Friday, July 31, 2009

the beauty of technology is you are able to work from home even if you are on mc. if i'm not on mc today, think i'll be super stress as it has to be ready for discussion by 1245pm and 230pm. and all this while, you shouldn't be logging to facebook. facebook applications really distract you from being productive. that i have to admit.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

max has special antenna

i can't help but wonder that max have special antenna.

last night, he was happy to know that i'll not be going to work. so he goes like, 'only 1 can go to work/'
(points to papa) you go to work
(points to me) you cannot go to work
(we point back at him) 'ok, only 1 person go to work, u go to work'
(max) no, i have to go school leh. wait my teacher scold me, how?

we felt so ticklish.

this morning, woke up early to bring marcus and mabel to their school bus boarding place. somehow, max has special antenna, like sensing that i woke up already, he woke up as well.

just now, while i was reading the newspaper, max was playing train. suddenly need to go toilet to do big business, so went to the toilet. about 10secs later, max sense that i was not around, he cried so loud, 'maaaaaaaa meeeeeeeeeee!' even though i had to shout from the toilet, he still cries so louc. 'maaaaaaaaaaaaameeeeeeeeeee'

i really, literally finish off the business halfway and quickly came out of the toilet. cannot tahan him.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

just been to see the doc. doc gave me 3 days mc.
random thoughts for the day:

1)july is really a long and hot month.
2)i finally decided to take mc today after feeling not so well since monday.
3)stilll thinking of work at this point of time
4) max just woke up and is talking to me
5) wonders what to eat for breakfast
6) wonders what time to go and see doc.

Monday, July 27, 2009

after break today, suddenly coughing badly. also feeling a little feverish, 37.1. will try to go home asap.

did quite a lot of work during the weekend. brought home so many things to do, must at least complete half.

Then as usual, on sunday night, i had difficulty falling asleep. marked till 12 midnight. then thought should go to bed to sleep. but end up watching 'nannies' diary' on cinemax, until 2.30pm. i would have continued watching if not for the fact that i force myself to go to sleep.

so was a bit 'slow' retarded this morning. maybe when the weather turned cold suddenly at 10.20am this morning, i was out there and probably caught a chill. that's why i was coughing badly after that.

Saturday, July 25, 2009

feels so good today to be able to sleep until the sun shines through the window. feels so good too when you are the first person your son sees when he opens his eyes. feels so good that when he opens his eyes, i'm right beside him. feels good when he places his hand over your neck.

life should be like that.

Friday, July 24, 2009

any great news on newspaper recently that i can reflect on? well, there are, just that my brains are not thinking well. most of the time this week, feels tired after work, also a little short tempered with children. i'm just so glad that it's the weekend.

but i brought home lots of things to be done. aiyo.

July seems like a long month. 31 days!!!! i'm so looking forward to pay day.

Thursday, July 23, 2009

i still feel very tired after resting. dunno why, just that i feel like doing work, but i find myself pushing and pushing to go further. just feel so tired to go on.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

today managed to cover a lot of things. After work, went home early. brought car for servicing. while waiting for it, managed to do some marking. when we came home, went for dinner, then after dinner, we started our online course. managed to finish it in about 2 hours. what a lot of things we cover today.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

you know the beauty of having children??? marcus didn't bear any grudge despite my scolding just now. as i forbid him to play and wanted him to read his story books,he's now in my room, reading his story books. and he sounded so happy as he jumped into my bed.

that's why i love my children. he makes me feel bad for scolding him just now. now he seems so angelic.
When i left the house for my lesson this evening, marcus started on his maths homework, a maths practice paper. that was about 5pm. When i reached home at 8.40pm, imagine my fury when i found out that he has not completed his work. As at now while i'm typing this blog, he's still doing. that is 4 hours for a practice paper!!!!

i am so angry, i think i've become mad. i've planned assessment for him to do tomorrow, his chinese tuition homework. all these are on top of his normal homework.

I told him if i come back and saw him playing, i'll whack him. so tonight i'll firm up my muscles. i'll make sure i leave some cane marks on him if i were to whack him tomorrow.

