3 more hours!

so fast, it's going to be 2005 already. of course, with the tsunami that claimed so many lives, the start to a new year is not so smooth. i can imagine as we gather with our friends and families tonite to welcome the new year, there are people who are pining for their loved ones who have yet to be accounted for.

surprisingly, quite contented to stay at home tonite to receive the new year. outside, too crowded, too expensive also. better stay at home and have a few rounds of alcohol, also don't need to worry about spot checks.

now watching the channel u, their memories for the past 4 years. so sad, it was and still is, in my heart, a channel which provides quality programmes. i will miss it.

wow, M&M really spent a lot of money, juz now at compass point to buy some of their stuff for school. one bag (mabel has already got one), colour pencils, school shoes, socks, underwear, $163!!!

can someone help to hold on to the hands of the clock and let this forever be dec 31?

can't sleep

dec 31, finally (or unfortunately) 2004 is ending soon in 11 hr and 40 mins.

i've written about my achievement for 2004 in one of my blog, (dunno when)

as for resolution... dunno, never believe in making resolution, can never make it. maybe not resolution, juz three quotes to bring forward to 2005.

1. life is worth the living, if we make the choice

2. life is fragile, so live one day at a time

3. work is never ending.

i finally shed some tears

today as i was reading the newspaper, i finally shed some tears regarding the tsunami tragedy. now, people may have to grasp with the fact that the bodies may not be found at all! this is the ultimate pain in losing your love ones, no body for burial. 200 plus Singaporeans... missing... if i have love ones or friends who are among this 200 plus people, i could feel the pain. although you are prepared for the worst, but to be labelled as 'missing' instead of 'dead', that's terrible.

gastric juices

feeling some gastric juices today. bad feeling, dun feel good.

also expecting the big P to come, sh**, two days overdue already, feel so bloated.

feeling very sleepy now, die, when school re open, how to wake up at 6 or 5 plus?

next week this day will the 2nd day of school already, sianzzzzzzzz

wish i was there

wish i could hop on a plane and go to phuket to assess the damage and to help out in anyway i can. but i'm tied down, this is so frustrating.

i used to like the beach, that's why i choose the beach as my blogskin. it should be calming to listen to the waves and watch the waves beat against the shore. i could stand there for hours to watch this.

but to be in this kind of tidal waves is no joke. no joke at all... i'm not so sure of my love for sea now. It is fearsome, it frightens me.

juz like christine in the phantom of the opera. fearful of phantom, yet mesmerised by his voice. it's a nice show, if u like musicals.

this world is so fragile

it's funny, all over the world, they geared themselves up against terrorism, but they forgot the fury of nature. they could not defend themselves against nature's fury.

omg, it's 9.0 on Richter Scale. that's very powerful! the most powerful recorded was like 8.2, and it wiped out the entire town of Tangchen, a town in China.

the reports said that the sea vanished before the tidal waves came (pulling of the current) fishes were jumping out of the sea. it must have been a sight. within a minute, the tidal waves came. it must be horrendous to die this way.

that time on turi beach, batam, we could see and feel the strong waves, so afraid to let the children play on the beach, afraid they would be pulled away by the waves. husband went down to the beach during high tide, he already could feel the strong pull of the current and his legs suffered abrasions when they were involuntarily hit against some rocks. i could imagine this one is 100x or even 1000x more than this.

i'm overwhelmed becos we are really so fragile. remember what we learn in geography about environment? we have been using earth's resources, changing the landscape to suit our needs. looks like human is suffering retribution from Mother Nature. Her one quake destroyed what we took years to build. the effects were in tens of thousands of casualties, billions of dollars of damage.

earth is so fragile... life is so fragile...

Xmas came and went

it juz came and went like that. so did everyone got the presents they wish for? so is everyone really happy? i almost forgot the real meaning of christmas... ever wonder what will the scene be like when Christ comes the 2nd time? as a teenager, when i went to church, i used to imagine, He will come in this bright light, lighting up the whole earth, and all humans will have to fall on their knees in awe. that's why i particularly like that carol, (can't remember the name) where the chorus has 'fall on your knees'.

sorry, i'm having some post christmas blues.... cos next week, i have meeting, workshops. almost whole week burnt... sh*t.

Merry Christmas!

as compared to previous years, i juz felt that this year's xmas is a quieter. when i was younger and with no children, xmas eve is a must for parties, be it fren's house or clubbing. same as new year's eve.

but as you grow older, u learn to hate the crowds, learn that the simpler the better. this year's xmas... well, even for presents i was also like shopping last minute. but one thing i'm proud to say, i decide on the presents very fast. there are juz too many things to choose from, so with a budget in mind, i'll juz go shopping, and within an hour, i'm out of the shopping centre. hmmm, champion. even when i went to buy a pendant for my mum, think the salesman must kiss and hug me, within 5 mins of his talking, i decide on a pendant and within 10 mins, i'm out of the shop.

it's the gift wrapping that is very sian... wrap until my fingers got blisters.

xmas eve, nothing much, in the evening, suppose to have the church carolling at my mother in law's place, but she was hospitalised in the afternoon (nothing serious, juz could not stop vomitting) so in the end the carolling was cancelled. but we have already ordered the food, so after visiting her in the hosp, we went back to her place and have dinner. then at abt 10, the children opened their presents and they were so happy to receive presents.

as for marcus and mabel, we bought for them thomas the train station and a kitchenette respectively. marcus was so happy that he kept on 'wow-ing'. mabel was so protective over her kichenette. marcus slept with his train station beside him last nite. i think he played until 3 plus am then he went to sleep. this morning, due to his coughing, he woke up early like 8 plus (thanks to him, i'm up early as well) then when he saw the train station, he was like so awake and started playing with it. i guess this is the ultimate moment in parenthood. to see your children appreciate the things u buy for them.

slept early last nite, 12 plus. guess all these previous late nites really got to me, juz completely knocked out.

ok, promised marcus i'll play xbox game, spongebob with him. tonite, another family gathering, this time my mother's side family. think i better prepare a pick up to bring back m&m's presents tonite.

how do u know when u fall in love?

when the person never return your sms or email and u start having wild thoughts, u r sure u r in love

bangkok trip
back from bkk

Tiger Airways
it's not as bad as i thought. the taking off and landing is quite smooth. the only thing is the frea seating. i admit i can't fight with the kiasu people, so i usually don't get to choose the seats i like. anyway, at least i get to sit together and not separated. oh yah, and some people are so damn stubborn, ask them to swich off the hp, they never switch it off, the pilot has to make a 2nd announcement for them to switch off the hp.

places of interest/shopping
well, basically shopping. the weekend market was as messy as usual and crowded, plus the lanes between the stalls are very narrow. if one stop to view something, u may be stucked. didn't buy much, worthy buy is a huge haversack.

