flying off to melbourne tomorrow, sunday then come back. in a way looking forward to it, in a way not looking forward to it. well, it's a holiday, but it's not with family kind of holiday. i'll juz go with an open mind and learn and see new things. and of course, i'm going to take lots of pictures.

and I'm FAT!!!

no updates, because guess no mood, no inspiration. but honestly i was about to update.

attending this 3 full day workshop seminar. it's really good, although it teaches us how to teach our students, but the trainer puts it in such a way that we go through the activities ourselves and through it, i actually learn a lot of myself.

like yesterday we examine values. it was really hard to sort out 89 values into 'not impt', 'impt' and 'very impt'. then from the 'very impt' had to choose 3 values that holds dear to our hearts, wow, tough decision. but it forces me to think about my values.

then today learn about emotions/feelings. how emotions can affect our behaviour and actions, how our perceptions affect our emotions, how our past experiences shape our perceptions. it's really interesting and helps me to put all these in place. it really help me to gain new perspective into myself and relationships with people. i hope this inspiration stays with me... i tend to feel passionate only for the week... then next week, i tend to forget what i have learnt.

tomorrow is the last day of the seminar. looking forward to it thought it's tiring.

Sun Yan Zi - Yu Tian (full mv)

珊瑚海{KTV}

set, practise singing and go ktv

黑色毛衣{KTV}

can start going ktv liao

周杰伦

marcus and mabel used to like this song

周杰伦 枫

sad that the gal forgot her past

~ JAY'S 白色的风车~ ( TRANSLATED )

cannot stop crying

~JAY CHOU WT HEBE FULL MV'S 退后 ( TRANSLATED )

i dun like the ending

heartless

well, if anybody is interested to know my caption in MSN 'men are heartless, i must guard my heart.'

i know many will not agree with me, but things have had happened and it reinforce this thinking. even as i look at my son now, heartless. not appreciative of the efforts. I was juz thinking, next time when both of the sons grow up, they will set up their own family, their heart will only have their wives and not their mother, so i must bear this in mind. Maybe it's juz man's nature. To my husband, he doesn't see anything wrong with son not showing any care and concern or not appreciative. To my husband, as long as both sons grow up well and not kill or rob, have the necessary skills to survive in the society out there, he is fine whether sons appreciate efforts or not. It is juz woman's nature to take matters to heart.

Maybe this part i have to learn from men. i have to learn to let go of certain things. i must learn to detach myself from issues and sees things clearly. i must stop my daydreaming. if there is next life, next life i want to be a man.

Men are heartless, women must guard our hearts.

son son is so cute nowadays. and he is getting cheeky. my heart melts.

now he knows how to pretend to cry, trying very hard to force out his tears, then when u look at him, his cries instantly turns to a big smile. very cheeky boy.

and he is very very talkative. he grumbles so much juz before he sleeps, juz like complaining to me like that, sometimes he even grumbles with his eyes close. eyes shut, but the mouth juz goes on grumbling. had to 'sh' him to sleep.

he's my precious little gem, really love him