wrong for the monk not to eat what people has given to them. so who is in the wrong? the person who gave the food. If you know that a monk cannot eat meat, then why give meat to the monk?
same as the above, if you know that monk should not own secular things, much said about a luxury car, then why give a luxury car as a gift? so the Shaolin monk was technically not wrong to accept the gift.
also, i do hear that for monks, their body is not theirs to own, what matters is the soul, the enlightenment of their soul.
ok, my mind is very heavy now, too philosophical for the day.
in today's newspapers, some people made comments after the Shaolin monk receive a luxury car as gift. some people felt that the monk shouldn't have receive the gift.
i was thinking: (anyway, a fren told me this....)
Monks in Thailand do eat meat. (Shock! thought monks not suppose to eat meat) yes, you are right, the monks go out every morning to ask for food, so they are eating what people has offered them. It would be wrong for the monk not to eat what people has given to them. so who is in the wrong? the person who gave the food. If you know that a monk cannot eat meat, then why give meat to the monk?
same as the above, if you know that monk should not own secular things, much said about a luxury car, then why give a luxury car as a gift? so the Shaolin monk was technically not wrong to accept the gift.
also, i do hear that for monks, their body is not theirs to own, what matters is the soul, the enlightenment of their soul.
ok, my mind is very heavy now, too philosophical for the day.
God, Faith and Science
Copied this from a friend's website:
AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION (God, Faith and Science. Think about it)
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then?
Hmm? (Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes. Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct? Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
Student does not answer.
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir. Prof: So, who created them?
Student has no answer.
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain? (The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
****************WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS?
NB: This is a true story, and the student was none other than.........Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam, the present president of India.
This conversation touched me in a way as i grasp with my own walk with God. and somehow the next day, Aunt Cherie called me and talked to me about faith, how we will be answerable to God if we dun have faith in Him.
It is true, if students can accept my teaching of Geography and Social Studies, aren't they taking in all that i've said in faith? then why can't I have faith in God?
i guess the problem lies in humans put a definition to everything, everything has to be finite but the truth is God is indefinite.
Copied this from a friend's website:
AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION (God, Faith and Science. Think about it)
An atheist professor of philosophy speaks to his class on the problem science has with God, The Almighty. He asks one of his new students to stand and.....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then?
Hmm? (Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God...
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes. Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct? Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
Student does not answer.
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir. Prof: So, who created them?
Student has no answer.
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir? (The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain? (The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
****************WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS?
NB: This is a true story, and the student was none other than.........Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam, the present president of India.
This conversation touched me in a way as i grasp with my own walk with God. and somehow the next day, Aunt Cherie called me and talked to me about faith, how we will be answerable to God if we dun have faith in Him.
It is true, if students can accept my teaching of Geography and Social Studies, aren't they taking in all that i've said in faith? then why can't I have faith in God?
i guess the problem lies in humans put a definition to everything, everything has to be finite but the truth is God is indefinite.
3 disgusting things
1) how can a father be so disgustingly rich to buy a Subaru WRX for his son? anyway, this is getting common nowadays, with greater affluence, parents are able to afford to buy cars for their children when their children get their driving license. obviously, the father didn't realise that his son do not know how to handle a fast car. how many fatal accidents have occur? it's very common, fast cars, young drivers. well, the father paid for his foolishness, he lost his only son. peace be with the parents and peace be with the lost soul.
10 years ago, when we wanted to buy a car, oh yes, it was a subaru alright, but it was a 2nd hand car, the car was 4 or 5 years old already, it was a subaru viki, M70 somemore. and i had to fork out about 5k for a second hand car. youngsters nowadays are very lucky. they get to drive brand new car. After driving for so many years, only last year, only last year, then i get to drive a brand new car. All along, i only have money to buy second hand car.
also, driving is the accumulation of experiences. i remember in the first year of driving the car, (p plate) i had 2 small accidents. i dunno how to explain this, but everyday as u drive, u learn new experiences. that's why i believe, after getting a driving license, drive an old car, not a brand new one. old car, yes, no doubt may have engine problems, but u learn to handle these engine problems, what is radiator, change oil, tyre rotation. Bet not many people knows how to change a punctured tyre? i know, changed punctured tyres twice before, once, my own viki, the other time changed for my mum when her viki's tyres was punctured. i've driven cars where the radiator was spoilt, the temp needle kept going up and u learn to get to the the service workshop fast. skidded on a wet road before driving my mum's viki, then i learnt, oh yah, someone told me never never to run fast on wet roads, now i know why. u may never learn all these things from driving a new car. also, no heartache if the car is spoilt due to my careless driving.
2) disgusting item no 2, gosh, the person actually stuffed subutex into his ass hole. gross. hope subutex users are put off by the fact that the pill was stuffed in someone's asshole before and they are going to use it. anyway, the guy was caught.
3) disgusting item no 3. i actually dreamt about going back to work, i actually dreamt about the Block G and i'm walking to 3E5! Gross, i actually dreamt about work.... pui pui pui.
1) how can a father be so disgustingly rich to buy a Subaru WRX for his son? anyway, this is getting common nowadays, with greater affluence, parents are able to afford to buy cars for their children when their children get their driving license. obviously, the father didn't realise that his son do not know how to handle a fast car. how many fatal accidents have occur? it's very common, fast cars, young drivers. well, the father paid for his foolishness, he lost his only son. peace be with the parents and peace be with the lost soul.
10 years ago, when we wanted to buy a car, oh yes, it was a subaru alright, but it was a 2nd hand car, the car was 4 or 5 years old already, it was a subaru viki, M70 somemore. and i had to fork out about 5k for a second hand car. youngsters nowadays are very lucky. they get to drive brand new car. After driving for so many years, only last year, only last year, then i get to drive a brand new car. All along, i only have money to buy second hand car.
also, driving is the accumulation of experiences. i remember in the first year of driving the car, (p plate) i had 2 small accidents. i dunno how to explain this, but everyday as u drive, u learn new experiences. that's why i believe, after getting a driving license, drive an old car, not a brand new one. old car, yes, no doubt may have engine problems, but u learn to handle these engine problems, what is radiator, change oil, tyre rotation. Bet not many people knows how to change a punctured tyre? i know, changed punctured tyres twice before, once, my own viki, the other time changed for my mum when her viki's tyres was punctured. i've driven cars where the radiator was spoilt, the temp needle kept going up and u learn to get to the the service workshop fast. skidded on a wet road before driving my mum's viki, then i learnt, oh yah, someone told me never never to run fast on wet roads, now i know why. u may never learn all these things from driving a new car. also, no heartache if the car is spoilt due to my careless driving.
2) disgusting item no 2, gosh, the person actually stuffed subutex into his ass hole. gross. hope subutex users are put off by the fact that the pill was stuffed in someone's asshole before and they are going to use it. anyway, the guy was caught.
3) disgusting item no 3. i actually dreamt about going back to work, i actually dreamt about the Block G and i'm walking to 3E5! Gross, i actually dreamt about work.... pui pui pui.
Monday, August 21, 2006
this is getting frustrating.
1) thought i could access websites faster in the wee hours of the morning, but i was wrong, esp for Singpass website. without the necessary information, i cannot compute sales proceeds from selling flat and the monthly instalment of buying another flat.
2) morale of my story: You can only own 2 flats in your whole entire life if you are Singaporean. for youngsters, juz a note of advice, never put your name for your parents' flat. HDB considers it as you have already owned a flat. so next time if you want to buy a flat with your spouse, even if your spouse is first timer buying a flat, you are considered a second timer and so the brand new flat you are getting, it's considered your second property. ok, this ruling doesn't really irks me that much.
what irks me is that now buyers of flat who are not eligible for HDB loan has to go to banks to borrow the loan. Ok fine, they call this deregulation, got competition good, consumers are at an advantage. ok, i'm fine with this ruling also.
But 5% cash payment? copied and paste from website:
HDB flat buyers who are getting a mortgage loan from banks have to pay a cash payment with effect from 1 Jan 2004. The cash payment will be eventually aligned with that of private property purchase, that is, 5% based on the lower of the purchase price or market value of the flat.
i was thinking, we are buying a HDB flat here, it's supposed to be affordable. but hello, looks like it's not getting very affordable already. Buying a flat is now aligned with that of a private property purchase. let's juz take an ordinary 4 room flat whose valuation could be easily $272,000. 5% means you have to take out $13600 hard cash. this amount can be easily be used to pay for a undergraduate's semestral fees. Or better spend at renovating a house. what if you still need to renovate the house? and whether you get a bank loan or not, it's another issue. It seems that if it's too low, like $100k, the bank is reluctant to lend (that means buying a 3 room flat with a bank loan is quite impossible) and from the newspaper, if you buy a property in certain areas like geylang, sorry, the bank deems it too risky to lend you the money.
some may argue that you get some money from selling your flat, the money gained can be used. oh come on, who makes 100K from sellling the flat now? yah last time, our parents' time or when police wear bermudas time, yes. But now? a new 5 room flat is easily 200K and above. You think you can sell your flat at 300K or 400K when it matures? yah probably 10 or 20 years down the road, if you are lucky. that means you would be 40 or 50 plus years old. then you would rather not sell and stay put. See, it's yet another way to encourage you not to sell your flat and stay put.
ok, i'm prepared to overcome all these hurdles. but then check this out:
Since 1 January 2003, the CPF withdrawal limit for a housing loan obtained from a bank or financial institution is set at lower of 150% of the Valuation Limit or the Available Housing Withdrawal Limit (AHWL).The 150% Valuation Limit will be reduced to 120% over five years as shown in the table below.
went to CPF website and tried to understand AHWL. i dun understand a GD thing after reading it. so all in all, the past 1 hour has been very frustrating, trying to make sense of everything.
so it means that it's not so easy for buyers to buy a HDB flat if they are getting bank loan to finance their flat. This means that it's not easy for sellers to sell. Then where the heck did they get the figures to show that housing has upped in the last quarter? All these figures are bull shit.
Then it kind of dawn on me that, to be on the safe side, only own 2 HDB flats in your entire life. GDI, talk about taking risks. Now i'm taking the risk, going to sell the flat and a 3rd timer at buying a flat. Now i'm going to induce economy growth through this transaction. But why are there so many hurdles to discourage me from selling and buying? Why am i being 'punished' for taking a risk? don't you always encourage creativity, risk-taking and blah blah blah?
oh yes, i better put a disclaimer before i unintentionally slander any 'boards' any person or accused of not being professional enough.
All things said above are of no intention to slander or caused any grievous hurt to any being, be it a board or a person. All things said above are in the heat of frustration and once the heat is dispalled, all things will be calm and back to the submissive old self, trying our best to fulfil this criteria and that criteria. (in another words, LL)
1) thought i could access websites faster in the wee hours of the morning, but i was wrong, esp for Singpass website. without the necessary information, i cannot compute sales proceeds from selling flat and the monthly instalment of buying another flat.
2) morale of my story: You can only own 2 flats in your whole entire life if you are Singaporean. for youngsters, juz a note of advice, never put your name for your parents' flat. HDB considers it as you have already owned a flat. so next time if you want to buy a flat with your spouse, even if your spouse is first timer buying a flat, you are considered a second timer and so the brand new flat you are getting, it's considered your second property. ok, this ruling doesn't really irks me that much.
what irks me is that now buyers of flat who are not eligible for HDB loan has to go to banks to borrow the loan. Ok fine, they call this deregulation, got competition good, consumers are at an advantage. ok, i'm fine with this ruling also.