I do not understand why he needs an adult to sit beside him to supervise him to do his homework. only then, he will be able to complete his work. and some of the problem sums, he actually asked my brother in law to help him....

he is getting out of hand. i'm so angry.

Monday, July 20, 2009

it's a tiring monday at work. really pushing myself hard to complete the day.

received sms from marcus' teacher, he forgot to bring back his maths worksheet since last friday. this boy ah, so absent minded. i think i want to confiscate his pokemon figurines. I think his mind is full of pokemon and its stories. well, on one hand, it's imaginative, on the other hand, it's distracting him from focusing.

hate to be in this kind of dilemna. on one hand, you don't want to kill his imagination, on the other hand, if i don't stop this, he is not able to focus on his work.

Saturday, July 18, 2009

today after fengshan cc, went to chinatown to buy the sarong for mabel, she needs to wear her nyonya clothes for racial harmony day on tuesday. when we reach the shop, there were at least 2 parents there buying for their daughters.

after that, went to stock up on toiletries. then we hop over to brewerkz for a while.

in the evening, sis in law and family came over for dinner.

going to sleep soon, tomorrow waking up early and we are all going to bukit timah hill.
very sad when i read the newspaper this morning about the terrorist attack in Jakarta. condolences to the family who lost their loved ones. Noticed that terrorist attacks are getting more frequent, with the last one that caught international media like about 7 months away.

attack like this can happen anytime and even in Singapore. the most important thing is to quickly recover from this. easier said than done, but we have to. Let this be a lesson learnt.

Friday, July 17, 2009

It is very warm. Wish i'm in some snow capped mountain, enjoying the snow. oh, hokkaido seems to far away.

it's going to be a long day at work today. persevere! hang in there!

Thursday, July 16, 2009

recently then i realised the beauty of windows live and google docs of sharing documents online.

hmmm, looks like we can do without thumbdrive or external hard disk. only thing is you need the internet to be connected. but it's a seamless way to transfer your files and share documents online.

i'll be exploring more.
been tired lately because now it's like almost every week, there is a topical revision test, and the marking is killing.

things are going back to normal with CCA resuming and some meetings and remedials resuming. Still have to be cautious with social distancing and temperature taking, but i guess we all adapt.

as for the children, well, nothing interesting this week. just that have to start planning for marcus' birthday. also plan to go bt timah this week for some family fitness.

there was something heavy going that i wanted to blog today. but i lost the thought, i can't remember what it was already.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

i am very tired today, physically tired. but focus focus, got to get 2 more work done.

well, the children are doing fine. marcus, though he still needs a little pushing in doing his homework, he manages. It's just that i want him to build this good habit of doing his homework first before play. and also he is easily distracted, not focus.

then there is mabel, who takes afternoon nap these two days after school. She must be very tired too. and there is max, after making some adjustments in the morning routine, he sleeps better and does not wake up. You see, the children used to come into my room and i'll do their hair. I guess this was what woke max up. however, now without them coming in, i can get ready alone much more softer. so it was easier to go to work without max waking up and crying.

i guess everything should fall slowly into routine now, since school is in the 3rd week.

Monday, July 13, 2009

hope that i can stay focus on my work this week. been distracted and not been focusing. the will is there to complete the work but at times, the body is unwilling to move.

snap, snap.
sunday, the three guys went for a haircut in the morning. then as usual, we hang out at brewerkz in the afternoon. then in the evening, it's to amk for dinner. bought 2 crabs to add on to the dishes.

then today, it's back to work. I so dun feel like waking up to come to work today. but i drag myself to work. This week is going to be a busy week and things are going to get back to normal soon. well, at least remedials for graduating classes have resumed.

and mock exams are in 3 weeks' time. argh, stress
on saturday, we went for check up for taxi driver license. Last week, my dad protested that i am wasting my time and money to obtain the license because it's of no value to me.

Well, i went ahead on saturday. reason being, i don't see it as whether it's of value to me or not, it's not about value. and who knows, yes, it's of no use to me now, but really, who knows what tomorrow will bring. I may need this later on.

