Wednesday, December 27, 2006

juz did some tests from tickle... guess wat, my zodiac sign should be scorpio.... hmmm, in the midst of doing another test now.... romantic fantasy

sandra, it looks like your romantic fantasy is the Breakfast in Bed

There are few things better than waking up to the smell of hot coffee and sizzling bacon, especially when it's right under your nose. Ahh, breakfast in bed. It's more intimate than a candlelit dinner, yet as comfortable as an old pair of slippers.Trusty sweethearts and reliable soul mates are the men of your dreams, not mysterious strangers from foreign lands. Whether it's cuddling next to a roaring fire, feeding each other pizza straight from the box, or gazing at the stars, your fantasy doesn't need to venture too far from reality. And that's cozy.

dun understand the results????

another test result:
sandra, your celeb look is inspired by Christie Brinkley

Even if your face hasn't graced the covers of magazines the world over just yet, you share this beauty icon's effortless sense of style. Like your gorgeous and radiant counterpart, you're probably known for having timeless look that never goes out of fashion.A natural beauty, you seem to understand that having a healthy body and bright smile is always in fashion. That's why you'd rather be well dressed in a way that isn't trendy or over the top. Leave the flashy glamour to other folks. You create a look that makes people focus on you and your natural assets. Keep it up!

ha, not much natural assets to boast of....

another test:

sandra, the recurrent theme of your dream life is Mastery

You're dreaming about maximizing opportunities and achieving well-deserved success. This means that in some area of your waking life, you are adequately prepared and things are working out just the way you want.

last test:
sandra, a Classic look will make you picture perfect

Fur-trimmed sweaters, afghan-like ponchos, or sky-high stiletto boots? No thanks. Your secret to photogenic perfection this holiday season will involve sticking to the basics. Simple yet elegant is your motto. And really, why waste time — or a paycheck — on fleeting trends?Cool and classic, you look forward to the fun and traditions that the holidays bring. Whether you host the seasonal gatherings or attend as many as you can, you find a way to put people at ease and make them feel welcome. 'Tis the season!

ok, it's back to work, enough of idling..

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

fear

today, was on the topic of fear. talking about how old people, or my mum's generation fear death. as we are talking, i was trying to figure out why do these people fear death. well, of course, i've formed my own explanation. then i went to OSHO to check out dec 06 issue, wola, there is an article on 'fear' and i read it, and guess wat...

an extract from the article:

You have fear -- don't ask why; just look into the fear, go into it, watch. Don't be in a hurry to analyse, to explain, to interpret, because if you bring in your interpretations, your explanations, the purity of the fear will be lost; you will start molding it into certain patterns, to fit into certain theories. You will start giving it shape and form and labels. You will start distorting it -- it will no more be the natural, wild phenomenon that it was. You will start training it, conditioning it, and sooner or later it has to agree with you -- it is your fear. It is your shadow; it is bound to agree with you. But you have destroyed a beautiful experience that may have led you into new spaces.

Let this fear which has no object become the object itself. Don't ask why -- why you are afraid. This is a wrong question. Ask 'What is this fear?' Ask what it is not to find an explanation but to go deep in it: What is this fear? 'What' is the right question.

wah, my first reaction was to ask the question 'why?' hmmm, see what i mean by this person's article is always giving me new perspective to how i myself look at things.

http://www.oshoworld.com/onlinemag/dec06/htm/osho_speaks_fear.asp#

this is where this article is located. for those who are interested, can go read it up. but warning, he has a totally radical view, about using this experience as meditation, then when you experience, you will be able to transcend, feel peace... etc. go read it, dun judge.
there are a few things i want to update, melbourne trip and max's photos. but i need to find time for it. now mabel is looking at me, looking at the pc screen and waiting for me to do colouring with her. wah, she really can give me pressure. as i'm typing, she is saying, 'so long...' and i haven't bathe yet! i think i need 48 hours a day.
i'm fat

recently read the newspaper.... a young gal in her early twenties, she is 1.65m tall, (that is about the same height as me) she used to be 55kg, but she still go for SLIMMING AND SHE IS NOW 49KG. she says she feels fat at 55kg. then ivy lee, she is 1.66m tall and she is 48KG. now, talk about feeling fat, i'm feeling extremely OBESE!!!!!! wtf! sorry, juz piss....

another pissy thingy... when it's raining, even though it's in the afternoon, but why can't some of the cars turn on their god damn headlight??!!?? dun they know anything about safety??? or are they trying to conserve electricity? (what a laugh!) then if i signal and cut into your lane in front of u, dun u dare horn at me, cos i can't god damn see ur car at all in the pouring rain without your headlights turned on.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Rainy morning

it's been raining these past few days. mood was slightly dampened by the wet weather. looking at the mood face picture i printed, trying to find an adjective for my mood. can find only 2, frus and depress.

whenever things happen or most things will have 2 sides. Was thinking of the forest fires in Melbourne when i started this paragraph. In Australia, they were lamenting on the dry weather and trying to conserve water. They would love to have the weather we had for the past few days, downpour, non-stop for 3 days. only downpouring for a few days will bring some relief to the water supply shortage. Over here, some were lamenting on the inconveniences of rain, not getting to work on time, those without sheltered carpark have a problem of getting everyone into the car esp if u are carrying a baby, some (housewives, i think) will be lamenting that the laundry is wet and damp, no sun... well, the list goes on. i was careful not to complain out loud about the inconveniences of the rain when i thought of in other country, they would die for a rainfall to occur. reminded marcus and mabel also, how cooling the weather is these few days that they had to wear a jacket, something they do when they were in Perth last winter.

the other thing i wanted to share here was, found out a website. www.oshoworld.com some spiritual guy who believes in shedding your past, who believes in people should be able to do what they enjoy doing and not what others wanted them to do, who believes in meditation (there are a whole list of meditation techniques listed on this website). word of caution - he's a radical thinker, maybe some may feel that his thinking too extreme. he may say things like 'religion in itself is a mistake' if i remember correctly. that was the heading, eye-catching, but i didn't get to read the whole article. so for those who wants to read his articles, remember to keep an open mind and take it with a pinch of salt if u disagree with his thinking.

i read a few of his articles. after two articles, too heavy going for me. but i kind of like welcome his perspectives into issues. yah, that's how i approach his articles, to help me gain another perspective into issues.

ok, i guess i'll stop here. not advertising for his website, juz my thoughts for the day, oops, i mean morning.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Ma-ia-hii Ma-ia-huu Ma-ia-haa Ma-ia-ha-ha

wah, i miss this one
kids do the dumbest thing

have a good laugh
Chen Weilian Debut Concert - Love Me

only half the song
i'll update about the melbourne trip when i've collated my photos. My set of photos are ready... juz that a colleague is helping collating the pics, so when i have the cd of pics, then i'll update about the trip.

in the meantime, now starting up my engine slowly in view of the new school year. imagine, next month this time, i'll be so busy in school and school has probably started into its 3rd week. gosh, as u grow older, time passes by faster.

juz bought a princess magazine and spongbob magazine for the eldest 2M at the 7-11 store. for max, think i'll get him a walker. and i have not bought the 2M's textbooks. bad mummy, not excited about their new school year, setting bad example. honestly, i dreaded marcus to go to P1, he will lose his childhood soon. so sad for him. i really hope he learns well and able to survive and cope with the demands of education. Of course, i'll guide him, being an educator myself, but i'm afraid that i go overboard.

nvm, we'll all take one step at a time.

Thursday, December 07, 2006

thanks to friends who have been telling me that actually i'm not that fat. well, i guess fat or not, it's relative. but sometimes it's gross to see your cellulite forming.