But 5% cash payment? copied and paste from website:
HDB flat buyers who are getting a mortgage loan from banks have to pay a cash payment with effect from 1 Jan 2004. The cash payment will be eventually aligned with that of private property purchase, that is, 5% based on the lower of the purchase price or market value of the flat.
i was thinking, we are buying a HDB flat here, it's supposed to be affordable. but hello, looks like it's not getting very affordable already. Buying a flat is now aligned with that of a private property purchase. let's juz take an ordinary 4 room flat whose valuation could be easily $272,000. 5% means you have to take out $13600 hard cash. this amount can be easily be used to pay for a undergraduate's semestral fees. Or better spend at renovating a house. what if you still need to renovate the house? and whether you get a bank loan or not, it's another issue. It seems that if it's too low, like $100k, the bank is reluctant to lend (that means buying a 3 room flat with a bank loan is quite impossible) and from the newspaper, if you buy a property in certain areas like geylang, sorry, the bank deems it too risky to lend you the money.
some may argue that you get some money from selling your flat, the money gained can be used. oh come on, who makes 100K from sellling the flat now? yah last time, our parents' time or when police wear bermudas time, yes. But now? a new 5 room flat is easily 200K and above. You think you can sell your flat at 300K or 400K when it matures? yah probably 10 or 20 years down the road, if you are lucky. that means you would be 40 or 50 plus years old. then you would rather not sell and stay put. See, it's yet another way to encourage you not to sell your flat and stay put.
ok, i'm prepared to overcome all these hurdles. but then check this out:
Since 1 January 2003, the CPF withdrawal limit for a housing loan obtained from a bank or financial institution is set at lower of 150% of the Valuation Limit or the Available Housing Withdrawal Limit (AHWL).The 150% Valuation Limit will be reduced to 120% over five years as shown in the table below.
went to CPF website and tried to understand AHWL. i dun understand a GD thing after reading it. so all in all, the past 1 hour has been very frustrating, trying to make sense of everything.
so it means that it's not so easy for buyers to buy a HDB flat if they are getting bank loan to finance their flat. This means that it's not easy for sellers to sell. Then where the heck did they get the figures to show that housing has upped in the last quarter? All these figures are bull shit.
Then it kind of dawn on me that, to be on the safe side, only own 2 HDB flats in your entire life. GDI, talk about taking risks. Now i'm taking the risk, going to sell the flat and a 3rd timer at buying a flat. Now i'm going to induce economy growth through this transaction. But why are there so many hurdles to discourage me from selling and buying? Why am i being 'punished' for taking a risk? don't you always encourage creativity, risk-taking and blah blah blah?
oh yes, i better put a disclaimer before i unintentionally slander any 'boards' any person or accused of not being professional enough.
All things said above are of no intention to slander or caused any grievous hurt to any being, be it a board or a person. All things said above are in the heat of frustration and once the heat is dispalled, all things will be calm and back to the submissive old self, trying our best to fulfil this criteria and that criteria. (in another words, LL)
can't get to sleep. been having diarrea (i'm missing some letters, but what the heck) since sat night. it's not like it's unbearable, it's bearable, u can actually feel the stomach churning. woke up at 4am, decided to let go. then had to go to toilet again at 8 plus in the morning.
on sunday, the whole day seems alright, but the tummy ache came again after dinner. same like the nite before, woke up at 5 plus to let go, and couldn't sleep after that, so decided to wake up.
the reason i couldn't sleep partly because there are many things weighing on my mind. When you start thinking about your past, present and future, it's really heavy going.
Max is 2 months old and still growing. He has grown quite a bit since he was born. he's now 4.4kg as compared to 3.1 kg. he's getting more responsive to sounds, to people talking to him. he's starting to make gurgle sounds, trying to talk and besides crying, he knows how to laugh now. cool. he especially likes it when Marcus talks to him. the funny thing is Marcus likes to squeeze his cheeks, kiss him and when Marcus does all these things to Max, Max actually laughs and enjoys it.
on sunday, the whole day seems alright, but the tummy ache came again after dinner. same like the nite before, woke up at 5 plus to let go, and couldn't sleep after that, so decided to wake up.
the reason i couldn't sleep partly because there are many things weighing on my mind. When you start thinking about your past, present and future, it's really heavy going.
Max is 2 months old and still growing. He has grown quite a bit since he was born. he's now 4.4kg as compared to 3.1 kg. he's getting more responsive to sounds, to people talking to him. he's starting to make gurgle sounds, trying to talk and besides crying, he knows how to laugh now. cool. he especially likes it when Marcus talks to him. the funny thing is Marcus likes to squeeze his cheeks, kiss him and when Marcus does all these things to Max, Max actually laughs and enjoys it.
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Primary 1 registration
have i said before that registering for your child for P1 is really an experience? as we are using marcus' grandparent's address, realise that before registering, we need to do a declaration at MOE. I thought it was juz collecting a form, didn't know that the grandparent and parent must be present to declare. had to make 2 trips because of that.
Also, we are registering him at Phase 2C, can you imagine, i literally check out the vacancies after every phase to check that the school we wanted still has places? in the end, we had to settle for our second choice school becos the first choice school has limited vacancies and being a famous school, i think end up sure balloting. so to play safe, (didn't want heart attack or end up Marcus have to study a school in Punggol as we are intending to shift out) we chose the 2nd choice school.
to some, the reputation of school is still an issue to them. their child must go to a good school. neighbourhood school? over their dead body. well, i respect their decision. each of us are entitled to our own opinions. i mean there are different kinds of pressure studying at different kind of schools. anyway, an advice to those who wants to enrol their child in good school,
either you are a former student of that school
or if you are a teacher, a few years before enrolling your child, try to get a posting to that school yourself
or parent volunteer (at least 2 years before your child is due for register) and i heard that now parent volunteer this option is very popular that some schools have to turn away parents becos there is juz too many parent volunteers.
oh yah, btw, Marcus will be formally studying in Cedar Primary next year, brand new school building with great facilities. i know that, cos i've been to a brand new school building to teach myself.
have i said before that registering for your child for P1 is really an experience? as we are using marcus' grandparent's address, realise that before registering, we need to do a declaration at MOE. I thought it was juz collecting a form, didn't know that the grandparent and parent must be present to declare. had to make 2 trips because of that.
Also, we are registering him at Phase 2C, can you imagine, i literally check out the vacancies after every phase to check that the school we wanted still has places? in the end, we had to settle for our second choice school becos the first choice school has limited vacancies and being a famous school, i think end up sure balloting. so to play safe, (didn't want heart attack or end up Marcus have to study a school in Punggol as we are intending to shift out) we chose the 2nd choice school.
to some, the reputation of school is still an issue to them. their child must go to a good school. neighbourhood school? over their dead body. well, i respect their decision. each of us are entitled to our own opinions. i mean there are different kinds of pressure studying at different kind of schools. anyway, an advice to those who wants to enrol their child in good school,
either you are a former student of that school
or if you are a teacher, a few years before enrolling your child, try to get a posting to that school yourself
or parent volunteer (at least 2 years before your child is due for register) and i heard that now parent volunteer this option is very popular that some schools have to turn away parents becos there is juz too many parent volunteers.
oh yah, btw, Marcus will be formally studying in Cedar Primary next year, brand new school building with great facilities. i know that, cos i've been to a brand new school building to teach myself.
the MT results will be out this fri, all the best to 5n2. Hope most of you did well enough so that u don't have to take MT at the end of the year again.
so fast, time passes so fast, soon, it will be sept, then i'll have to be back in school. scared engine cannot start up.
dunno what i owe Max in the past life. looking after him is like 24 hours, he wants your attention, either to talk to him, play with him or he takes such a long time to rock to sleep. sometimes if you are press for time, like u need to go pee, it can get really frustrating.
been trying out cooking also. sometimes run out of ideas to cook, i actually went to search for recipes on the internet and tried out some dishes. quite fun.
life's been ok. juz that these few days, i juz find that listening to songs doesn't bring anymore meaning. nvm, i dunno what i'm talking or wat i'm trying to say. anyway, life's been good. i'm enjoying family now at the present. a bit sian thinking of going back to work.
so fast, time passes so fast, soon, it will be sept, then i'll have to be back in school. scared engine cannot start up.
dunno what i owe Max in the past life. looking after him is like 24 hours, he wants your attention, either to talk to him, play with him or he takes such a long time to rock to sleep. sometimes if you are press for time, like u need to go pee, it can get really frustrating.
been trying out cooking also. sometimes run out of ideas to cook, i actually went to search for recipes on the internet and tried out some dishes. quite fun.
life's been ok. juz that these few days, i juz find that listening to songs doesn't bring anymore meaning. nvm, i dunno what i'm talking or wat i'm trying to say. anyway, life's been good. i'm enjoying family now at the present. a bit sian thinking of going back to work.
Friday, July 21, 2006
the result of a queer test i took:
sandra, your subconscious mind is driven most by Self-protection
You are emotionally reserved and private. You typically keep your cool during arguments and rarely reveal personal information that you later regret. On the surface, you appear very serene. Inside however, you may sometimes feel detached or disconnected from the world around you. The upside of this is that you are not the sort of person to easily lose your temper. You think about things rationally rather than get swept up in emotions. You also remain calm in the toughest of situations. Your psyche is very unique; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
sandra, your subconscious mind is driven most by Self-protection
You are emotionally reserved and private. You typically keep your cool during arguments and rarely reveal personal information that you later regret. On the surface, you appear very serene. Inside however, you may sometimes feel detached or disconnected from the world around you. The upside of this is that you are not the sort of person to easily lose your temper. You think about things rationally rather than get swept up in emotions. You also remain calm in the toughest of situations. Your psyche is very unique; the more you learn about it, the more you will understand who you really are.
realise i've not been blogging for almost a month.
well, i wanted to update BB's pictures, i juz didn't get down to doing it.
u see, the whole day is juz spend looking after the BB. it's like the feeding time is 3 hours apart. ok, let's say, BB drinks milk at 11am. by the time u finish feeding it's 1130am. u try to make BB sleep, 1145am. u need to feed BB water also, otherwise BB cannot put put, that would be 1230pm feed water. by the time u finish feeding, probably 1245pm. then soon 2pm, milk time again.
so in between, u will have to find time to 1) read newspaper 2) drink coffee 3) brush teeth 4) bathe 5) going toilet, whether big business or small business 6) hang the laundry (as you dun want to miss the sun) 7) not forgetting, u need to eat also. recently, i totally skip lunch or at times only have one meal a day. 8) check my emails 9) drink water (we need at least 8 glasses of water a day) also, BB also need to bathe. sometimes BB also need to change diapers. If BB sleep soundly, u will manage to accomplish more things. If BB doesn't sleep soundly, u really have no time to do the above things. it's a miracle how we can squeeze in to do so many things in between BB's feeding time. and not to mention, i still have to fetch m&m to and from school. so one day 24 hours, really not enough for me. at night, your sleep is broken up also.
so u see, i really have no time to update the pictures on my blog. i do have the pictures in my hp, i even video taped him, i even record his crying sound and for a week, his cries were my ringtone.
anyway, to reward myself... i went to colour my hair TODAY! feel good, like pampering yourself like that.
ok, almost feeding time, i better stop.
well, i wanted to update BB's pictures, i juz didn't get down to doing it.
u see, the whole day is juz spend looking after the BB. it's like the feeding time is 3 hours apart. ok, let's say, BB drinks milk at 11am. by the time u finish feeding it's 1130am. u try to make BB sleep, 1145am. u need to feed BB water also, otherwise BB cannot put put, that would be 1230pm feed water. by the time u finish feeding, probably 1245pm. then soon 2pm, milk time again.
so in between, u will have to find time to 1) read newspaper 2) drink coffee 3) brush teeth 4) bathe 5) going toilet, whether big business or small business 6) hang the laundry (as you dun want to miss the sun) 7) not forgetting, u need to eat also. recently, i totally skip lunch or at times only have one meal a day. 8) check my emails 9) drink water (we need at least 8 glasses of water a day) also, BB also need to bathe. sometimes BB also need to change diapers. If BB sleep soundly, u will manage to accomplish more things. If BB doesn't sleep soundly, u really have no time to do the above things. it's a miracle how we can squeeze in to do so many things in between BB's feeding time. and not to mention, i still have to fetch m&m to and from school. so one day 24 hours, really not enough for me. at night, your sleep is broken up also.
so u see, i really have no time to update the pictures on my blog. i do have the pictures in my hp, i even video taped him, i even record his crying sound and for a week, his cries were my ringtone.
anyway, to reward myself... i went to colour my hair TODAY! feel good, like pampering yourself like that.
ok, almost feeding time, i better stop.
