Friday, October 08, 2004

F***

have the tendancy to type the f word. even blogger took so long.

first to my sis questions on her blog about guys not knowing what gals want. and that worm in the stomach.

it's true that guys and gals want different things in life. gals tend to be more emotional, investing our emotions into little things, that's y they could not understand y we can cry over a drama serial, why we would get angry with little things, why we would get upset with them for not doing certain things.

one thing for sure, our anatomies are different, next, our thinking, our emotions are also different, that makes guys and gals so dun understand each other.
actually have lots of things to say, but i was so angrified, (sis, u noe why right) it's like within one hour, two things can go wrong together. and the day is going to end soon, these things have to come at 9 something at nite to spoil my whole entire day. it's not worth to be kind, not worth to choose to be happy.

i have chosen to be happy, despite a difficult class i have to invigilate today, chosen to be happy even though i'm very tired and wish i could sleep instead of going to the dinner, chosen to be happy despite the appointment i have to go today. (was really tired, i almost fell asleep while driving on the PIE) i dare say i have chosen to be happy, to live my life happily today.

i think my defences were down during the nite, especially after the sumptious dinner, especially thinking that the nite is going to end soon, so it should be alright soon. then the two things must happen, one after anothe, sucks! i really cannot control my emotion anymore, dun want to be happy. what for choose to be happy the whole day, then these things have to come and spoil your day? too tired to fight the negative feelings brewing inside me.

again, at this point, i noe some man must be wondering, what's the whole damn fuss about? just go and sleep, and tmr go and settle the thing, ok already lor, what's the issue?

the issue is, i intend to laze a little tmr morning, dun intend to go to sch tmr, lugged back a laptop and four classes of essays home to mark. now u ask me to go to sch tmr becos it's urgent, u needed the details by tmr morning? i dun think i have a choice to say 'no, u go and find the details yourself, i'm not coming back to sch tmr' there was not a choice here. maybe there is, either u choose to do it happily or choose to do it grumpily. both choices, u still have to do, which is wat i hate most, so i think i've made my choice, i'll do it grumpily cos i really very buay song.

as for the worms in the stomach kind of feeling, it will always be lost. thought i found back the worm in stomach feeling, but after tonite, i find that it was pointless. now that the person has hurt u, it's even more painful cos u have invested so much emotions in it. the hurt is like 20 knives stabbing into your heart like that.

men and women will always be different.


3 comments:

Princess said...

people are like that.. they themselves have last minute plans... didnt plan their work properly... and when they realise that some things are due very soon.. they panic and grab all their horses... innocent horses to accomplish their task. what can these horses say? NUTHIN'... so it's their irresponsible action which u gotta pay a price for. a total waste of time! *bleah*

Anonymous said...

Agreed men and women are always different...period! We can choice
to agree to disagree but it is not
going to make a different. Come
tomorrow...you still got to go to
school and get everything done.
Yes! you can choose to do it with
a black face and no one cares or
you can do it with a spring in your
feet. Get it done and have fun faster.

Anonymous said...

wow! what an abstract thinking when it comes to men and women.
but i guess, sometimes, a one-sided story may not be the whole story.
there is a report on new paper last friday which discussed about wife abusing husband. hahaa... i tot it was an interesting issue, especially so true when it says that men do not confess or complain much becoz of their pride. men do go thru troubles, but they dun express it as much as women do. that is often why you hear so much story about guys being not understanding, guys being the unreasonable ones, guys being the bad character in every situation.
thus, it is always better to sit back, think about the whole situation before acting.
there are differences between the structure of an animal brain and a human brain. the main difference is the frontal lobe. it is the thinking process. let's not response upon action, but let's think before response upon action. or what differences are we from animals? where we growl in presence of enemies and drool in presence of food?
let's hold back our anger and unhappiness, things can be so much nicer. view them differently and you'll find much joy in going thru them. to be happy or to be sad is totally up to oneself, you are so rite! :)
hang in there... things will be better...
take it slowly...