MBK - best, it's really a one stop thing and the things are cheaper. can bargain somemore. except for those which the whole shop is 199 baht one. the rest of the shops, if u buy more, can bargain. spent from 10am -5pm shopping, bought a lot of things from there. this is the best. next year, if i come back to bkk, i'll spend two days shopping at MBK and maybe PatPong and no where else. you can really and literally get everything from MBK. the rest of the places are really waste of time

Suan Lum Night Bazaar - the food and beer is fine. the shopping, well, unless if you are into souvenirs or scented things, u may like this night bazaar. didn't buy much, in fact, find them priced more expensively than MBK. next year if i come to bkk again, i'll juz come to this place for the food and beer.

thai girls
i can't help wondering that the thai gals are extremely slim. i'm not talking about those ah gua. it's the original gals that are slim. then we began brainstorming why. 2 reasons we conclude, their diet, lots of lime and spice, 2nd reason, they exercise by walking a lot and climbing up stairs. there are no escalators to their skytrain station, so imagine u have to take the skytrain everyday, u are really climbing up flights of steps. we counted one flight of step. 64 steps altogether!!! power. so i've made up my mind to try to use the staircase more

the rest are just miscellaneous thoughts which i won't blog. juz like to say that i enjoy my sis, her bf, her best fren and her best fren's bf company. they were like young, all 21, and every little thing, they take pictures. it's like even the dishes we ordered, when it comes, they also take phoot. not to mention my aunt and her fren when they joined us on the 2nd day, grateful to them that they are so obliging to us young people. imagine, 8 of us together, it was quite fun!
so sorry if i was pushy during the trip, i guess 3D2N so we tend to do things fast and on the ball.

will plan to go bkk next dec again. it's worth the trip. start saving up for it...

personality test results

sandra, in the last year you've earned 754 karma points

You've earned these points by doing good things, therefore allowing good things to circle back to you. There are 6 different ways people earn karma, and by looking at your responses to this test, we can tell that your caring nature is earning you the most karma.

ha, caring? maybe. that's y i got the caring teacher award twice? haha, funny.

a quiet saturday night

packed for bkk trip tmr morning already, reaching the airport at 6 plus. 1st time taking a budget airline, so quite excited to try it out.

my cousin whom i've helped in tuitioning in SS/Geog Elect came in as the top student for his school for 'N' level. so proud of him. scored distinction.... parents were very happy and thanked me juz now. one of th perks in teaching... (sniff, sniff)

children were not feeling well for the past few days, especially Mabel. had high fever since thursday nite. this morning, got to stick the medicine up her ass to bring down the fever, poor gal, so painful. heartache for her... but no choice, i had to do it, as her fever was 39.4. it was like she was pleading with me, like 'no, mummy. u go away, no!' but i had to force her, i felt very bad.
children usually dun understand our good intentions. they always feel that we force them.

looking younger?

i'm so happy today, someone commented that i look younger these days. must be my new hairstyle. so happy, elated.

have to wat, who ask my hubby so baby face.... so i must keep up with him...

anyway, this person makes my day :)

juz came back from batam

batam... well the two days we were there, it was raining heavily, until we come back on tuesday, then it's so sunny. we didn't have a chance to go down to the beach. anyway, when it's high tide, the waves are really big, i believe can sweep a person away even if the person is standing on the shore. but i enjoy listening to the waves.

the spa treatment, well, the first one we go to was quite 'class' like that, got spa treatment in a private room, more privacy. the scrub and massage was good, especially the neck, shoulder and back. but my legs can't stand the massage. in the package, there is also a foot reflex. omg, that one is the most painful. she is already very light already, but it's still painful. can u believe i'm perspiring even though i'm in the air con room doing the foot reflex? think my blood circulated extremely well after that.

at nite, the seafood dinner was nice and quite reasonably priced.

the next day, we all went back to the same place for massage, but the person wanted to add extra charge to us. we were all so fed up, we left and went to another one. this one, not so class, but the massage was better. the people here are better skilled. but it's really those where u pull the curtain, it's like i can hear the guys next to me speaking, and i'm half naked. but everyone was professional, the lady massenger make sure that the curtains is really close tight and shut. i guess i have to trust her.

on the last day, finally manage to use the hotel's facilities, brought M&M to the swimming pool to swim and the wind was blowing so hard... brrrr.

finally back in sg today. quite tired, but was happy. cos a big group of us going, so it was kind of fun. it was also a good time to talk to some other relatives, like uncle who has not been in close contact with us. u learn to look after the elderly, like ah ma who can hardly see the steps, and mind you, turi beach resort is quite hilly. so we always have to call the bungee to fetch ah ma to her room.

well, i'm looking forward to my BKK trip this coming sunday. it's really shop and eat.

2nd day of new hairstyle

ok, i'm getting used to my new hairstyle already. at least i dun get a shock when i look at myself in the mirror. can see the colour of the highlight more clearly today. hope i dun look too brunette. ok, enough of my new hairstyle, get on with life.

will be going to batam for holidays from sunday to tuesday. mixed feeling, becos this is a big family gathering thing, going on vacation, and well, on one hand it's fun to have so many people together, on the other hand, if u dun feel like communicating with them, it's scary to be stuck with them for 3 days. anyway, hope to get a good spa treatment and hopefully a good tan this vacation. also hope that marcus and mabel can enjoy themselves during this vacation with their swimming and stuff like that.

well, realise that they have grown closer to us after the KL trip. like that kind of feeling. otherwise, it's always work, work, work and i do feel the distance. next year, they are starting school on 5th jan, so sad that i can't be with them on the first day of sch. in fact, becos of work, i'll not be able to be with them on the 1st 3 days of sch. i feel very frus inside. sometimes, i feel like quitting my job, but can't bring myself to do it.

rebonded my hair

yup, went to rebond my hair today. can't believe i spend 6 hours sitting at the salon to do my hair... i guess guys will never understand why we gals can so long sitting at the salon.

ok, please with results, more of pleased with revamp image. look entirely different, i'm not used to my new hairstyle, felt that i look different and weird in the mirror. guess i'll come to terms with it.

feeling so so today

y i feeling so so today? think maybe becos i dun have enough sleep. slept at 3 something, woke up at 8 plus. messenging online the whole nite last nite, for about 6 hours, omg. msn messenger is addictive. but what to do, u meet old frens, u need to catch up.

last nite, catch up with 1 student from my previous school. He remembers me!!! i'm impressed even though i taught them for only about 3-4 months before i go on maternity leave and eventually being posted out. i'm impressed and it really makes my day to have such appreciative students. hope the current batch of students are appreciative as well when they finish their major exams next year (cough hint hint). he has finished his Os, waiting for jc posting.

then early in the morning, brought M&M to orientation. i'm stressed, they may not like and want to go to school, how? it's so hard to slow talk to them, but they still dun understand, almost vomitted blood. and the irony is their mum is a teacher!!! i guess all children go thru this stage. will sure cry, let them be, juz dun want them to hate school. will see how it goes.

then the whole day quite average, nothing spectacular, even amazing race also average today, quite predictable, nothing exciting.

until now, been on the net for 3 hours... also so so... ok, i'm boring all of u with my so so feeling

the only thing i'm looking forward to is, i'm rebonding my hair tomorrow!!!! yeah, and highlighting it also!!!! yeah

new hairdo, new life, new person, new outlook in life

BAck in SG saFEly

to all those concern, i'm back in sg safely.
the trip - well, KL's traffic was bad, the drivers there are very very reckless, esp the taxis. anyway, luv the hotel, it was complimentary, got some voucher, if i dun have voucher, would never have stayed there, cos it's very very ex. m&m esp. mabel luv the hotel, in fact she missed it so much and said wanted to go back to '18'. that's the floor we stayed. she said the bed is nice (king size, soft, all 4 of us can squeeze on the bed) the bathroom is nice, the swimming pool is nice, (on the 22nd flr).

went to sunway lagoon sunday. well, i would go back there again when m&m are bigger and know how to play wif the water slides and stuff. it's like they are still too young for some of the things and it's like we cannot leave them there and go and enjoy the water slides ourselves.

the next day, proceed to malacca. it's basically a quieter town than KL, definitely. the pace of life very relaxed there, there were so many shops not open for business! tried the food there, delicious. the assam laksa (mouth drooling now!), the chendol (so different from sg one) the nyonya food. malacca is worth visiting again, for the food.