Friday, June 23, 2006
ok, i'm now planning and thinking of baby showers. not so much of planning, cos i dunno if my mum wants to hold baby showers or not. i also dunno who to invite for the baby showers other than our own family members here.
i'll juz keep it simple. maybe on the boy's side, a simple dinner, maybe on the gal's side, also a simple dinner. hmmm, know wat i'm thinking...? OT multi purpose hall again, haha.
i could remember marcus' baby showers, it was at OT, that time, mum invited her friends. die, i can't remember mabel's baby showers. where did we have it? or did we have it in the first place? haha, i really cannot remember.
i'll juz keep it simple. maybe on the boy's side, a simple dinner, maybe on the gal's side, also a simple dinner. hmmm, know wat i'm thinking...? OT multi purpose hall again, haha.
i could remember marcus' baby showers, it was at OT, that time, mum invited her friends. die, i can't remember mabel's baby showers. where did we have it? or did we have it in the first place? haha, i really cannot remember.
Thursday, June 22, 2006
last nite two shows makes me think of certain things about love.
in the 7pm show, the gal was very heartbroken to know that her bf who had died hid so many secrets from her. advice from her friend was, perhaps it's better this way, as he loves her and might not want to hurt her with his past. sometimes the truth hurts, hurts very badly, in yesterday's show, the word was 'heartwrenching'. yes, actually come to think of it, many things in life, some truths are better left unknown. if you dun want to hurt your loved one, then keep quiet.
in the 9pm show, the person can love the other party so much that 'he' was willing to do anything for him. but was it worth it? She feels that it was worth it. well i believe many people will have different views on this. some will feel that it's not worth it, some will feel that it's worth it. she claims that she did all this for him, she really love him. sigh, wat's true love? does true love really exist on earth? it may be there, but it may not belong to you. sometimes things are not so simple.
just some thoughts, dun take it too seriously.
in the 7pm show, the gal was very heartbroken to know that her bf who had died hid so many secrets from her. advice from her friend was, perhaps it's better this way, as he loves her and might not want to hurt her with his past. sometimes the truth hurts, hurts very badly, in yesterday's show, the word was 'heartwrenching'. yes, actually come to think of it, many things in life, some truths are better left unknown. if you dun want to hurt your loved one, then keep quiet.
in the 9pm show, the person can love the other party so much that 'he' was willing to do anything for him. but was it worth it? She feels that it was worth it. well i believe many people will have different views on this. some will feel that it's not worth it, some will feel that it's worth it. she claims that she did all this for him, she really love him. sigh, wat's true love? does true love really exist on earth? it may be there, but it may not belong to you. sometimes things are not so simple.
just some thoughts, dun take it too seriously.
Monday, June 19, 2006
Friday, June 16, 2006
Monday, June 12, 2006
wahhhhhhhh.... must be really excited. last nite could only sleep after 3 am. then guess what, 530 am, i woke up again. couldn't get back to sleep, might as well wake up to get ready.
brushed teeth, showered and most importantly, washed my hair! but this morning, i really appreciated all these 3 actions, something which we do so often. i used a generous amount of toothpaste, shampoo and shower gel, and i really thoroughly brushed my teeth. it's like my last time doing these actions, so i better do it well. simple routine things which we often take for granted.
makes me think of those who knew they are going to die, like perhaps one who is going to be sentenced to death. imagine he/she is aware that all that they are going to do will be the last action on earth, how sad! u will learn to even appreciate that u can brush your teeth.
wake up so early, now i realise i'm getting hungry, but i cannot eat.... god, this is going to be torture. hungry and u can't eat.
brushed teeth, showered and most importantly, washed my hair! but this morning, i really appreciated all these 3 actions, something which we do so often. i used a generous amount of toothpaste, shampoo and shower gel, and i really thoroughly brushed my teeth. it's like my last time doing these actions, so i better do it well. simple routine things which we often take for granted.
makes me think of those who knew they are going to die, like perhaps one who is going to be sentenced to death. imagine he/she is aware that all that they are going to do will be the last action on earth, how sad! u will learn to even appreciate that u can brush your teeth.
wake up so early, now i realise i'm getting hungry, but i cannot eat.... god, this is going to be torture. hungry and u can't eat.
oh yeah, finally, the arrival of 12 june. dunno how to describe the relief, the excitment. maybe too excited until cannot sleep.
brought m&m to watch the cartoon Cars on 7th June. Well, marcus certainly enjoyed the show. Mabel slept halfway through the show and then she started coughing and then nvm, she vomitted her phlegm out. gross. luckily it's near the end of the show already. think my black shawl really unlucky. It was first used to cover some stained skirt. Then now the 2nd time i used it, it was used to wipe off Mabel's vomit. gross.
The show is quite long, if marcus is not interested in cars, i doubt he can sit through out the show. the show is 116 mins long, almost 2 hours. this cartoon is like made for marcus to watch. will buy the vcd when it's out. and also the game if it is out.
brought m&m to watch the cartoon Cars on 7th June. Well, marcus certainly enjoyed the show. Mabel slept halfway through the show and then she started coughing and then nvm, she vomitted her phlegm out. gross. luckily it's near the end of the show already. think my black shawl really unlucky. It was first used to cover some stained skirt. Then now the 2nd time i used it, it was used to wipe off Mabel's vomit. gross.
The show is quite long, if marcus is not interested in cars, i doubt he can sit through out the show. the show is 116 mins long, almost 2 hours. this cartoon is like made for marcus to watch. will buy the vcd when it's out. and also the game if it is out.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Sunday, June 04, 2006
Friday, June 02, 2006
Ring anxiety
overheard this at class95 when i was drinking coffee this morning.
if a person keeps thinking that his/her hp is ringing, or thinks that his/her hp is ringing, or
if a person feels that the vibration from the bus is the vibration of his/her hp and
the person keeps checking on his/her hp, then the person is suffering from ring anxiety.
there is a reason for this:
it's something to do with popularity. and the person get so emotionally attached to the hp, that he/she is always checking on the hp to see if anybody calls or sms him/her.
interesting findings. food for thought.
overheard this at class95 when i was drinking coffee this morning.
if a person keeps thinking that his/her hp is ringing, or thinks that his/her hp is ringing, or
if a person feels that the vibration from the bus is the vibration of his/her hp and
the person keeps checking on his/her hp, then the person is suffering from ring anxiety.
there is a reason for this:
it's something to do with popularity. and the person get so emotionally attached to the hp, that he/she is always checking on the hp to see if anybody calls or sms him/her.
interesting findings. food for thought.
Friday, May 26, 2006
life is like the weather
so long never blog, almost forget my username to log in.
weather's been unpredictable yesterday, so hot, then suddenly in the afternoon, it started pouring so heavily.
guess life is like the weather. people always refer to their mood or their life to the weather, like when our boss is in a black mood, we say the weather is stormy. if our boss is scolding some people at the top of the voice, we would warn people, 'be careful, thunderstorm.' or if someone is not in a good mood, we say the weather is overcast, if the boss is in a good mood, we say, 'today the weather is sunny.'
same as life. it has ups and downs. but whether we want to treat it as thunderstorm, overcast, sunny, i guess it actually really depends on our outlook on life. some of us actually go through the same thing, but because of our outlook, some may see it as thunderstorm, some may see it as light showers. it all really depends.
so long never blog, almost forget my username to log in.
weather's been unpredictable yesterday, so hot, then suddenly in the afternoon, it started pouring so heavily.
guess life is like the weather. people always refer to their mood or their life to the weather, like when our boss is in a black mood, we say the weather is stormy. if our boss is scolding some people at the top of the voice, we would warn people, 'be careful, thunderstorm.' or if someone is not in a good mood, we say the weather is overcast, if the boss is in a good mood, we say, 'today the weather is sunny.'
same as life. it has ups and downs. but whether we want to treat it as thunderstorm, overcast, sunny, i guess it actually really depends on our outlook on life. some of us actually go through the same thing, but because of our outlook, some may see it as thunderstorm, some may see it as light showers. it all really depends.
Thursday, May 04, 2006
It's May already
so fast, it's May already. well, it's more of a happy note that it's May... at least i can look forward to a long period of rest from school. (although this is not a practical way of taking a break from school)
bb has been kicking and moving a lot lately. but i didn't dare to share. maybe only Mabel shares this as she is always wanting to know if bb is sleeping or not. dun dare to share my backaches, leg cramps, etc.
the whole thing was a mistake, and since i'm carrying this mistake, guess i have to take it alone.
so fast, it's May already. well, it's more of a happy note that it's May... at least i can look forward to a long period of rest from school. (although this is not a practical way of taking a break from school)
bb has been kicking and moving a lot lately. but i didn't dare to share. maybe only Mabel shares this as she is always wanting to know if bb is sleeping or not. dun dare to share my backaches, leg cramps, etc.
the whole thing was a mistake, and since i'm carrying this mistake, guess i have to take it alone.
Monday, April 10, 2006
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Monday, April 03, 2006
Monday, March 27, 2006
Thursday, March 23, 2006
ever wonder why we say good nite to each other before sleep?
juz realise the importance of a good nite's rest. when u have a good nite's rest, u feel refreshed, energised to face tomorrow. when u dun sleep well at nite, like aches or getting up in the middle of the nite often, u juz dun feel good when u wake up in the morning, like not enuff rest like that.
so next time when we say good nite, mean it.
juz realise the importance of a good nite's rest. when u have a good nite's rest, u feel refreshed, energised to face tomorrow. when u dun sleep well at nite, like aches or getting up in the middle of the nite often, u juz dun feel good when u wake up in the morning, like not enuff rest like that.
so next time when we say good nite, mean it.
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
they say pregnant ladies are troublesome. well, i didn't really believe it until i went through it myself.
first it was fever over the weekend, then last nite, i sprained my left leg. it wasn't nearly a sprain, it's juz that like the nerve or the bones didn't click properly, so it was painful when walking or at a certain angle.
and naughty mabel was imitating the way i walk, putting her hand on behind her back and protruding her stomach.
first it was fever over the weekend, then last nite, i sprained my left leg. it wasn't nearly a sprain, it's juz that like the nerve or the bones didn't click properly, so it was painful when walking or at a certain angle.
and naughty mabel was imitating the way i walk, putting her hand on behind her back and protruding her stomach.