Friday, July 10, 2009

today, i gave my blog address to aunt sally, who is now semi retired in Perth and sort of guardian to my cousin who is pursuing his Masters in Perth now.

so this gives me the motivation to update my blog every day.

random thoughts for the day:
1) Maria Hertogh died. for those who do not study history or social studies, she was the girl who was brought up by Cik Aminah when her Netherlands parents were taken prisoners during WWII. When her biological parents came to claim her back after the war, the british court gave the custody to her biological parents. This resulted in a riot between the Muslim community and the Eurasian community in the 1950.

so the relation to me? well, students were surprised that she was still alive until today. They thought she had died long ago.

2)oasis taiwan porridge has shift to toa payoh gardens. we went there for dinner this evening. children love the egg, we love the cockles.

3) i actually nearly fell asleep on the sofa just now watching tv
yeah, this is my 190th post for 2009. I officially broke my record!!! you see, since the beginning of 2009, i tell myself that this year, i must break my 189 record, so the strategy to do it was to blog every day, 1 post a day. so faithfully, i've been keeping up with this momentum and tada, today, july 10th marks the day i break my record. vola.

let's see if i have 365 posts by 31 dec 2009. or would it be more?
today i was angry with marcus for procrastinating on his homework. angry with him that he needed an adult to sit beside him to supervise his homework, without this supervision, he can't focus on completing his work.

today i was angry with max for being such a rude and ill mannered boy.

happy 12th anniversary

how many 12 years will a couple have? marriage has its ups and downs, why two people are married is actually a fate. as they say, fated to be together, fated to be man and wife this life.

thank you for everything, thank you for being there, thank you for standing by me, thank you for being the pillar of my strength, thank you for your shoulder when i needed one to cry on, thank you for tolerating my nonsense, thank you for being the guiding light when i needed one, thank you for going through thick and thin, thank you for taking care of me when i was sick.

thank you for being a husband and a father. Without you, all these will not be possible, my life will not be complete.

we have envisioned our future, we will grow old together. (short of saying, i love you)

Tuesday, July 07, 2009

today went for body massage. must be too long never massage, the whole body is painful, especially when she rubs up and down with (i think) her elbows.

hope my muscles are not painful tomorrow.

Monday, July 06, 2009

4D, hmmm, been having small win since i got the new car. but it wasn't my car number plate. it was another car number plate, a number which the fortune teller had asked me to buy before. so bought ibet for fun. last sat, $6 and this week, 3rd prize, so ibet it's about $40. though small win, but happy nevertheless.

What is life?

had wanted to slowly reflect and do this post, but really when is a good time, a time when i finish my work and all alone? so might as well do it now.

What is life? many people have their own ideas about life. some people mature faster due to life's experiences, some people mature later. some people are never contented with life. after they got achieved something, they go for more. some are contented with the things that they already have. no matter what are your views about life, this is my view of life.

I was one who didn't have much to start with. my family is not rich. i didn't grow up in a complete family. my father left the family when i was 8. well, he didn't abandon the family, he just had to leave because the marriage is just not working out. he still has to give the children allowances. so there were times when all these falsifying of expenses just to get more money. i actually didn't enjoy the time when he came and i had to bring the book out for him to see. then all the questions. but usually he will give. sometimes he was late and i'm dead broke. mum wouldn't give me the money, or probably she was broke too, i had to borrow from my friends first and when my dad gave me allowances, then i returned them. and i always had to help out with the housework which i usually would complain about doing. Because my mum likes to wash the clothes at the time when i had the most homework or on fridays when i had to polish my boots for npcc. so there was always a conflict of interest. and if you do not help her to do the housework, she would be very angry when she comes home.

so i was scared stiff about marriage initially. i was afraid that i will end up like my parents, divorced. it was after much time when my hubby gave me confidence that i make a commitment towards our relationship. We married at a young age, an age where i was only 22. to many, this is too young an age to get married, no finance stability blah blah blah. anyway, my hubby didn't have it easy with my family at first. when i know him, he was only 22, and me 19 and he was already driving a car. so to my family, he was like this ah beng, ah sia kia trying to woo their family member away. it was after many years later that they sense his genuine, sincere personality.

so in the intial months after my marriage, we didn't have much to start with. a comfy 3 room flat, sparsely furnished, with only a pocket tv. the only furnished area is the bedroom.

so to come to this stage of my life, i'm contented with life. as for my hubby, his business had failed not once, but twice. first, his father's business, the months of hardship of paying the debtors with his salary. then the 2nd time, things just didn't work out between him and his partners. yup, kind of hardship too, cos there was only my salary to maintain the family and banks calling us to pay our instalment. this was the period of time when we got our names blacklisted with credit bureau, a record which never can be erased. so now, we are contented with what we have, just not cut for businesses, better off working for others and take salary and family is happy.