back in sg this evening. after settling all the stuff, it's back to computer and net again. still reading my emails, so many of them, started reading them since like 9 something, and it's like 12 something already. a few more emails to go...

going to KL/sunway lagoon/malacca

wow, so tired after all the packing. going to KL tmr. yup, driving up. thanks to all the friends who gave me advice on driving in Malaysia. will heed all thy advices.

amazing, we could actually squeeze all our clothings (hubby, me, M&M) into one backpack. we could also squeeze our toiletries, swimming stuff, pampers inside the same bag. i juz need to take another smaller backpack for all the othe non clothing stuff, like milk bottle, milk powder.

that reminds me of amazing race. i cannot believe the eliminated pair actually spent 8 hours looking thru the hay for the clue. they were like there from day to night time. very bad luck. and they were actually the first few groups to arrive. at first i thought the grandparents will be eliminated cos they spent so much time at the ikea there. they were very very lucky. but the detour at ikea was fun. those who chose counting, counted like mad... that was where the grandparents stumble. they counted so many times, but did not get the right figure. mind you, the correct figure is 2304. so can u imagine counting it all over again, time and again. if i'm taking part, i would choose building. anyway, my hubby is very good at assembling ikea furniture.

oh yah, again the father/daughter group. the father is damn good/accurate. very skilful father. my hero. totally respect him. always very cool, never run, juz walk fast. cool man!

Sesame Street Musical at Downtown EAst

tonite, brought marcus and mabel to watch the musical. as usual, spent some money on buying binoculars for them. as usual, marcus is ever so cool when watching the musical, dun sing, dun move, just concentrate on the stage. whereas mabel will be singing and clapping and swaying to the music. hubby says that this mabel next time will be like mummy, chiong disco one. the musical is alright. i mean to adults, how good can musical get? but the children were really excited, maybe except for mr coolman, marcus.

anyway, saw some students there. saw the guides, apparently, they were at wild wild wet, oh my, their face like cooked lobster, so red. aiyoh, must take care of your skin, gals, otherwise next time got freckles. then after the musical, marcus wanted to sit on those cars that go round and round. i was like searching for the booth to buy tickets, then lo and behold, i saw Yi Bing (3N4) working there, helping the children up the cars and strapping them to the safety belts. so naturally i asked him where to buy the tickets. anyway, had a good talk with Yi Bing. not bad, at least working, can earn some money. rather than hanging around. ok, to all the students out there, enjoy and work hard, watever u are doing this holiday, enjoy. otherwise, very soon, we will be meeting in school soon.

weekend

weekend was like a piece of shit, generally. started on saturday. wat did i do on saturday...? spending time wif children is ok, they love it, we went eating, shopping, oh yah, they bought yet another 2 VCDs to add on to their enormous huge pile of VCDs, (think they got at least 50 VCDs, close to 80 VCDs.) anyway, luck was like a piece of shit on saturday, lose everything except $2. (wow, record)

then comes sunday. woke up early in the morning to fetch mum to church, (her arms are still in cast), oh yah, when we wanted to bring the kids out for lunch, the car's battery died on us. luckily, 1 friend stayed nearby and came to help push start the car. it just took 5 mins for 2 guys to do it. then got to go and buy new battery... it was like it's almost 1 pm, i did not have my coffee, i did not have my lunch, and it's a total waste of time.

after lunch, went to fetch mum from church, then it started pouring. so heavy. after that, met up wif serena and small adrian at junction 8. need to use my best denkei voucher, so bought a new washing machine. also went to pick up the sesame street musical for tues nite. omg, this year, i've watched 3 children musicals wif my children already. well, wat to do, as long as they are happy.

serena and adrian came to our house for the afternoon. the horrible part was in the evening, dunno wat happen to my mum, she is like so petty lor, we waited for her, wanted to bring her out for dinner, but she didn't want to and when we called her on the hp, she didn't pick up. win liao.

in the end, decided that we all deserve a good treat after all the hassle of waiting for her. (it was like almost 8 something when we had our dinner) so treated all to sakae sushi for dinner. when we walked past the arcade, marcus was very quick to spot the 'crazy taxi' poster pasted on the arcade's door. we were like, ohhhh, ok, after dinner, he was like hogging the crazy taxi machine. i can already foresee what 'discipline' problems marcus will give me when he starts schooling.

then on monday morning, got a real horrible call early in the morning, almost spoil my holiday plans to KL, need to quickly find alternative accomodation, thanks to the customer service officer who did not do the booking for me last week. this morning called me and said, 'mrs tan, sorry, the rooms that you wanted are all fully booked.' you can imagine my anger wen i heard this especially when i juz woke up. so this is the final straw, i broke down. cried tears of frustration.

picked myself up after that, no point, luckily the rest of the day is not so bad. kind of like make up for everything. i have finished one instalment of the worksheets that i'm supposed to do, tmr can submit already, big load off my shoulder. watched 'the core' 2nd time on vcd.

Music Underground

last nite, went music underground with frens. actually only know one of them, the rest are the first time. it's like this fren went to invite this gal, and then this gal invite at least 5 others, so that makes 8 of us and the two of us are the oldest, the rest of them are like 21... omg, i think 80% of the people there last nite are like in their early twenties, i must be one of the 20% who are like old auntie. quite crowded last nite, crowd is fun.

music... well, fabulous, it's like all my favourite 91.3 songs...i dance? of course lah, pay money go inside (eh, actually never pay, fren is europa member, sign us in) of course must dance lah... well, i know i won't be one of those gals who dance in the bar top, i'm past my prime, but i do enjoy my own dancing on the dance floor.

didn't really quite talk to the other frens, cos 1st time and i also dunno wat to say to them, so was quite alone, dancing on the steps, (remind me of pleasure dome...) anyway, i think got one xiao di want to kao me like dat, it's like when i'm on the steps dancing, he's around, then when i moved to the dance floor, he also moved lor, then when i return to the steps there, he also moved lor. y i call him xiao di? becos he's definitely younger than me... anyway, there was once we made eye contact and i think he wanted to open his mouth and asked me something, but then he hesitated lor... then he like forget it liao... so i also dun pursue lah. if i'm younger, not married, maybe i'll tease him, but too old for the game liao.

didn't stay too late, 230 like dat, we left already. old liao, not like last time. y i say i old liao... cos this morning when i wake up, my leg muscle cramp leh... warao, i very lousy leh.

ok, i'm late for golf.... better end.

Marcus and Mabel orientation

receive a letter Kinderland. M & M have orientation on 8 Dec for their school next year. omg, i think i'm more excited than they do! they are finally going to school. but i look at the school fees, the book list, the uniform, all need $$$$, frightening as well, everything is x2.

well, let's take one step at a time.... $$$ will come, as long as both of them are happy.

next week is chiong week

jio-ing pple who want to chiong... next week, 1/12 (wed)want to go devils bar? ladies nite...
also 3/12 (fri) want to go newsroom bar? this one i confirm going....

amazing race

well, as usual, the place featured is very nice. the contestants actually get to row the boat, viking.. interesting. let's see, well, guess when the group is made up of two ladies, they tend to be weaker... either they can't drive the car or can't read map.

as for the couples, well, the engaged models this time, well, maybe i tend to compare them to dating models last season, thought brandon and nicole last season was more loving and cooperative than this pair of engaged models. dunno, this pair of models juz gives me the idea that they are very egoistic.

so far, my favourite pair is father/daughter. father is very experienced. during the detour, they were the first ones to finish the accuracy one, which was comparatively more difficult, u need to knock down poles, throw an ax, and shoot an arrow. so i think, it's more difficult, but they cleared the thing easily, the father was very good at shooting arrow. first arrow, hit the target. Hero!

the grandparents are lovely too. it's like every time they reached the pit stop, juz look at their expression. they were so worried that they are the last team to arrive and the look of relief when they are not, especially last nite, when they took the wrong car and had to turn back.