Monday, March 20, 2006
Thursday, March 16, 2006
brought m&m to changi airport swensen on tuesday evening. well, they ate a lot, and of course, not forgetting their ice cream.
after dinner, marcus said, 'ok, let's go take aeroplane now.'
i got a shock. have to bluff him no tickets, no tickets cannot take aeroplane. can only bring him to the viewing gallery to watch aeroplanes. could see that he was very very reluctant to go as he kept saying that he wants to take aeroplane. wow, he thinks taking aeroplane is like taking taxi or mrt like that. yah, wait mummy earn lots of money next time....
after dinner, marcus said, 'ok, let's go take aeroplane now.'
i got a shock. have to bluff him no tickets, no tickets cannot take aeroplane. can only bring him to the viewing gallery to watch aeroplanes. could see that he was very very reluctant to go as he kept saying that he wants to take aeroplane. wow, he thinks taking aeroplane is like taking taxi or mrt like that. yah, wait mummy earn lots of money next time....
Monday, March 13, 2006
first day of March holiday..... but the school is filled with activities and students and colleagues. maybe the thought of not having to teach this week..... kind of excited to be back in school.
really rested during the weekend.... brought M&M to macdonald, they ordered Fantastic, but they didn't eat the 'rice', they juz ate the meat in the middle, so poor us, ate one and a half Fantastic, so full.
on sunday, brought them to KFC. Mabel suggested, but as usual, all they ate was whipped potato and popcorn chicken, luckily didn't order much. As my poor sis was working late last nite, so M&M didn't get a chance to go to AMK this weekend, but they seriously kept talking about it. So dear sis, u must have done a good job in chapereon -ing them, they miss yi yi and uncle and not forgetting, goodies from ah ma.
the steam boat was fun last nite. they enjoyed throwing the food inside and scooping out the food. they really enjoyed the food. and all of us had 2 mini cornettos after dinner... luxury. (i hope they forget that there are 4 remaining in the fridge)
really rested during the weekend.... brought M&M to macdonald, they ordered Fantastic, but they didn't eat the 'rice', they juz ate the meat in the middle, so poor us, ate one and a half Fantastic, so full.
on sunday, brought them to KFC. Mabel suggested, but as usual, all they ate was whipped potato and popcorn chicken, luckily didn't order much. As my poor sis was working late last nite, so M&M didn't get a chance to go to AMK this weekend, but they seriously kept talking about it. So dear sis, u must have done a good job in chapereon -ing them, they miss yi yi and uncle and not forgetting, goodies from ah ma.
the steam boat was fun last nite. they enjoyed throwing the food inside and scooping out the food. they really enjoyed the food. and all of us had 2 mini cornettos after dinner... luxury. (i hope they forget that there are 4 remaining in the fridge)
Monday, March 06, 2006
blogger not working well today, hope that i remember to save my draft later.
mabel is very sweet. when she goes out wif my mum, she actually remembers me and bought me a dress. of course, that's using her grandmother's money, but i guess, it's the thought that counts, i'm really touched by her gesture.
last nite, i dreamt that my stomach is very pain until i have to take an ambulance to the hospital.
as for issues, i dunno, since fri, when i wrote the last blog, i've told myself, heart of stone. either way, people will get hurt, either way, together or apart, things have totally changed, totally not the same.
best to die.... but mabel will cry.....
mabel is very sweet. when she goes out wif my mum, she actually remembers me and bought me a dress. of course, that's using her grandmother's money, but i guess, it's the thought that counts, i'm really touched by her gesture.
last nite, i dreamt that my stomach is very pain until i have to take an ambulance to the hospital.
as for issues, i dunno, since fri, when i wrote the last blog, i've told myself, heart of stone. either way, people will get hurt, either way, together or apart, things have totally changed, totally not the same.
best to die.... but mabel will cry.....
Friday, March 03, 2006
yah, so it goes to show again, NEVER DEPEND ON GOD DAMN ONE TO SOLVE YOUR PROBLEM
in the end, u r still the one who has to make the decision, who has to answer to your own shitty problems that you have created. yah, stupid me, take out the courage to make the decision. BE SICKENING STRONG AND HEARTLESS.
That's the problem with you, Sandra Teo, you are such a coward. you are too emotional, no wonder you cannot accomplish anything big. Sandra Teo, let this be your last tears, last pain, last sorrow. From henceforth, your heart will be cast into stone.
**** the world!
in the end, u r still the one who has to make the decision, who has to answer to your own shitty problems that you have created. yah, stupid me, take out the courage to make the decision. BE SICKENING STRONG AND HEARTLESS.
That's the problem with you, Sandra Teo, you are such a coward. you are too emotional, no wonder you cannot accomplish anything big. Sandra Teo, let this be your last tears, last pain, last sorrow. From henceforth, your heart will be cast into stone.
**** the world!
Thursday, March 02, 2006
crossroads
people always say that life is like travelling on the road. when it comes to making decision abt life, people say it's like coming to a crossroad.
when travelling, if u make a wrong turn, u can always u-turn back. in life, if u make a wrong turn, can u turn it back? no, u can't. people say u can turn back, yah, i do somehow agree, but if u turn back, will things be the same as before?
maybe it's not abt making a decision which way to turn, and then worry abt the whether we can u-turn or not. maybe it's about the final destination.
but problem is, wat is my final destination? i'm now like travelling on newton circus like that, turning round and round and round, aimlessly. can i juz drive straight into something and juz die?
i juz feel that really, maybe i should leave, this is the best way where none is hurt the most. no one deserves to be hurt the most. i am the one who deserves to die, who deserves to carry all the sins.
people always say that life is like travelling on the road. when it comes to making decision abt life, people say it's like coming to a crossroad.
when travelling, if u make a wrong turn, u can always u-turn back. in life, if u make a wrong turn, can u turn it back? no, u can't. people say u can turn back, yah, i do somehow agree, but if u turn back, will things be the same as before?
maybe it's not abt making a decision which way to turn, and then worry abt the whether we can u-turn or not. maybe it's about the final destination.
but problem is, wat is my final destination? i'm now like travelling on newton circus like that, turning round and round and round, aimlessly. can i juz drive straight into something and juz die?
i juz feel that really, maybe i should leave, this is the best way where none is hurt the most. no one deserves to be hurt the most. i am the one who deserves to die, who deserves to carry all the sins.
Monday, February 27, 2006
i'm really very tired. (with regards to work)
think i've come to a point of giving up. It doesn't matter if you are not smart, but u r willing to learn. It really sucks when you are distracted and not interested in the lesson. wat's the point of copying and talking at the same time?
if this is wat u want, fine, i'll oblige with it.
sorry, words of anger, very angry and disappointed now.
think i've come to a point of giving up. It doesn't matter if you are not smart, but u r willing to learn. It really sucks when you are distracted and not interested in the lesson. wat's the point of copying and talking at the same time?
if this is wat u want, fine, i'll oblige with it.
sorry, words of anger, very angry and disappointed now.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
to the f****r who picked up my sim card,
no, i should say, i admire your courage. admire your courage for using the sim card to dial 1900 numbers and chalk up almost $200 worth of phone calls. u r soooooooooo courageous.
so may the good gods reward u with herpes and STDs. thank you.
and to the telco company, thank you for not waiving the charges. You let me learnt a lesson. fu
no, i should say, i admire your courage. admire your courage for using the sim card to dial 1900 numbers and chalk up almost $200 worth of phone calls. u r soooooooooo courageous.
so may the good gods reward u with herpes and STDs. thank you.
and to the telco company, thank you for not waiving the charges. You let me learnt a lesson. fu
Friday, February 17, 2006
this morning, was travelling on tpe. a little late so was at lane 1, abt 100 plus km/h.
then this car was driving, even faster cos it can catch up wif mine and very close to my car.
then the dreadful thing happen. he flash high beam!!!! idiot!!!!! hate it. so i step on the brake.
siao, u want to flash high beam, u want to travel faster than me, u have the skills, then u overtake me lor, (think got 1 kencil in lane 2, travelling ard the same speed as me) if u can overtake me, i LL, i shut up. u dun have flash high beam. idiot.
2nd time still flash high beam, i really feel like e brake in the middle of the expressway and let u bang into my car. my reason for e braking: hmmm, suddenly got one flash of light, my eyes blinded, i cannot see, so i step on the brake lor, anything wrong? feel like e brake, but didn't, juz tap on the brake again.
better dun mess with a hungry pregnant woman. it's double the anger.
hmmm, feel much better after getting it off.
then this car was driving, even faster cos it can catch up wif mine and very close to my car.
then the dreadful thing happen. he flash high beam!!!! idiot!!!!! hate it. so i step on the brake.
siao, u want to flash high beam, u want to travel faster than me, u have the skills, then u overtake me lor, (think got 1 kencil in lane 2, travelling ard the same speed as me) if u can overtake me, i LL, i shut up. u dun have flash high beam. idiot.
2nd time still flash high beam, i really feel like e brake in the middle of the expressway and let u bang into my car. my reason for e braking: hmmm, suddenly got one flash of light, my eyes blinded, i cannot see, so i step on the brake lor, anything wrong? feel like e brake, but didn't, juz tap on the brake again.
better dun mess with a hungry pregnant woman. it's double the anger.
hmmm, feel much better after getting it off.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
i was so naive, last time i used to think that when u have a problem, juz go to sleep, when u wake up tmr, things will be better.
but i was very wrong. the problem did not only kept me awake, but also i feel the same before i slept and after i woke up. the feeling of helplessness.
u said dunno when it will end, i juz have a weird feeling that the end is near.
do miracles really happen? for the past few nites, i didn't really notice the stars, but the moon was pretty. was mesmerizing juz watching the moon. wish the moon would take me away.
the clouds has always been beautiful, especially on sunny, bright days. wish i can feel as light hearted as the clouds. but i can't, can't anymore. sad.....
hey, it's valentine's day. Happy valentine's day to all. juz like my student said, be it watever ur status, happy valentine's day.
but i was very wrong. the problem did not only kept me awake, but also i feel the same before i slept and after i woke up. the feeling of helplessness.
u said dunno when it will end, i juz have a weird feeling that the end is near.
do miracles really happen? for the past few nites, i didn't really notice the stars, but the moon was pretty. was mesmerizing juz watching the moon. wish the moon would take me away.
the clouds has always been beautiful, especially on sunny, bright days. wish i can feel as light hearted as the clouds. but i can't, can't anymore. sad.....
hey, it's valentine's day. Happy valentine's day to all. juz like my student said, be it watever ur status, happy valentine's day.
Monday, February 13, 2006
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
finding it difficult to get to sleep these days. have to consciously tell myself not to think too much. need to relax the mind before i get back to sleep. scared to wake up in the middle of the nite too, once wake up, can't get back to sleep either. have to do the same thing, remind myself not to think too much.
has a big pimple on my temple. anyway, main point is many things remind me of you. pimple, pda, clouds, blue sky, rain, car key, pc, many many things.
time to go to work. think i'll stop here for today.
has a big pimple on my temple. anyway, main point is many things remind me of you. pimple, pda, clouds, blue sky, rain, car key, pc, many many things.
time to go to work. think i'll stop here for today.
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
Monday, January 23, 2006
couldn't sleep last nite. woke up at 3am, then i got stuck, staring at the ceiling. thought about a lot of things. work is one, then thought of the past, thought of the future also.
had to force myself to sleep at 4am. but the dream was so painfully real, that i woke up with a shock. it was so so real.
nvm, maybe i'm juz daydreaming to get myself off from thinking about work.
had to force myself to sleep at 4am. but the dream was so painfully real, that i woke up with a shock. it was so so real.
nvm, maybe i'm juz daydreaming to get myself off from thinking about work.