I dun dare to say that my experiences are bad, but definitely our life experiences had taught us more about life. we bring nothing to this world, and when we leave, we bring nothing too, so many things in life, do not take it too seriously.

life will come a full circle. when it's time to go, it's better to let go and just go. you see, it's better that a person go then to be suffering on earth. more so since dad deals with pharmaceutical products. you see, the adult diapers are not cheap, commode is not cheap, wheelchair is not cheap. those bed are not cheap. so i really can imagine family who have bed ridden family members at home, the amount of money and the mental strength that one has to put in.

so i've tell myself, if anything should happen to me, either i get well fast or i let go fast. i do not want my partner or children to be burdened.
it's a monday. Let's see what the family has done over the weekend. met my father on saturday and did quite a lot of catching up with him. then, as usual, sister in law and family came in the evening. we had home cooked food.

on sunday, as usual, we went to brewerkz. the children had fun playing with the fountain. then in the evening, it's off to my mum's place to have dinner. auntie gor yee brought up a bottle of red wine, then there was titbits. so the children entertained the whole family with their dances, jokes and riddles for the adults.

today is monday, back to reality, got to do some work.

Friday, July 03, 2009

wah, eventful day today. managed to drop by brewerkz for happy hour. really happy hour. 2pm. it was a nice time catching up, with sweet memories.

then reach home at about 4 plus, close to 5pm. promised the children to go east coast for dinner. so brought the skateboard and bicycle. while waiting for the food, the children went to skateboard and ride the bicycle.

after dinner, the children played a while more on the bicycle, while we sip on our drinks. it was a cool evening with some light breeze.

Thursday, July 02, 2009

i should have 183 posts today. soon, i'll break my highest record of 189 posts in 2006 or was it 2005.

anyway, tuesday evening, brought the kids to downtown east macdonald's to have dinner. then we took the kiddy ride. simple dinner, enjoyed the family time

in macdonalds, there was a mother with 4 children. the mum is on her laptop. what started to catch our eyes was that the mother spoke very loudly to her children and she was very stern in her instructions. you could sense that the children, esp the first two eldest one is a little rebellious already, as they tried to argue back. But she got even louder and asked them to do what she asked them to do.

next, she made them go and buy food. when the food came, her children returned her the change. when she realised that they didn't buy the student meals, she asked the eldest daughter to go back and change. The eldest daughter was of course, reluctant. but again, in her stern loud voice, 'go and change. you are a student, you should order the student meal. you very rich har? go and change now.' you could see that the daughter was so reluctant. after changing, she went on to mumble very loudly, 'you all so rich, buy a dinner $6. got student meal don't want to use' blah blah blah(i'll try to just describe first, then i'll add my thoughts later)

next incident, you could hear her say, 'now it's only 5 something, don't eat your dinner now. do your homework first.'

next incident, the eldest daughter who was initially sitting beside her mum, stood up and change seats. but the way she did it was like, she was very fed up, she banged her books on the table. The mother stood up and wanted to slap her, of course, she stood further away in retaliation. then the mum motioned her to come back, she went back to her seat, then her mum pinched her.

this incident actually disturbed me a lot. it was such a contrast. that family was like so unhappy over the outing at macdonald's, our family was so happy. there was laughter and jokes.

my comments:
1)in the first place, if you feel that macdonald's is expensive, then why bring your kids to macdonald's?

2) i can see the rebellious nature of the two eldest children.

3)if you don't want them to eat dinner at 5 something, then why make them go and buy dinner?

so much wanted to go and stop her, but then, she would say, it's none of my business.