The Incredibles

went to watch incredibles today. quite funny. i mean it's so long, almost 2 hours, after the show, my leg like twisted like that.

anyway, it's a nice show. at first, i was like 'cartoon?? omg, i'm watching cartoon, and i'm like the oldest person there... ' of course, there are parents who brought their kids along, i was like alone lor... so paiseh. anyway, it's a nice cartoon. it's funny how u view it with an open heart, in the end, i enjoyed the show, not like any slapstick movie.

am now watching discovery channel, the making of 'alexandra'... colin farrells has nice bod... drooling....

shiok, no need to go to school today. the feeling is juz great. but stupid me, brought back tons of work to do... anyway to zesheng, working life is never easy. altho i may not be physically at the workplace, but i still got to work. what to do? they pay u $100, they squeeze out $200 worth of things from u.

liFe sUckS! never mind, tonite will play xbox with children to de-stress!

don't know why i have this feeling

well, nothing much happen to me today, juz that perhaps it's a Monday, so those blues are bound to be there. and things juz dun go right in the morning. luckily the afternoon kind of make it up.

hate this feeling of procrastination. i know i have some things to do, but i juz can't get myself to doing it... sigh.. and deadline is probably like this week. sigh....... y can't i juz do it??? (Nike, just do it!)

sigh, nothing much to say, mood is not right to say also. better shut down, go sleep and talk to kids. niteeeeee

staff retreat in JB

last nite slept so late, this morning wake up so early to go back to school again. this time we are all going to JB for a staff retreat, followed by some shopping.

anyway, will not bore u with the details of today. the retreat was fun, the shopping and eating were good, enjoyed myself, laughing and joking with colleagues. realise we are bunch of crap people! ha

Juz one thing worth mentioning. we were at the Causeway. juz disappointed wif fellow Singaporeans. it was like it was a very small area for queueing and we were very near the escalator. well, we were not so bad, all of us managed to squeeze into the small area without anyone near the escalator. the problem came when another bus load of people came up. the people juz stood at the escalator after coming up, without thinking that those poor people behind who kept on coming up will have a problem. finally, there was a slight commotion when someone almost fell. think that stopped the escalator. then we being kind, snaked a little so that they have space to stand into the area. wow, these people actually barged into the space and then formed they own queues and like trying to merge and cut into our queue. FED UP man!!! really very hot, but i kept my mouth shut. a few of us worked together to inch out these people. but it was like we became the last few ones lor!!!! then some stupid woman can like criticize some stupid things, warao! really cannot let one person in, u let one person in, the whole family will barge in. that was wat happen to one of our colleagues. 5 people barged in front of her. ingrateful!!!! i was very very extremely DL. so if u ever use the immigration checkpoint in JB at the Causeway, be more kiasu, cos if not, u will lose out!!!

anyway, put that incident behind me already. i've learnt a valuable lesson.

tomorrow need to send dear mum and grandma to church cos mum can't drive with her right arm cast. need to reach AMK at 10 am. decide to go and fetch her alone, so that i no need to go for church service. i'll definitely sleep during the sermon. then i think will have to fetch her and grandma back from church as well. no grievances, as she is my mum and that cannot be changed. juz blame my bad luck, cos my mum will be in cast until 30/12 that is like school will be re-opening soon lor. sigh, so sad, think i'll stop here.

friday night

friday night, fund raising dinner in school. GOH was Mr President. those on duty of course are very high strung. for me, could afford to relax. food was so so, think the president's table food will be good, but it's like u pay about $8000 to sit with the President at the same table.

then nearing the end of the dinner, received a call from hubby. Mabel was crying in the background, she dislocated her left elbow again!! yah, again, cos this is the 2nd time. so i very kan cheong, quickly left the dinner.

anyway, brought Mabel to KK children's emergency. she had to take an x ray. she was like refused to let me bring her arms up on the table. got to slowly coaxed her into it.

then when it was the turn to see the doc, her dislocated arm actually not dislocated anymore. asked the doc why like that. doctor gave a very good explanation. u need to have a hard pull in order to have the bone out of the 'ring' and dislocated. since Mabel did not fall down or anybody was pulling her hand, hence, while she was searching for her toys, she might have overstrecteh it and the bone could be on its way out, hence, she felt the pain. and when i lifted her arms for the x ray, the bone might have fall back into place.

Mabel juz has to be very careful with her use of left hand next time. anyway, doc said that children will grow out of this as they grow older becos bones will get harder. luckily she do not need to put cast otherwise, she would be like her grandmother, my mother like that.

Personality Tests

took some personality tests, here are my results:

Most unique quality
sandra, your most unique quality is that you're unusually Intense

You're wound up and have a lot going on. Others may have trouble understanding what you're going through, but they generally find your intensity very compelling and are drawn to you. This happens even without effort on your part. Compared to others who are also intense, you are unusually quick to react when someone tries to hurt you. Only 2.1% of all test takers have this unique combination of personality strengths.

My thoughts: well, i do agree that i have a lot going on, too much in fact. drawn to me?? well, i'm not sure, too much attention can be bad.

What's Your Secret to Success?

sandra, your secret to success is your Ability to Organize

The devil probably isn't in the details for an organized individual like you. When it comes to planning a birthday party, a summer vacation, or a project at work, you're the person who makes sure that it goes off without a hitch.From you inbox to your shoeboxes, you're well versed in the art of organization. We wouldn't be surprised if the contents of your closets, drawers, and cabinets were filed, color coded, or alphabetized accordingly. Prioritizing, planning, and putting into order is no easy feat. But it's part of what you do best. And it's also part of what makes you one of the best! Bravo!

My thoughts: organize?? hmm, maybe a little, for example, i stick to one handbag all the time, the things in my handbag must be in place, otherwise i'll get very frustrated. but my cabinets are definitely not color coded! no way, that's a freak already!!!

sandra, your Sex IQ is 87!
You scored higher than 21% of other people who have taken our test. As you were taking the test, we measured how your sexual knowledge stacks up in the 8 areas that contribute to your Sex IQ. You scored highest when it comes to knowing about male anatomy. But it might surprise you how you scored in the other areas that make you sexually smart.

my thoughts: this is funny. took the test for fun. well, i scored highest when it comes to knowing about the male anatomy???? hmmm, interesting..... well, anyway, male anatomy does not have much for females to explore, haha.

Cutting back at work
You're a career-oriented person who's not afraid to log some long hours to get the job done — and done right. Your peers admire your drive and creativity and nothing feels better than hearing your boss or clients compliment your work. But, you know, if you glance out a window for a minute, you'll notice that there's a whole world going on out there, and you just might be missing a lot of it.While it's great that you're so committed to your career, you've got to make sure you're not forgetting about friends, family, and fun. We know you've got bills to pay and goals to attain, but don't make work your whole life. And if you just can't figure out a way to scale back your hours, then at least make sure you're planning a nice vacation — without your laptop or cell phone.