Sunday, January 22, 2006
watched spiderman 2 on HBO.
spiderman loved the gal so much, but he didn't dare say to her. also, he knew that he has many enemies as spiderman, and thus he doesn't want to jeopardise the gal's safety. he gave up his love.
some may find it touching, or on the extreme, some may find it hypocritical. for me, i cried. eventually, the gal ran away from her wedding and went to find spiderman. i wish i had her courage.
thoughts for the weekend, tomorrow will be another busy week before the cny.
spiderman loved the gal so much, but he didn't dare say to her. also, he knew that he has many enemies as spiderman, and thus he doesn't want to jeopardise the gal's safety. he gave up his love.
some may find it touching, or on the extreme, some may find it hypocritical. for me, i cried. eventually, the gal ran away from her wedding and went to find spiderman. i wish i had her courage.
thoughts for the weekend, tomorrow will be another busy week before the cny.
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
eyes are puffy, feels like putting eye mask. hmmm, eye mask. nothing, juz came across my mind.
yah thank you so much, thank you so much for letting me realise the pain of your child in another family, calling other people mum or dad. yah, the pain, u r right, i can feel it, right thru the heart. retribution, yeah, it is.
maybe, maybe all should have a good talk together. all have the thought, looks like it's up to me to co-ordinate.
but if i can give up melody, then maybe there is no need for talk.
yah thank you so much, thank you so much for letting me realise the pain of your child in another family, calling other people mum or dad. yah, the pain, u r right, i can feel it, right thru the heart. retribution, yeah, it is.
maybe, maybe all should have a good talk together. all have the thought, looks like it's up to me to co-ordinate.
but if i can give up melody, then maybe there is no need for talk.
Monday, January 16, 2006
Thursday, January 12, 2006
this morning woke up with a heavy head and a heavy heart. eyes are swollen.
last nite, yesterday, 11/1, triple one again. anyway, the rain came in time last nite. it was pouring so heavy. so very heavy. i've never seen the sky cry so much before. it frightens me.
the sound of the rain pattering on the hard ground was so loud, it was good becos in this way, i couldn't hear the heartsss shattering.
it juz proves to me once again that i have done wrong.
last nite, yesterday, 11/1, triple one again. anyway, the rain came in time last nite. it was pouring so heavy. so very heavy. i've never seen the sky cry so much before. it frightens me.
the sound of the rain pattering on the hard ground was so loud, it was good becos in this way, i couldn't hear the heartsss shattering.
it juz proves to me once again that i have done wrong.
Monday, January 09, 2006
Friday, January 06, 2006
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Monday, December 19, 2005
20th, 11, wat irony.
saved from devil's crossroad, i appreciate
luv, we experienced
memories, i will keep
pack of lies, i should not have
empty promises, i should not have
i really appreciate, i do.
nothing said or done will make up the hurt, that's for sure.
sorry is not enuf, i know.
hell, i should go, not u.
saved from devil's crossroad, i appreciate
luv, we experienced
memories, i will keep
pack of lies, i should not have
empty promises, i should not have
i really appreciate, i do.
nothing said or done will make up the hurt, that's for sure.
sorry is not enuf, i know.
hell, i should go, not u.
Saturday, December 17, 2005
i had a dream, think i dreamt about King Kong, got jostled out of sleep, looked at the time, 4am.
toss and turn, tried to get back to sleep, couldn't, looked at time again, 505am. ok, at least i can get up now, the spirits are making their way back to the gates of hell...
so now here i am, wif my pc, wif my blog and my mind.
toss and turn, tried to get back to sleep, couldn't, looked at time again, 505am. ok, at least i can get up now, the spirits are making their way back to the gates of hell...
so now here i am, wif my pc, wif my blog and my mind.
Monday, December 12, 2005
Sunday, December 11, 2005
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Friday, December 09, 2005
Thursday, December 08, 2005
ipod is good, it lets u listen to songs.
listening to songs are good, cos when it hit the chord in ur heart, it helps u to cry.
crying is good, it lets u release the tension.
blog is good? i dunno. but reading his blog lets the tears flow. it flowed, uncontrollably, good. at least now i know wat can really make me cry. good, perhaps i deserve it.
dreams.... dreamt again last nite, dreamt abt yogurt spilling out, dreamt that in 2 more days it's CNY and the whole house is dusty and messy. anybody knows how to interpret dreams?
listening to songs are good, cos when it hit the chord in ur heart, it helps u to cry.
crying is good, it lets u release the tension.
blog is good? i dunno. but reading his blog lets the tears flow. it flowed, uncontrollably, good. at least now i know wat can really make me cry. good, perhaps i deserve it.
dreams.... dreamt again last nite, dreamt abt yogurt spilling out, dreamt that in 2 more days it's CNY and the whole house is dusty and messy. anybody knows how to interpret dreams?
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
dreams
think i'm a workaholic, i actually dreamt abt work last nite and dreamt abt the students in my form class too. (wah!) juz dreamt that there are in class and i'm suppose to administer some mock exams! haha! think i miss working too much. crazy, can rest, dun rest.....
so much for dreams. career wise, think things are smooth sailing. dun ask for recognition or promotion, juz do my part and duty and be there for the students.
as for personal life, think not as smooth sailing and a failure. probably it's the end of the year where people have to reflect on their past and grade their own personal life. definitely need time to sort out my thinking and mess. the outcome will be unpleasant, defintely.
think i'm a workaholic, i actually dreamt abt work last nite and dreamt abt the students in my form class too. (wah!) juz dreamt that there are in class and i'm suppose to administer some mock exams! haha! think i miss working too much. crazy, can rest, dun rest.....
so much for dreams. career wise, think things are smooth sailing. dun ask for recognition or promotion, juz do my part and duty and be there for the students.
as for personal life, think not as smooth sailing and a failure. probably it's the end of the year where people have to reflect on their past and grade their own personal life. definitely need time to sort out my thinking and mess. the outcome will be unpleasant, defintely.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
almost forgot my blogger id and password, that is how long i have not updated my blog.
new things may not mean good, with new things means new adjustments.
holidays may not be a good thing also, everybody thought u r so free and basically i have no schedule to follow, so i'm very aimless. been playing xbox games lately, now i know where marcus got his genes, me! i can play on the console, non-stop for at least 3 hours.
ever have that feeling of wanting to cry but there are no tears? it's the same as when u eat very full and want to burp, but juz couldn't burp, the feeling is awful. yeah, the feeling is awful, thought that at least thru crying, can feel better, but no tears. can't cry hard enough.
also suddenly had this thought while i was sad. mayb finding anybody, get married, leading a watever life is not that bad after all. ping ping dan dan.
well, on a happy note, i'm happy becos i dun have to wake up so early and it's a really good break.
new things may not mean good, with new things means new adjustments.
holidays may not be a good thing also, everybody thought u r so free and basically i have no schedule to follow, so i'm very aimless. been playing xbox games lately, now i know where marcus got his genes, me! i can play on the console, non-stop for at least 3 hours.
ever have that feeling of wanting to cry but there are no tears? it's the same as when u eat very full and want to burp, but juz couldn't burp, the feeling is awful. yeah, the feeling is awful, thought that at least thru crying, can feel better, but no tears. can't cry hard enough.
also suddenly had this thought while i was sad. mayb finding anybody, get married, leading a watever life is not that bad after all. ping ping dan dan.
well, on a happy note, i'm happy becos i dun have to wake up so early and it's a really good break.
Friday, November 25, 2005
new car
well, the smell of the interior of a new car is indescrible.
well driving a new car is of course shiok. the only thing is the body kit is not installed for me, bit disappointed. they will install for me when i next go for servicing.
the number plate..... it's of course SGA (Singapore Great Asshole). hmmm, when i strike 4d, then i'll divulge the number.
well, the smell of the interior of a new car is indescrible.
well driving a new car is of course shiok. the only thing is the body kit is not installed for me, bit disappointed. they will install for me when i next go for servicing.
the number plate..... it's of course SGA (Singapore Great Asshole). hmmm, when i strike 4d, then i'll divulge the number.
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
Himer Part 2
The Revenge of Himer with a vengence
remember himer? remember 28th June 2005?
know something....? the expected date of delivery for bb is 28th June 2006. That's why i say the revenge of himer. or should i say, what is yours is yours.
anyway, this morning when i woke up, i juz had a funny feeling about the date 28th June. cos according to my crude estimation, it should be due late june or early july. then the dat 28th June crept into my mind. 2866, nice number.
btw, my picanto is ready for collection tomorrow. *glowing with glee*
The Revenge of Himer with a vengence
remember himer? remember 28th June 2005?
know something....? the expected date of delivery for bb is 28th June 2006. That's why i say the revenge of himer. or should i say, what is yours is yours.
anyway, this morning when i woke up, i juz had a funny feeling about the date 28th June. cos according to my crude estimation, it should be due late june or early july. then the dat 28th June crept into my mind. 2866, nice number.
btw, my picanto is ready for collection tomorrow. *glowing with glee*
Monday, November 21, 2005
roaches part 2
this is it, i'm officially declaring war on the roaches in my house!
after buying those 'wipe out' thingy, placed them in the strategic locations in the kitchen. well, it kind of worked. roaches were less seen, except for one very bold one, which ventured out in broad daylight. but i killed that one by suffocating it wif insecticide.
that nite, think it's a fri or thurs nite, can't rem, in the room wif kids.... saw one roach scampering across the floor, that's it! ban m&m from eating food in the room while they are playng pc.
also on either of these nites, i found one roach in the bedroom.
the ultimate came this morning! i opened my wardrobe to get a dress and what did i see on the inside of one of the doors of the wardrobe???? A ROACH STARING AT ME! i didn't kill this one, i'm afraid of roaches.
so, i started devising schemes to rid the roaches.
1) buy more wipe out thingy to place in the rooms
2) check my maid's cabinet for food stuff tonite and in event if i found any, well, i'll definitely scold.
3) sprayed insecticide at all possible holes (what are those holes called which water seeped through)
4) i'll armed myself wif a slipper wherever i walked in the house, so that i can kill when spotting any roaches.
ok, so i repeat myself, i'm officially declaring war on roaches in my house.
this is it, i'm officially declaring war on the roaches in my house!
after buying those 'wipe out' thingy, placed them in the strategic locations in the kitchen. well, it kind of worked. roaches were less seen, except for one very bold one, which ventured out in broad daylight. but i killed that one by suffocating it wif insecticide.
that nite, think it's a fri or thurs nite, can't rem, in the room wif kids.... saw one roach scampering across the floor, that's it! ban m&m from eating food in the room while they are playng pc.
also on either of these nites, i found one roach in the bedroom.
the ultimate came this morning! i opened my wardrobe to get a dress and what did i see on the inside of one of the doors of the wardrobe???? A ROACH STARING AT ME! i didn't kill this one, i'm afraid of roaches.
so, i started devising schemes to rid the roaches.
1) buy more wipe out thingy to place in the rooms
2) check my maid's cabinet for food stuff tonite and in event if i found any, well, i'll definitely scold.
3) sprayed insecticide at all possible holes (what are those holes called which water seeped through)
4) i'll armed myself wif a slipper wherever i walked in the house, so that i can kill when spotting any roaches.
ok, so i repeat myself, i'm officially declaring war on roaches in my house.
Friday, November 18, 2005
pregnancy and constipation
(this is copied and pasted from my sis blog) sorry sis, never ask ur permission, but i really found this interesting. of course, edited to prevent uhmm, embarrassment and protect privacy.
hey.. just 2 cents worth of advice for people who suffer from constipation..natural delivery of child is the same as trying to do big biz with BAD constipation....often watch those movies.. where the gynae will go.. "breathe in.... and PUUUSSSHH...."? yup!! apply the SAME method to doing biz.. and i am sure everything will come out in a breeze!! why is constipation the same as pregnancy...?
1) u store the shit in there for 9 days (9 mths for a baby)
2) u feel the contractions coming and u know it's time to do it
3) the pain is so bad that you promise that's the last time you wanna go through something like that
4) u follow the die hard method of "breathe in... and PUSSSSSHHHH...."
5) u feel it coming out of you... sliding out...
6) u feel the satisfaction thereafterand the cycle repeats itself many times..
everytime you feel Point 6.. Point 3 becomes null and invalid...
(this is from me)
so for those people who do not go thru constipation, pls, i beg of u, pls, no natural birth.
(this is copied and pasted from my sis blog) sorry sis, never ask ur permission, but i really found this interesting. of course, edited to prevent uhmm, embarrassment and protect privacy.
hey.. just 2 cents worth of advice for people who suffer from constipation..natural delivery of child is the same as trying to do big biz with BAD constipation....often watch those movies.. where the gynae will go.. "breathe in.... and PUUUSSSHH...."? yup!! apply the SAME method to doing biz.. and i am sure everything will come out in a breeze!! why is constipation the same as pregnancy...?
1) u store the shit in there for 9 days (9 mths for a baby)
2) u feel the contractions coming and u know it's time to do it
3) the pain is so bad that you promise that's the last time you wanna go through something like that
4) u follow the die hard method of "breathe in... and PUSSSSSHHHH...."
5) u feel it coming out of you... sliding out...
6) u feel the satisfaction thereafterand the cycle repeats itself many times..
everytime you feel Point 6.. Point 3 becomes null and invalid...
(this is from me)
so for those people who do not go thru constipation, pls, i beg of u, pls, no natural birth.
Thursday, November 17, 2005
It's not autism
found this on the website, need to find an explanation for my moodiness:
Withdraw From The World
This is nature's way of making us withdraw from the world. ‘You only need to look at what animals do and how they care for their young to understand why this happens,’ says Maryon. ‘It's normal to feel a strong urge to prepare for your baby.’
Wild Mood Swings
You may also find you get easily upset, particularly during the early stages of pregnancy. Don't worry. This is partly because pregnancy is such a major event in a woman's life, and partly due to a surge in your hormone levels that causes you to cry over little, unimportant things. And, of course, you may also be very tired, which can be quite enough to make you irritable and weepy.
ok, so much said. make some sense
found this on the website, need to find an explanation for my moodiness:
Withdraw From The World
This is nature's way of making us withdraw from the world. ‘You only need to look at what animals do and how they care for their young to understand why this happens,’ says Maryon. ‘It's normal to feel a strong urge to prepare for your baby.’
Wild Mood Swings
You may also find you get easily upset, particularly during the early stages of pregnancy. Don't worry. This is partly because pregnancy is such a major event in a woman's life, and partly due to a surge in your hormone levels that causes you to cry over little, unimportant things. And, of course, you may also be very tired, which can be quite enough to make you irritable and weepy.
ok, so much said. make some sense
kao, GAL
this is with regards to work, but i'll juz be very general here, i know there are spies reading blogs.
problems/issues happened, u were angry, fine, u made ur point, u got ur way. but honestly u were not very polite about it. anyway, u got ur way. that was yesterday. issue solved.
today.... must u bring it up again? must u go ard telling other people wat happen yesterday? Kao, GAL. dun dwell on yesterday, u won yesterday, so going ard to trumpet ur victory? when u talked to me juz now, i hope that u can see that i'm very disinterested in carrying on the conversation wif u. becos to me, the damn issue is over, then why bring it up again? the worse thing is u must go ard telling other people. pal, one advice (even tho u may not read it) GAL, MOVE ON!
this is with regards to work, but i'll juz be very general here, i know there are spies reading blogs.
problems/issues happened, u were angry, fine, u made ur point, u got ur way. but honestly u were not very polite about it. anyway, u got ur way. that was yesterday. issue solved.
today.... must u bring it up again? must u go ard telling other people wat happen yesterday? Kao, GAL. dun dwell on yesterday, u won yesterday, so going ard to trumpet ur victory? when u talked to me juz now, i hope that u can see that i'm very disinterested in carrying on the conversation wif u. becos to me, the damn issue is over, then why bring it up again? the worse thing is u must go ard telling other people. pal, one advice (even tho u may not read it) GAL, MOVE ON!
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
people say
some say i'm shutting up myself. i'm not replying emails, i'm not communicating. see, maybe they r right, i really cannot find the words to continue anymore. perhaps this is hidden autism, now developing.
some thought that i've a sickness, because i'm easily tired, always eat and sleep and then always feeling cold, even with juz the fan on, juz like a drug addict. Kao! pls..... yah, i'm addicted to sleep.
really can't continue anymore, i really can't find the words to communicate anymore.
some say i'm shutting up myself. i'm not replying emails, i'm not communicating. see, maybe they r right, i really cannot find the words to continue anymore. perhaps this is hidden autism, now developing.
some thought that i've a sickness, because i'm easily tired, always eat and sleep and then always feeling cold, even with juz the fan on, juz like a drug addict. Kao! pls..... yah, i'm addicted to sleep.
really can't continue anymore, i really can't find the words to communicate anymore.
Monday, November 14, 2005
movies and shows
watched channel U, 9pm show last nite. show about how this guy met into bad guys on a particular day and how he had to assist them in their bad doings. wat sets me thinking was, before this incident, he and his gf juz quarelled, they thought that each of them didn't do enuf for each other.
but in the end, he really loved her. he doesn't know how to swim, despite this, he dived down to save his gf who is in the car. after saving his gf, as he ran out of breath, he couldn't swim to the top. no matter how his gf pulled him, he juz couldn't move. worse still, the car crashed on his leg. anyway, in the end, he died. it was really a sad ending. why do they have to wait until they lose it then they know that they really loved each other?
this show is nice. juz felt that it is sad, when 2 people go thru so much, and in the end, when the lady woke up from her coma, she couldn't remember who he is... he had to walk away. well, luckily the show ended nicely.
this is another nice show. juz wondering wat if u know that ur life is going to end soon? andy lau who acted as the male lead, he was lucky to have a second chance. he was lucky to have met his wife a 2nd time (tho juz met her heart) he could make it up to her. but how many of us would be able to have this 2nd chance to make it up? how many of us would be able to have a 2nd chance to say 'i love u' again?
watched channel U, 9pm show last nite. show about how this guy met into bad guys on a particular day and how he had to assist them in their bad doings. wat sets me thinking was, before this incident, he and his gf juz quarelled, they thought that each of them didn't do enuf for each other.
but in the end, he really loved her. he doesn't know how to swim, despite this, he dived down to save his gf who is in the car. after saving his gf, as he ran out of breath, he couldn't swim to the top. no matter how his gf pulled him, he juz couldn't move. worse still, the car crashed on his leg. anyway, in the end, he died. it was really a sad ending. why do they have to wait until they lose it then they know that they really loved each other?
this show is nice. juz felt that it is sad, when 2 people go thru so much, and in the end, when the lady woke up from her coma, she couldn't remember who he is... he had to walk away. well, luckily the show ended nicely.
this is another nice show. juz wondering wat if u know that ur life is going to end soon? andy lau who acted as the male lead, he was lucky to have a second chance. he was lucky to have met his wife a 2nd time (tho juz met her heart) he could make it up to her. but how many of us would be able to have this 2nd chance to make it up? how many of us would be able to have a 2nd chance to say 'i love u' again?
Friday, November 11, 2005
my mood swings
ok, i can feel that my hormones are changing, if u know wat i mean. one day i can be moody, another day i can be happy.
as for food, if i dun eat soon in the morning, i feel like throwing up. after eating, feels so bloated, can't even sit properly, it's like u can feel the bottom of ur stomach touching ur thighs, gross. any sitting position will result in backache after 30 mins, that's when u start fidgeting.
tired, i'm still easily tired. panting after climbing flights of steps.
ok, i can feel that my hormones are changing, if u know wat i mean. one day i can be moody, another day i can be happy.
as for food, if i dun eat soon in the morning, i feel like throwing up. after eating, feels so bloated, can't even sit properly, it's like u can feel the bottom of ur stomach touching ur thighs, gross. any sitting position will result in backache after 30 mins, that's when u start fidgeting.
tired, i'm still easily tired. panting after climbing flights of steps.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
wah
1) thanks to sis and adrian
2) everyone living on earth is somehow a hypocrite. everyone living on earth will bound to go thru ups and downs. well, juz so happen that i'm damn down now, so bug off, it's the best. i dun want to hurt anybody wif my moodiness, dun want to drag others down wif my moodiness. Juz leave me alone is the best.
1) thanks to sis and adrian
2) everyone living on earth is somehow a hypocrite. everyone living on earth will bound to go thru ups and downs. well, juz so happen that i'm damn down now, so bug off, it's the best. i dun want to hurt anybody wif my moodiness, dun want to drag others down wif my moodiness. Juz leave me alone is the best.
i'm sick and tired
do not call me or sms becos i'm sick and tired of life.
1) i get tired easily. juz to show u how tired i can get, after dinner, 8 something, or 9pm. sat on sofa, watching tv, i can fall asleep unknowingly
2) in the afternoon, needed a nap so badly, put my head on the table, slept almost instantaneously from 2.48 - 3.00pm.
3) any position is horrible, whether sit, stand or lay down.
4) interests in many things were killed. no interest to log on to pc at home, no interest to continue my cross stitch, no interest to even touch my hp, no interest and no inspiration to take pictures.
but i still have to continue with work, with life. today is a long day from 6am-4pm. i'm dead tired. i dun feel like moving.
so dun sms me or call me, i will juz probably ignore the calls and sms.
do not call me or sms becos i'm sick and tired of life.
1) i get tired easily. juz to show u how tired i can get, after dinner, 8 something, or 9pm. sat on sofa, watching tv, i can fall asleep unknowingly
2) in the afternoon, needed a nap so badly, put my head on the table, slept almost instantaneously from 2.48 - 3.00pm.
3) any position is horrible, whether sit, stand or lay down.
4) interests in many things were killed. no interest to log on to pc at home, no interest to continue my cross stitch, no interest to even touch my hp, no interest and no inspiration to take pictures.
but i still have to continue with work, with life. today is a long day from 6am-4pm. i'm dead tired. i dun feel like moving.
so dun sms me or call me, i will juz probably ignore the calls and sms.