My thoughts: career minded? well, i dun come across as one, cos i'm not one who wants to climb up. but it is such that, teaching has become so busy that we do not even have time for proper breakfast or lunch. that's y saves me the money to go slimming salon.


sandra, you're 44% masculine

This is based on how you scored on a variety of traits that, founded on classic research and our own studies, are typically associated with men.You're also 56% feminine, which is based on how you scored on traits that are typically associated with women. When we compare your results with other women it shows that you are somewhat more masculine than other women.But what is gender identity exactly? A person's gender identity is defined by the extent to which they see themselves as masculine or feminine. Every person possesses both masculine and feminine qualities to some degree, however the extent to which each person has these qualities differs widely. While you were taking the test, we calculated your scores in 6 areas typically defined as masculine and 6 areas typically defined as feminine.

My thoughts: i'm more masculine than other women??? hmmm... maybe. i dun like to look at guys, i prefer to look at gals. N i scored the highest in the area of male anatomy, remember... mayb, and actually i suspect already, my previous life, i'm a man.... ha, juz a thought...

Amazing Race 6

oh yessssssssss, the season started yesterday. Iceland is cool man!!!!!!!!! mountains, glaciers, hot springs. the whole country is so huge and wide, when travelling on the road, u just see sceneries for miles and miles. so tranquil like that.

contestants... well, first episode, not sure who i like yet. but i'll support the grandparents all the way. i knew they would be eliminated somehow along the way, but i admire them for their spirit.

a few quarrelsome couples... married entrepreneurs. the guy is sharp, but he is one MCP. poor thing the wife, giving in to him as she does not want to jeopardise. Formerly dating, i think their name is something and rebecca, the gal who pumped in petrol instead of diesel. quarrelsome too. another one, married pro wrestlers, omg! look at the gal's muscles. anyway, they can be quite vulgar at times. another one, something and victoria, can't remember what is their relationship. they can be quite quarrelsome too. engaged models, can be quarrelsome too. the gal especially.

a quote i want to share. remember this father/daughter pair. all 5 cars were travelling and they were actually driving at quite a high speed in order to overtake one another, which is quite dangerous. so the daughter was driving, their car became last after all the overtaking, she wanted to overtake, drove to the next lane, saw an approaching oncoming car, the other car horned her, she swerved back into lane. i could say quite an accident there, if she is not careful. anyway, what is the quote i want to share. the father told her to slow down, she was a bit upset cos i think she was the first car and she was overtaken by 4 cars and became last. the father told her something like 'slow down. u can't catch up with them, it's alright. you can't stop them.'

Power sia!!! the same with our life and the people we meet in life. we can't stop some people from doing the things they want to do whether to us or to themselves. just like today in the staff room, i can't stop the colleague from nagging, but i can turn things around. juz pluck in an earphone and wola! can't hear him nagging.

i luv the amazing race. my wednesdays will be bright from now on

Wisdom tooth
think i have a wisdom tooth growing out from the bottom right hand side of my gum. shit, so pain.
the pain comes and goes. when it comes, it's like i feel like tearing out my gum and tooth. wish i have a plier to take out the wisdom tooth. if i crunch my teeth, i can feel the pain as well.

now listening to amei's song, want to cry but cannot cry out (literal translation), think i have this feeling now. so pain, feel like crying, but can't cry loud enough... sigh........... i feel like dying...... from the pain.

Goh Sin Tub
think not many people will know of this author. personally, i dun really know him much too. he was the one who wrote the Singapore Stories. very old guy. i only bought one of his latest book "Walk like a Dragon". he was there as well promoting the book when i bought it, he autographed the book as well. he looked very fatherly then. that was like in may this year.

yesterday, read the newspaper, he died of stroke. i'm very shocked and sad. once again, life is so fragile. he autographed 'Sandra Teo, all the best' and he signed his name and dated it. well, now i want to pass this message to himself, all the best and his family, all the best

general

sotong king ask me why never update, guess i was very sick of the lagness in the network and the lagness in the mouse. stupid mouse today... so lag, like 'handicapped' like that, so slow. fed up. actually let me think why i was so irritated today... oh, forgot to save a document which i spent 45 mins on it, disappeared, the whole damn document disappeared, so have to redo, waste my time. Then hor, nvm, i dun mind re-doing, it's my fault, i should have saved it.

while i was doing it, some colleagues in the staff room so irritating. nag and nag and nag, non stop, so borrowed a headphone from my fren, listen to own music, blasting in my ears now. until other colleagues call me, i also cannot hear, really like deaf like that. shiok! aiyah, must be tmr's dinner, with president as the special guest, so those teachers, especially those in charge of performance items one, very high struck... each wanting to do things their own way. sigh... better not comment anymore, lest i become naggy like that particular one.

also, my genie (if u r reading this), thanks for granting 3 wishes. your use of the word 'will' is very affirmative. i think i can guess 1 of the 3 wishes. anyway, will go pray pray tua pek kong more... haha...

so lag today

the whole network is so lag today, it's especially impatient when u are pressed for time. dun want to talk about work, cos it will only bring unhappiness.

been reading students' blog, realise they keep saying that they are bored, always doing the same thing every day during the holidays. as for me, i'm so pressed for time, so many things to do and yet so little time. wish they can give me some of their time.

let's see... yesterday i (actually it was hubby) bought a espirit pants, 2 bottles of red earth nail polish for me. lovely colours, haven't try yet. oh yah, juz now have NPCC presentation, the sec 3s are presenting their proposal for the upcoming camp. i know what aik hwee and wee kian said ok, dun think cher deaf one hor. my nails purple colour, cannot huh? not your business anyway. holidays is for havoc time, regardless of students or teachers. anyway, i'll be going to wisma red earth outlet to do my nails later. think i'll be trying out the french manicure. one of these days, i'll be buying some red earth make up products also. think i'm red earth-fied, espirit-fied.

yesterday went to watch 'who's your daddy" funny show!!! altho it was RA, but it's not those that u think. talk about high school boys being unpopular and how he suddenly get 87 million inheritance. his biological parents owned one porn magazine like the playboy like that. maybe that's y it got the RA rating. other than that, there was nothing nude about it. wow, imagine i inherited 87 million! gosh...!

want to change hairstyle

yesterday, i was looking at a jap magazine. need to choose a hairstyle for the appt which will be end of this month. so excited about it. cos i think i'll rebond, layer, kuku fringe and maybe highlight.

need to change hairstyle otherwise not like the pic on the left, so young, so tender skin, so smooth skin, so slim. i'm getting ah-soh-fied. ARGH!

blogskin changed

yeah, change my blogskin today wif the help of my sister. Thanks! without her guiding me step by step, i would not be able to do it. plus i've added a tagboard. yessssss, achievement.

think i'll stick to this blogskin for the time being as i like the picture. now is i want to know how to change the font colour, thot the blue colour font, not so clear.

mon 15/11

today slept until 10 plus then wake up. had coffe, cocoa pops for breakfast. then since i have not been blogging(someone also complain that my background music very irritating) and reading my emails, decided to do that.

so wanted to blog, but the whole thing was so lag, when i manage to log in to blogger, quickly remove the music html. think it's best without the music. kept having this box appearing if i want to upgrade my microsoft. when u close the box, the whole thing lags and hangs, need to end program.

so, to all readers, so sorry, no music. oops, almost 2, better bring my kids out for lunch and maybe go and see mum and her arms in cast.