Sunday, November 06, 2005
sampan in the middle of the ocean
this analogy came to me suddenly:
i'm like a sampan in the middle of the ocean, suddenly this big wave came and turn me upside down. as i struggle to grasp the reality, struggle to turn my boat upright, i knew my destination, i knew i had to head for the shore. but i also knew that the journey will not be easy.
this analogy came to me suddenly:
i'm like a sampan in the middle of the ocean, suddenly this big wave came and turn me upside down. as i struggle to grasp the reality, struggle to turn my boat upright, i knew my destination, i knew i had to head for the shore. but i also knew that the journey will not be easy.
more thoughts
i suddenly remembered, for renovating for my new house, i got nothing from the family, only some designing help. company didn't help me to source for cheaper carpenters etc. all of u left the company becos of ur conflict wif ur brother. i had to depend on my own, and becos of that, i had to borrow for the renovation of my house. i'm still paying my ass off for the loans if u know.
stop asking me to go and buy condo. i don't have the money.
is it becos i've bought 2 new computers for m&m and i'm going to buy a new car that u have this kind of thinking? then wat abt cousin? when cousin bought a new car, didn't u also tell me to change a new car? her the other half gets to drive the company van back, while my the other half was working for the company, did he get this privilege? u want to dig out my past 30 years, then let me dig out the past 8 years since i got married.
when u wanted to go for tour, u ask us if we could subsidise, did we say no?
nvm, i'm angry now. i shan't say anymore.
i suddenly remembered, for renovating for my new house, i got nothing from the family, only some designing help. company didn't help me to source for cheaper carpenters etc. all of u left the company becos of ur conflict wif ur brother. i had to depend on my own, and becos of that, i had to borrow for the renovation of my house. i'm still paying my ass off for the loans if u know.
stop asking me to go and buy condo. i don't have the money.
is it becos i've bought 2 new computers for m&m and i'm going to buy a new car that u have this kind of thinking? then wat abt cousin? when cousin bought a new car, didn't u also tell me to change a new car? her the other half gets to drive the company van back, while my the other half was working for the company, did he get this privilege? u want to dig out my past 30 years, then let me dig out the past 8 years since i got married.
when u wanted to go for tour, u ask us if we could subsidise, did we say no?
nvm, i'm angry now. i shan't say anymore.
i don't even know what title i should give this posting.
fell out wif mum. It's abt money matters, abt some family matters. (except for my dear sis, who will always be my sister and my friend, and of course her the other half, adrian) i had to walk off wif my family, i couldn't stay otherwise we would have definitely quarrel. i couldn't say that i'm officially through wif the family, juz that i've made up my mind, no more family gatherings for me for the time being. i've had enough of pretence, i've had enough of being hypocritical. yes, i'll stop going for family gatherings. if it's abt money matters, tell me, i'll return every single cent. (but honestly, i didn't receive any email) i hate people to accuse me. yah, u must have think that i'm very thick skin. but i'm not. if i would have known, i would not have gone to grandma's birthday celebration in the first place.
i'm not angry, i'm juz sad, cried all the way from amk to punggol. it hurts when it comes from ur mum. nvm, all the more now, i know that i'm alone. i've really decided that some family members cannot be depended on anymore. i have to stand on my own, no matter watever problems i have in the future. i know that now i only have m&m.
i'm officially stating here that i'll not be talking to my mum for the next few months, probably until next year.
fell out wif mum. It's abt money matters, abt some family matters. (except for my dear sis, who will always be my sister and my friend, and of course her the other half, adrian) i had to walk off wif my family, i couldn't stay otherwise we would have definitely quarrel. i couldn't say that i'm officially through wif the family, juz that i've made up my mind, no more family gatherings for me for the time being. i've had enough of pretence, i've had enough of being hypocritical. yes, i'll stop going for family gatherings. if it's abt money matters, tell me, i'll return every single cent. (but honestly, i didn't receive any email) i hate people to accuse me. yah, u must have think that i'm very thick skin. but i'm not. if i would have known, i would not have gone to grandma's birthday celebration in the first place.
i'm not angry, i'm juz sad, cried all the way from amk to punggol. it hurts when it comes from ur mum. nvm, all the more now, i know that i'm alone. i've really decided that some family members cannot be depended on anymore. i have to stand on my own, no matter watever problems i have in the future. i know that now i only have m&m.
i'm officially stating here that i'll not be talking to my mum for the next few months, probably until next year.
Lashing out at xiaxue.blogspot.com
i actually didn't want to say anything. the newspaper report came out last week about her views on using handicapped toilet. this week, the report was how stubborn she was.
ok, what i was trying to say that u dun have to change ur views on using the handicapped toilet. u can still stick to ur views on using the handicapped toilet. but do u have to be so mean in ur comments towards these people? do u have to say things like, 'u only lose a leg but ur bladder is working fine.'? have u put yourself in their shoes? yes, so wat if their bladder is working well? have u considered their feelings that they had lose a leg? do u ever know the orderal they go thru? must u be so mean to add on to their wound? wat if u lose one leg and one hand? wat if u lose ur breast? how would u feel and then a young lady comes around and say something like 'u juz lose a breast, but ur bladder is working fine, isn't it?'
u can continue to use the handicapped toilet, wat the public is furious is your inconsiderate, stubborn, irresponsible and rude comments to the handicapped? juz becos u r able bodied and healthy and young, u think u can make these remarks? can someone pls knock some sense into this young lady? i couldn't even call u a lady, u r far too immature for that. grow up, kid.
i actually didn't want to say anything. the newspaper report came out last week about her views on using handicapped toilet. this week, the report was how stubborn she was.
ok, what i was trying to say that u dun have to change ur views on using the handicapped toilet. u can still stick to ur views on using the handicapped toilet. but do u have to be so mean in ur comments towards these people? do u have to say things like, 'u only lose a leg but ur bladder is working fine.'? have u put yourself in their shoes? yes, so wat if their bladder is working well? have u considered their feelings that they had lose a leg? do u ever know the orderal they go thru? must u be so mean to add on to their wound? wat if u lose one leg and one hand? wat if u lose ur breast? how would u feel and then a young lady comes around and say something like 'u juz lose a breast, but ur bladder is working fine, isn't it?'
u can continue to use the handicapped toilet, wat the public is furious is your inconsiderate, stubborn, irresponsible and rude comments to the handicapped? juz becos u r able bodied and healthy and young, u think u can make these remarks? can someone pls knock some sense into this young lady? i couldn't even call u a lady, u r far too immature for that. grow up, kid.
Friday, November 04, 2005
rainy friday
thought i was over wif my negativity, but the week has to end on a rainy note. well, in one way it was good, like the cold weather, but in the morning, it was so chilly, esp after u walked to the bus stop without the umbrella and got some droplets of rain the body.
anyway, i have not told u abt the roaches in my kitchen. it has been some time that i observed that whenever i go to my kitchen in the night, there was bound to be one roach somewhere, not the big ones, but small, mini ones. as i was afraid of roaches, i usually avoid them or ignore them. the ultimate came when one night, i was in the kitchen, i saw 4 roaches! (mini ones) god, so the next night (why next night? becos my roach exterminator is not at home) i took the insecticide and sprayed at every possible corner i could lay my hands on. after that, u see these roaches all crawling out. i must have used half the bottle, poisoned them. anyway, roach exterminator came to the kitchen and helped to hit the roaches. on the first nite, at least 10 roaches.
on the 2nd nite, as i was walking to the kitchen, i saw this roach on the children's table which was outside the kitchen! ok, nvm, ignore them. the 2nd time, i saw the roach on the table, i knew i had to exterminate it.... so sprayed the hell out of the roach. again, roach exterminator came to collect the body. 2nd nite of mission, killed 2 rooches.
last nite, i had a dream abt roaches, big ones, in every corner of the house. had to sprayed them wif insecticide.
i will continue wif my 3rd nite of mission tonite.
dun ask me where these roaches come from, i'm as curious. we seldom cook.
anyway, irritated now becos stomach is bloated and i feel like puking. hate this feeling. think i'll go to the toilet to dig and puke it out, once and for all.
thought i was over wif my negativity, but the week has to end on a rainy note. well, in one way it was good, like the cold weather, but in the morning, it was so chilly, esp after u walked to the bus stop without the umbrella and got some droplets of rain the body.
anyway, i have not told u abt the roaches in my kitchen. it has been some time that i observed that whenever i go to my kitchen in the night, there was bound to be one roach somewhere, not the big ones, but small, mini ones. as i was afraid of roaches, i usually avoid them or ignore them. the ultimate came when one night, i was in the kitchen, i saw 4 roaches! (mini ones) god, so the next night (why next night? becos my roach exterminator is not at home) i took the insecticide and sprayed at every possible corner i could lay my hands on. after that, u see these roaches all crawling out. i must have used half the bottle, poisoned them. anyway, roach exterminator came to the kitchen and helped to hit the roaches. on the first nite, at least 10 roaches.
on the 2nd nite, as i was walking to the kitchen, i saw this roach on the children's table which was outside the kitchen! ok, nvm, ignore them. the 2nd time, i saw the roach on the table, i knew i had to exterminate it.... so sprayed the hell out of the roach. again, roach exterminator came to collect the body. 2nd nite of mission, killed 2 rooches.
last nite, i had a dream abt roaches, big ones, in every corner of the house. had to sprayed them wif insecticide.
i will continue wif my 3rd nite of mission tonite.
dun ask me where these roaches come from, i'm as curious. we seldom cook.
anyway, irritated now becos stomach is bloated and i feel like puking. hate this feeling. think i'll go to the toilet to dig and puke it out, once and for all.
Thursday, November 03, 2005
digital imaging
today's papers talk abt digital imaging, showed about 4 pictures, how acne can be removed, six packs added, breasts enhanced, flat hair became fuller hair, how the hair is tinged in colour, how facial fats can be reduced, how a nose can be sharpened. the images after editing certainly looks nice, of course, the person look so glamorous, so perfect.
but in reality, can we have such perfect person, wif a perfect complexion, wif a perfect figure? probably yes, u can say, some celebrity, one in particular i can think of, a taiwanese celebrity, but i'm not going to mention name here least i be sued. do you know the amount of $$ she has to spend on her body juz to look perfect? yes, no doubt, she looks good, great, every man's dream, but can we bring all these with us when we died? what becomes of you when u die? bones.... nobody will be able to see ur perfect body, nobody will be able to see ur big breasts, nobody will be able to see ur perfect complexion.
digital imaging juz brings the word hypocritical to a deeper level of meaning. maybe, perhaps, i'm saying all these to console myself that i cannot be the perfect one with the perfect figure, perfect complexion, juz let me be.... consolating myself
that's why taking pictures of nature is good. u capture it at its best. the pictures that i've shown so far, no enhancement. it is as raw as u see it. natural beauty.
sorry, i dunno what has come over me today, i juz feel so ..... well, juz sharing my feelings. people say blogging is for insecure people, probably... i'm for one who refuses to open my mouth to share my inner feelings, i guess blogging is an avenue for me to release my feelings. whether i'm insecure or not, that's for me to know, for u to find out. I AM ME!
today's papers talk abt digital imaging, showed about 4 pictures, how acne can be removed, six packs added, breasts enhanced, flat hair became fuller hair, how the hair is tinged in colour, how facial fats can be reduced, how a nose can be sharpened. the images after editing certainly looks nice, of course, the person look so glamorous, so perfect.
but in reality, can we have such perfect person, wif a perfect complexion, wif a perfect figure? probably yes, u can say, some celebrity, one in particular i can think of, a taiwanese celebrity, but i'm not going to mention name here least i be sued. do you know the amount of $$ she has to spend on her body juz to look perfect? yes, no doubt, she looks good, great, every man's dream, but can we bring all these with us when we died? what becomes of you when u die? bones.... nobody will be able to see ur perfect body, nobody will be able to see ur big breasts, nobody will be able to see ur perfect complexion.
digital imaging juz brings the word hypocritical to a deeper level of meaning. maybe, perhaps, i'm saying all these to console myself that i cannot be the perfect one with the perfect figure, perfect complexion, juz let me be.... consolating myself
that's why taking pictures of nature is good. u capture it at its best. the pictures that i've shown so far, no enhancement. it is as raw as u see it. natural beauty.
sorry, i dunno what has come over me today, i juz feel so ..... well, juz sharing my feelings. people say blogging is for insecure people, probably... i'm for one who refuses to open my mouth to share my inner feelings, i guess blogging is an avenue for me to release my feelings. whether i'm insecure or not, that's for me to know, for u to find out. I AM ME!