13 and 14/11

on 13th, nothing much exciting happen. went to buy some meat to marinate for the bbq that nite. a gathering with JC friends. excited, cos it's like 4 or 5 years ago, we had a gathering, so there was much to catch up on. plus we'll be bringing our kids along.

it was a good time catching up with one another at nite, except that we were watching our kids play more than we were talking to one another. anyway, got a wedding dinner on 11/12, that is also another good time to catch up wif one another.

after the bbq, adjourned for mj session, won $30 that nite, was damn lucky that nite. but the other two won more, $60 each. reached home at about 4 am, surprised to see that marcus was not asleep yet. he was waiting for us to come home! but u could see that his eyes were really heavy, when we reached home and tugged him in, within half a minute, he slept. kissed him on the forehead. i think he must be angry wif us for not coming home and playing crazy taxi with him.

on 14th, family gathering. cousin's b-day. but my poor mum fell and broke her dunnoe left or right arm. had to bring her to TTSH. it's a broken bone, not just a fracture, hence have to put her hand in cast. sigh, actually this thing would not have happen, if she did not decide to go to the supermarket to buy some food last minute. she was worried that the food was not enough for everyone to eat. that is so typical of her. actually sis wants to come over to my house to stay to play xbox, but in the end, she can't. well, we were not too angry, just that poor mum! sigh, looks like she is going to feel like a handicapped for the next few weeks.

when we came home from the gathering, was actually very sleepy and tired. but marcus insisted on playing crazy taxi. no choice, played with him, disappointed him last nite, so didn't want to disappoint him again. well, he was happy. it seems like playing crazy taxi is a daily dosage of opium for him like that. wat an addiction!

no more music

i think by adding in the music makes the whole blog very lag, so i've taken away the music.

12/11
went for some sharing at another secondary school in the morning. both me and colleague were planning to take the train down to orchard after the sharing which will end at about 1pm. we were happily in the train, waiting for the train to move on, when we receive an urgent sms to attend another sharing at the school at 3pm. i was contemplating to say yes, but not turn up for the sharing, but becos i'm with my colleague, and my colleague was not really in favour of doing this, so i reluctantly agree to go for the 3pm sharing. however, i sms back and told the school that i'm very pissed off by the sch's management.

i dun want them to think that whatever last minute thing they agree to other people, it becomes compulsory for the subordinates to carry out the thing for them, at their convenience, at our inconvenience. we both have to frantically change our plans becos of them. will they know the inconvenience they caused? NO!. they only sit in the office, happy and glad that they have promised someone something and it will be carried. felt like a stupid machine, at their control! but for a 3-4pm sharing, only one hour, my colleague's rationale is, dun get into trouble with them over this 1 hour thing.

well, i was very very pissed off. anyway, that will be my last time i do things like that for them, no more! if they promised someone something, then they do it themselves lah!!!!! if they not free, so do i!!!! idiots! think we are paper plates or cups, to be disposed of at their convenience!!!!

the only thing that redeemed my day was the nite out with my kids. brought them to watch winnie the pooh musical. well, they enjoyed the show of course, bought a lot of merchandise for them. not cheap. cost us about $80 for 4 items. wat to do? they like it and i dun see why i should refuse them. anyway, i'm happy that they enjoyed the show, dancing to the music. think only mabel is dancing to the music. marcus was so stiff and shy to participate. that's so unlike of him. he was like dancing and singing at home but at the muscical, he jus stared at the stage. money well spent and time well spent, worth the investment to see your children happy. unlike in the afternoon, it was a total waste of time.

so stupid of me

haiyah, me so stupid. the winnie the pooh thing is a show, so must book tickets one. thot can juz bring them there to see winnie the pooh. ok, nvm, problem rectified. booked the tickets for tmr nite, 7.30pm. 4 tickets cost $161, oh my... wat to do, promised the kids, feel bad if i can't carry out my promise. and that is after 15% discount. $ is small issue, think i want the kids to be happy.

the only problem now is that i need to tell the bad news to them that the show is tmr and not today. they sure very disappointed. but have to assure them. gosh, hate to see their disappointed face. later bring them to J8 to pick up the tickets.

deepavali tmr

yeah, it's deepavali tmr. not that i celebrate it, but it's a public holiday, so that means no need to go to work... yipeeeeeeeeeeee.

went to driving range today. whack the balls a good 78 m today. most balls were hit accurately. thank goodness. fulfilment and achievement.

already starting to plan where to bring the kids tmr. as for breakfast, it's either ya kun or Mc for the kids. think will bring them to expo for the winnie the pooh thing. they would sure like it. just now, i just told them about winnie the pooh, u should have seen how their eyes brighten up, so cuteeeeeee. luv them and hug them all. hey, mabel just looked at the clock and told me it's 12. i'm amazed at their learning abilities.

massage

ok, let me see, i juz had a neck, shoulder and head massage. we specially call these association that teach blind people the massage so that they can earn a living. it's like a 15-20 mins or is it half an hour? massage, it's $10. quite cheap. so we called them up and since we have about 10 of us who wanted a massage, so they came to the staff room. i was the first one to have the massage. i can't take foot massage.

oh my, it feels so good now, like all the muscles are relaxed. i think my neck is really very stiff, after the massage, now it feels so relaxed that i can feel the pain. it's not the painful kind of pain, it's that 'suan suan' pain.

then, very funny. during the massage, i think all my muscles started relaxing. ok, 1st the neck massage. the pressing was good, i can feel the shiokness from the pain. then after that i started to feel dizzy, head was like very dizzy, going in circles. dunnoe y, i think that mayb becos long time never massage, so it's like suddenly very dizzy. dunnoe lack of blood circulation or the blood suddenly all gushed to my brains. then after the back massage, my whole back feels so 'sng' i wish someone juz breaks my back. now i know how my mother in law feels when she used to complain that her back is very 'sng'. so with my head in a spin and my back so 'sng', the person next to me had to ask me if i'm feeling alright. so funny...

now sitting down here blogging, my dizziness has gone away already, the blood is flowing regularly to my brains now. back no more 'sng' already. but my neck the bones there, like more flexible, as i turn my head around, can hear the 'teck teck' sound. shoulder also. think i'm on the pc too long and playstation too long, so i got stiff neck and stiff shoulder.

think should have this kind of regular neck/shoulder massage. well, punggol plaza has this foot massage, but inside all guys leh. nvm, one of these days, i'll go and check it out. wintoto, want to check this out together?

mobility

these few days dun have the car, i feel so handicapped. like can't go to anywhere i like freely, then very stingy, dun want to take a cab. MRT is fine, it's those places that i want to go that has no MRT, i dunnoe wat bus to take. so feel very cooped up inside, very depressed.

anyway, that brings me to my next point. that's y yesterday, took an MRT to TM. caught 'Ladder 49' alone. the movie is nice, if u are thinking of action pack, then maybe shouldn't watch the show. it's quite sad, can cry one. honestly, i cried. trying very hard to hold back the tears, but it juz came down. i guess becos i have two children, one boy and one gal, (exactlylike the one in the show) so when the husband died in course of work, i think i feel for the wife. that's y i cried. also firefighting is a dangerous job, if u die while fighting fire, it's a horrible death. u are literally burnt alive. as for the guy in the show, i think it's sad also becos, it's like the director brought our hopes up (he was trapped in the building and his fellow colleagues are trying to rescue him out, he still had radio contact) then when he got to a 'supposedly' safe place (control room) he looked out and saw a sea of fire and he knew that it's impossible for his colleagues to come and rescue him, so he told the chief to call off the rescue and get his colleagues out. after speaking and asking the chief to take care of his family, he just gave up fighting for his life and fell into a coma. that was when the tears started rolling down. it's painful to wait for death. the chief (john travolta) had to fight back the tears and gave a command to evacuate the building. it's painful for him too. oh mine, and then the funeral. so dignified.

another point, yesterday saw the news, it was Huang Na's funeral. it's exactly the same, when the coffin was pushed inside to burn, they all cried out for her. it's like, after burning, no more a person, a body, just bones.

sigh, so sad... so think about my issue of not having a car to drive ard, i guess i should be thankful that i'm still able to move around. wait till i lie in my coffin, six feet underground, give me the fastest car on earth also no use.

issues to address

been reading other people's blog the whole morning, mainly teenagers. a few things i gleaned from reading it:
1) to colin: u said u hate backstabbers. well, dun worry, u'll never escape from them, there will always be plenty and more when u start working next time. worse still, in army... sabo king! got to learn to deal with them

2) to Shirley (my student, not my mum): at times i do feel like ending my life earlier, but i'm always scolded by my loved ones ard me, juz like i've scolded u. i mean it's fine to have silly thoughts at times. i guess we all have this feeling, cos at one point of time in life, we have no goals in life, like drifters. but i came to realise that life is worth living for, if we make the choice! we got to go out and fight for what we want, enjoy what we like despite the hardships in life. just take hardships as adding spices and variety to your life, wola! u find that u wish to prolong your life longer in order to enjoy life.