Wednesday, November 02, 2005
Sunday, October 30, 2005
more pictures
ok, let's start from this one...
this was taken becos it was nice, passerbyswill not understand, the fact that they made comments goes to show how shallow they have been. i dun deny i used to be shallow too, until now with camera and photos, it opened up my eyes and mind to beauty, to nature.
and this was taken during one of the sunset, at punggol, the new housing estate. it was told to me that this is a good scenery to capture as the sun cast shadows on the flat, but i think i 'screwed' the beauty of the scenery
then brought students out on a heritage trail, one of the pics of Haji Fatimah Mosque. according to the guide, this tower was leaning and it's like the mini leaning tower of pisa in singapore.
while waiting for the bus, bored, so took some pics of the clear sky.
there were 2 other places we went to, but pictures taken too common
next, mirror image?
next, capturing flowers perhaps not my strength, practising a few shots to get better pic.
again the sky, in this pic, u can see 3 things, the sky, the clouds, 2 different types of trees
remember my previous posting abt the storm and how the day is brighter after the storm. this is 2 pictures taken, the clouds are juz so fluffy and so much of them.
and this was taken juz randomly, there are a few pics, but i too tired to edit and put it up, so choose the best one to represent
ok, that's all....
ok, let's start from this one...
this was taken becos it was nice, passerbyswill not understand, the fact that they made comments goes to show how shallow they have been. i dun deny i used to be shallow too, until now with camera and photos, it opened up my eyes and mind to beauty, to nature.
and this was taken during one of the sunset, at punggol, the new housing estate. it was told to me that this is a good scenery to capture as the sun cast shadows on the flat, but i think i 'screwed' the beauty of the scenery
then brought students out on a heritage trail, one of the pics of Haji Fatimah Mosque. according to the guide, this tower was leaning and it's like the mini leaning tower of pisa in singapore.
while waiting for the bus, bored, so took some pics of the clear sky.
there were 2 other places we went to, but pictures taken too common
next, mirror image?
next, capturing flowers perhaps not my strength, practising a few shots to get better pic.
again the sky, in this pic, u can see 3 things, the sky, the clouds, 2 different types of trees
remember my previous posting abt the storm and how the day is brighter after the storm. this is 2 pictures taken, the clouds are juz so fluffy and so much of them.
and this was taken juz randomly, there are a few pics, but i too tired to edit and put it up, so choose the best one to represent
ok, that's all....
Friday, October 28, 2005
equation
someone told me 1+1=2 and 1+1=11. i will come up with a 3rd one, 1+1=1.
seems like 1+1=2 may not happen in the near future.
1+1=11, it seems like it, but it never really happen, in reality, it can never be 11. i never have the best of both worlds, becos i'm losing either one of them. last evening was the devastation part where reality sinks in. on one hand, the wrath was incurred, on the other hand, princess has chosen not to return to her kingdom despite the queen's attempt to get her back. No, princess didn't even give queen a chance to talk, the princess juz cried, you had to let her go to give her happiness. standing in the middle of the fountain at bugis, with so many people ard you, u juz feel so alone and the reality slowly but surely sinks in. there was never the best of both worlds, i was juz a fool as well. hence, 1+1=11 has been proven wrong.
1+1=1.... think this is more likely now. the time to decide between 11 and 1 seems to be getting nearer. that's why i say 1+1=1. anyway, at this point of time, i've lose my inspiration for blogging, becos i was distracted with duties and responsibilities. damn it.
anyway, before i end, while 1+1=1 seems to be the equation now, we should also work towards proving 1+1=2.
someone told me 1+1=2 and 1+1=11. i will come up with a 3rd one, 1+1=1.
seems like 1+1=2 may not happen in the near future.
1+1=11, it seems like it, but it never really happen, in reality, it can never be 11. i never have the best of both worlds, becos i'm losing either one of them. last evening was the devastation part where reality sinks in. on one hand, the wrath was incurred, on the other hand, princess has chosen not to return to her kingdom despite the queen's attempt to get her back. No, princess didn't even give queen a chance to talk, the princess juz cried, you had to let her go to give her happiness. standing in the middle of the fountain at bugis, with so many people ard you, u juz feel so alone and the reality slowly but surely sinks in. there was never the best of both worlds, i was juz a fool as well. hence, 1+1=11 has been proven wrong.
1+1=1.... think this is more likely now. the time to decide between 11 and 1 seems to be getting nearer. that's why i say 1+1=1. anyway, at this point of time, i've lose my inspiration for blogging, becos i was distracted with duties and responsibilities. damn it.
anyway, before i end, while 1+1=1 seems to be the equation now, we should also work towards proving 1+1=2.
28th October
It has been 4 months since 28th June. remember himer? himer should be abt 24 weeks.
anyway, that's not my point for this posting...
it was raining so heavily at night. i dun deny the effects of a storm and the bright sky after the storm, depends on wat angle u wat to look at.
my feelings is like the drizzle now. juz keeps on pattering inside my heart, not heavy pattering, light pattering, making the whole mood so gloomy and solomn.
i will never forgive myself for not giving her happiness when i could have it. just a thought, there will be many in your life whom u can give happiness when u could but didn't. Are you also not going to forgive yourself? anyway, juz for thoughts.... I REPEAT, juz for thoughts
It has been 4 months since 28th June. remember himer? himer should be abt 24 weeks.
anyway, that's not my point for this posting...
it was raining so heavily at night. i dun deny the effects of a storm and the bright sky after the storm, depends on wat angle u wat to look at.
my feelings is like the drizzle now. juz keeps on pattering inside my heart, not heavy pattering, light pattering, making the whole mood so gloomy and solomn.
i will never forgive myself for not giving her happiness when i could have it. just a thought, there will be many in your life whom u can give happiness when u could but didn't. Are you also not going to forgive yourself? anyway, juz for thoughts.... I REPEAT, juz for thoughts
Wednesday, October 26, 2005
some updates
so many days didn't update already.
1) i have more pictures i'm waiting to upload, akan datang
2) given this magic bean stalk to grow, cool product... have taken pictures also, will upload, akan datang
3) m&m have a computer of their own. they have been busy playing games on their pc for the past few days. juz some observations: marcus is very good at playing games, very agile, great co ordination skills. but have to limit him. mabel, not as good at playing, and not so sure, always asking for help from gor gor. but she's not as addicted as marcus.
4) yesterday afternoon was raining so heavily. the dark clouds came, or should i say black clouds, it was like hurricane coming, the wind was very strong. the lightening and thunder was frightening, juz like the ones shown in 'War of the Worlds'. when the rain comes, it was so heavy that even if u r standing in the shelther, u would still be wet from head to toes. imagine how strong the wind is, a closed window can be blown open by the wind. as usual, many trees around sg was uprooted, even very big trees. a mini hurricane?
but wat really caught me was after the rain. the sky after the rain was simply stunning. the sky is so blue, the clouds were so fluffy and white, it makes a good picture. i really understood the chinese saying of a clear sky after the storm. it juz suddenly came to me that yah, sometimes in life, we may be weathering the worst storm of our life, but u can be assure that after the storm, the sky will be brighter. i guess it takes the storm for me to appreciate the blue sky which comes afterwards. i never have so much appreciation for the nature, but yesterday, i was juz in awe.
5) NEVER EVER TRY TO TAKE OUT YOUR KEYS FROM YOUR BAG/POCKET WHILE WALKING OUT OF THE LIFT!
yesterday i was juz doing that, never did i expect that i would drop the key and it landed THROUGH that little gap between the door and the lift, if u know wat i'm saying. i was like, 'oh shit, there goes the key.'
but funny, i wasn't really upset, i juz went to find the extra keys that i had. guess i was distracted with my thinking which was why i wasn't paying attention to wat i'm doing. so pls learn from my mistake. luckily i only lose my house keys, the rest of the keys are in separate bunches.
nvm, the sky will be brighter after the storm.
so many days didn't update already.
1) i have more pictures i'm waiting to upload, akan datang
2) given this magic bean stalk to grow, cool product... have taken pictures also, will upload, akan datang
3) m&m have a computer of their own. they have been busy playing games on their pc for the past few days. juz some observations: marcus is very good at playing games, very agile, great co ordination skills. but have to limit him. mabel, not as good at playing, and not so sure, always asking for help from gor gor. but she's not as addicted as marcus.
4) yesterday afternoon was raining so heavily. the dark clouds came, or should i say black clouds, it was like hurricane coming, the wind was very strong. the lightening and thunder was frightening, juz like the ones shown in 'War of the Worlds'. when the rain comes, it was so heavy that even if u r standing in the shelther, u would still be wet from head to toes. imagine how strong the wind is, a closed window can be blown open by the wind. as usual, many trees around sg was uprooted, even very big trees. a mini hurricane?
but wat really caught me was after the rain. the sky after the rain was simply stunning. the sky is so blue, the clouds were so fluffy and white, it makes a good picture. i really understood the chinese saying of a clear sky after the storm. it juz suddenly came to me that yah, sometimes in life, we may be weathering the worst storm of our life, but u can be assure that after the storm, the sky will be brighter. i guess it takes the storm for me to appreciate the blue sky which comes afterwards. i never have so much appreciation for the nature, but yesterday, i was juz in awe.
5) NEVER EVER TRY TO TAKE OUT YOUR KEYS FROM YOUR BAG/POCKET WHILE WALKING OUT OF THE LIFT!
yesterday i was juz doing that, never did i expect that i would drop the key and it landed THROUGH that little gap between the door and the lift, if u know wat i'm saying. i was like, 'oh shit, there goes the key.'
but funny, i wasn't really upset, i juz went to find the extra keys that i had. guess i was distracted with my thinking which was why i wasn't paying attention to wat i'm doing. so pls learn from my mistake. luckily i only lose my house keys, the rest of the keys are in separate bunches.
nvm, the sky will be brighter after the storm.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
change blog address
i was so upset this morning that i almost wanted to delete away my blog. then on more self-control, i decided to hold. maybe next time i will juz change my blog address, juz like my sister.
yah, should have learnt from my sister, juz be brave and give up everything on the blog and start a new blog.
it was a cold morning... yah, juz right, fits my mood and feelings. cold from the inside of my heart, cold on the outside, in hokkien, dao. maybe i'll juz shut up in my blog for the time being.
i was so upset this morning that i almost wanted to delete away my blog. then on more self-control, i decided to hold. maybe next time i will juz change my blog address, juz like my sister.
yah, should have learnt from my sister, juz be brave and give up everything on the blog and start a new blog.
it was a cold morning... yah, juz right, fits my mood and feelings. cold from the inside of my heart, cold on the outside, in hokkien, dao. maybe i'll juz shut up in my blog for the time being.
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Wednesday, October 12, 2005
sorry
this has to drag on becos of my indecisiveness, becos of my insensitivity. i dun want to wear u out, u are right, one day it will happen, this road will either come to an end or start a brand new journey.
how to measure if i'm ready or not? perhaps u know when i'm ready or not ready, honestly i dunno. i can't even tell the difference now, if i'm ready or not.
why? last week was fine, why is this week like that?
this has to drag on becos of my indecisiveness, becos of my insensitivity. i dun want to wear u out, u are right, one day it will happen, this road will either come to an end or start a brand new journey.
how to measure if i'm ready or not? perhaps u know when i'm ready or not ready, honestly i dunno. i can't even tell the difference now, if i'm ready or not.
why? last week was fine, why is this week like that?
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Sunday, October 09, 2005
some pics on holland village:
this building was built in 1832
this two pics, a particular tree in holland village... no special reasons, juz look up and took pictures of the pic, it's quite fun.... onlookers can't understand why i do that.... i guess it's looking at things from a different perspective. and the pics turn out ok....
all these pics, took some at labrador park, some at kent ridge park, beautiful sunset... but i'm not in the right mood now to elaborate further.. so enjoy the pics
this building was built in 1832
this two pics, a particular tree in holland village... no special reasons, juz look up and took pictures of the pic, it's quite fun.... onlookers can't understand why i do that.... i guess it's looking at things from a different perspective. and the pics turn out ok....
all these pics, took some at labrador park, some at kent ridge park, beautiful sunset... but i'm not in the right mood now to elaborate further.. so enjoy the pics
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