3) to Kexin: as for loving someone and being loved... well, common feelings even until adulthood. sometimes, u also experience stop loving that person... got to find back love. well, when we love somebody, no need for the person to love us back. love is knowing that the person u love is happy. of course it's a nice feeling being loved back. but if dun have, then no need to 'qiang qiu'

ok i'm getting cheem here. after reading all your blogs, i seriously getting a little dizzy, must by Yan Li's blog. all around me, the things seem to be spinning. think my brains want to go into a coma soon.

finally added links!

guess wat, today i finally figure out how to add links to my blog. gosh, it was so simple, what was i doing? only holidays then i have the time to do all these things. anyway, those few links that i added are my students.

when i look at their blog, mine was so simple in comparison. but then again, i got no time for fanciful things on my blog, scared some of my friends who are older who may read my blogs cannot navigate... ha! right, wintoto?

anyway, life is complicated at this age, so i'll just keep my blog simple.

all things french

yah man, french manicure. the fingernails look kind of squarish at the end, and there are two colours. usually a lighter base with white at the nails there.

yup, we have french cap, french fries, french kiss and french maninure. wat other french things do we have?

now, sis and adrian is at my house playing crazy taxi. well, my kids are so good at it (not that they are good at playing). they know the names of the drivers, can even sing the song. well, we practice every nite. they practise singing the crazy taxi song, i practise playing it. good, until know the road. oh yah, just realise that this is good for my children to practise their maths too. it's like if you pick up 4 passengers, and after 1 passenger alight, my son will go like 'three!' and so on. good to learn subtraction for young kids.

my son will play the xbox games, he'll be the one next time, addicted to games and trying to figure out the game. whereas my daughter, not determined to figure out the game. no perserverance. but she likes to come and see me when i'm on the laptop. next time, sure like the mum next time, always on the net, addicted to chatrooms. well, for those with children, i'm sure u agree with me that all our children are different but we love them all.

let's make a deal

ok, sis, u have added one item to my to do list, i.e to add a tag board. why not like this? one of these days, after our hair is done up, i'll go to your place, i'll help u pack your table and u help me add tag board to my blog? deal?

hey, went for manicure and pedicure again this afternoon, chose a light purple colour. thought it's different from the shades of red i used to choose. the next time round, i want to try french manicure.

no title

running out of creative juice to name my posts so decided not to put any titles for today's post.

i'm just wondering about online games and xbox games. dun like that lah, it's my holidays and i think i deserve to get hooked up to the games... ok? anyway, plenty of things to do, i'll do it when the time comes. not important ones, can don't do, right? so though plenty of things to do... i'm not worried lah.... taking it easy... it's the hols! enjoy. otherwise, i'll have to wait another year for such luxury.

looking around my workstation now. quite happy with my packing, now left the top part, the teaching materials part, well, planned to reorganise the teaching materials, but then, it will not make a great difference if i do or if i don't do it, so again, taking it easy. at least the lower portion of my work station is cleared, i have a bigger working area ( it was like stacked with papers and books during the term time that u can hardly see my table top) so it was an achievement that i've packed what is on my table, (it's definitely more organised now) and underneath my table. i've been like dumping projects and stuff under the table, that has been cleared too.

so i deserve a game or two before i start on my work, right? ;)

so many things to settle today

crazy day today! settled some other people's shit today, but nvm, was the pau dou, stabbed the person from behind. no choice, we have to protect ourselves. anyway, make a commitment to do somethings for next year regarding this matter. can't elaborate here cos it's not convenient. but regarding this matter, i'll adopt a more proactive approach and just do it.

after settling these things, it's like almost dunnoe what time, ate my breakfast (at 11 am) think it should be more of brunch. then, read some emails, chit chat here and there, time's up, can go home already.

trying out this mint thing which is suppose to control your appetite and burn more fats. or maybe i just finish my breakfast like one hour ago, hence is still feeling very full.

last nite, went to Wheelock place, Big O with colleagues. we all had fun eating, sharing food and gossip. no lah, we also had fun chit chatting with one another, we are not so kpo-ish. anyway, reached home at almost 12 mid nite, hence today a bit blur, think i'm starting to hallucinate already.

swing those clubs

nothing much happened today, just realised that this holiday is no holiday. things needed to be done this holiday
1) packing of work station (i'm halfway through, just need to sort out the notes, learning resources and test papers)
2) prepare for open house (the write up on Batam and the video on cairns: my biggest headache)
3) three SOWs (EL, Social studies and Geography elective)
4) plan for my holiday
5) manicure and pedicure (need to use my package)
6) restyling of my hair
7) NPCC CIP newspaper collection (the preparation)
8) preparation of next year's work
9) have an offer to develop the curriculum for a centre (taking up the assignment)
10) spent time with love ones
11) brush up on my golf (swing those damn clubs)
12) go to Marcus' and Mabel's orientation (buy books, school bags, uniform and school shoes)

oh my! the list goes on. have not put in the preparations for christmas day.
life is great, never ending things for us to do. and now i'm hooked on a yahoo online game, shape shifters. last nite, i was like spending almost 4 hours playing the game. dunnoe wat got me addicted. oh yah, that reminds me, i've been turning down marcus' request to play crazy taxi lately.

engine refuses to do any solid work these few days. but after listing down all the above things to be done, i'm a little frightened. scared got no time to finish all the tasks.

dUn bE sHoCKed

dear sis, dun be shocked about my dinner post. i guess that with family members working together, there are plenty of stories that i hear, it sort of like changes my views on some people. but dun worry, i'm not referring to my dear cousin, cos no matter what, i grew up together with my dear cousin. so i guessed that above sentence kind of give u an idea who i'm referring to.

well, i'm not totally prejudiced or hated or anything like that. it's just that, if can dun meet, dun talk, i'll prefer not to. but as a family, it's difficult not to communicate, hence, i'll just communicate but the bare minimum.

well, like what wintoto and 4D says, dun take sides. dun worry, i'll not take sides, i'll just be careful in my dealings with my family members.

but of course, all those family members who are dear to me are still dearest to me, my sis, my mum, my aunties who have contributed so much to our childhood memories, my dear cousin whom we always hide in the storeroom to colour when we were young.

i guess adulthood changes things....

PReJuDIce

was just thinking about this thing about prejudice. read somewhere before that once we experience something, it forms a perception in our brains. When another experience happens to us, it confirms this perception. and another and another, it adds on and confirms our perception that sometimes it becomes our point of view or in extreme cases, our prejudice.

it's like i'm prejudiced against china people. this is due to many factors like business partners and how they are out to 'ketuk' (hope i spelt in correctly) us. it was a perception then 10 years back. then read about the Suzhou Industrial Park, then another thing happen to my uncle (funny, how come he never learnt his lesson), then the china gals in Singapore stories, how kiasu are china students in the educational campus, all these experiences have add on and confirm my perception about them and it has become a prejudice.

Well, dun try to tell me that our ancestors come from china, that i know, but that was like how many years ago, or at least a century ago. i'm born here, i'm bred here, of course i'm guilty of any characteristics of Singaporeans that people have of us, like our kiasu, kiasi, or our bargaining powers. i'm equally guilty of some of those, i dun deny.

so when one of my friends told me that how the china people had treated them kindly when they were in Shanghai, it was difficult for me to accept. i'm trying to accept it, but it's not going to change my perception yet, unless i get to experience it myself.

but that is how our brains and body function. our experiences are added on to our 'storage' in our brains and our brains just produce neutrons to confirm all these experiences and fused into our perception. no escaping from our 'processor' up there

It was Halloween last nite!

gosh, i din realise that it was halloween last nite. not that i celebrate halloween, but i told myself last year that i would buy some costumes for my kids to wear this year, looks like i have to KIV this.

well, u ever realise there was something every Halloween? in god knows which year, 31 Oct, SQ 006, last year, on the nite of Halloween, there was a horrible accident at Simei, near the Changi Hospital. apparently, 8 were involved, 4 killed. i remembered it cos the next morning on my way to school, there was a jam which was not likely to be. then u see all these blue flashing lights, white cloth, blue tapes....

then yesterday, the body of Huang Na was found! gosh, halloween is sure creepy, juz like our Chinese hungry ghost festivals. read the newspaper this morning. the poor gal was naked, stuffed in a box. it was an attempted murder. the Took guy was arrested for murder.

i just feel that as humans being living on earth, we try not to kill or rob or purposefully go and assualt someone. i strongly believe in retribution. you do evil this life, you'll get your retribution next life. that's y we try to do good this life. rewards? well, just think of it this way, you may not get rewards now, (it's never immediate or instant) but perhaps later in life, or even your children/offspring may benefit because of your good deeds.

we are living in an instant world. instant prizes, instant noodles, instant mash potatoes, instant soup (i'm guilty of all these, have a whole lot of them in my mini pantry) so naturally, we are accustom to instant rewards in life as well. but it does not work this way lor! i remember our elders once told us, last time to buy one tv, they have to save so long to buy one. but now, u want one tv, just pay a little deposit, and wola! u have a tv sitting in your living room. u get the goods first but pay later. this is a bad world!

the gal died!

that china gal that was lost is confirmed to be dead. so poor thing, what would a 9 year old gal do to deserve such a horrible death? her mum must be very heart broken.

police felt that the scene of murder took place in the warehouse of the pasir panjang wholesale centre. it must be horrible. wonder what really happen to her. wonder what went through her mind as she was being killed? it must have been horrible to be stuffed in a paper box and thrown in a ulu place.

i believe she would come back to haunt her murderer. it's a tragic death! she should come back to haunt the killer.

i heard one urban legend that they needed children's heads in order to build bridge. is it true or not?

weekend came and gone

the weekend came and went so fast. it's like monday tmr and it's work again. what did i do during the weekends? oh, we went warren on saturday, but it was raining so heavily, can't swim, we all ended up bowling.

we all very lousy leh, must be long time never bowl already. marcus and mabel very cute, they are like our cheering team like that. when we strike or spare, they would be so happy and cheered us on. but this cheering team also very straight forward with their remarks if u didn't clear the pins. they would go like, 'that's no good!' (said with a frown)

then it was dinner time, wow, we all like having wedding dinner like that, wait until 8pm then start dinner. hungry like mad. oh, the people i dun like to see did not turn up due to some other commitments. another person i dun really like to see, well, we all sat at the same table. but it's ok, just put on a smile and put on a face.

sunday... hmmm slept until almost 11 then wake up, shiok. well, day passes by normally, sister came to my house to play crazy taxi, then as usual we met up with my mum and had dinner. came home quite early tonite.

TGIF

it's another friday, another week is over. guess this week has been exciting. today is the last day of school for the students, been talking to their parents... well, we say the usual things, same things over and over again.

hubby on the way home from KL... not too excited cos can't go out and party tonite, have to be in school early next morning. sianzzzzzzzzzz

later after seeing the last two parents, am going to driving range to whack some balls. need to exercise.

tmr nite, celebrating grandma's b-day, hope people i dun feel like seeing will not turn up. hope it's a chop chop thing. it's been raining these few days, dunnoe if it'll rains tmr, cos if it rains, then marcus and mabel cannot go swimming, they would sure be very bored. bored to death.

my colleague who is sitting oppposite me is now sleeping and snoring so loudly.

how come i feel so sad that's it's friday? i dun used to feel this way last time, was very happy when it's friday cos can enjoy a nite out with hubby, but today, seems so funny, maybe becos it has been a long day today. used to leave earlier on fridays. sianzzzzzzzzzzz, life is boring, life kills my passion.

work table in a mess

was waiting for the webpage to download, very slow, very slack. anyway, looked around my work table, so messy, need a good packing and re-organising.

these two days, hubby went KL... (ser, mum not suppose to know this, dun tell her) it's me and two children alone at home. well, they won't look for their father, they'll just carry on with their chores of playing and quarelling with each other. Mabel has been irritating her brother lately and the gor gor is getting fed up with her.

left one and a half more years to go before i finish my bond. so long.........

not been exercising lately, dining a lot though with friends and colleagues. die, getting fat, wait nobody want.

no inspiration to blog, nothing exciting lately and too lazy to bring laptop home also.

so shiok

not been blogging for the past few nights. well, spend the last few nights playing crazy taxi with children. it was good to come back home and be able to spend time with M&M, no marking, no preparing of lesson. so shiok!

on saturday nite, also didn't go out, just dun feel like going out to play mahjong that nite, so stayed at home. had a really great time with kids. we all went to sleep at 11 plus and slept all the way to 9 plus the next morning, so shiok. really felt that we needed the sleep.

today also laze around, brought them out for breakfast and dinner, they enjoyed it, well, i enjoyed it too.

heard that marcus and mabel fought on friday and gor gor gave mei mei such a push that she fell down and got one hump on the head. but i think mei mei also notti on her part, always irritating her gor gor and making the gor gor fed up. sigh...

Mabel my daughter

as for Mabel my daughter, she is more of a follower to her gor gor. so when the brother says, 'Mabel, come, play crazy taxi.' she'll start running out from the room. but usually, marcus will get the remote control first.

that nite, heard marcus shouting at mabel twice. shouted at her until she cried, the second time he shouted, i cannot tahan, went into the bedroom and slapped marcus. he never cries, he just rolled his eyes sideway.

mabel is more itchy handed. as i was doing my work with my laptop, she'll touch the documents, play with the paper clips, touch the laptop. well, she's also very busybody. if u need anything, she'll gladly do it for u. She'll help me to bring my hp when it rings, she'll help me put back my rubber band, she'll help my throw away my disposable contact lens. she'll help you put the mouse pad when she sees you setting up the laptop.

both of them, each of their own merits and not so desirable character. parenting is not easy

harassed to play crazy taxi

my son is so cute, i'm still blogging and he keeps repeating 'crazy taxi 3' in my ears. talk about nagging, dunno who is nagging who. have promised him to let me finish my blog first before i play crazy taxi. it's already 10.49pm and lots of things to do. so to my dear sis, how to sleep early?

i still need to read newspaper, play crazy taxi 3 with children, blog and read email, think i'll be sleeping at 12 plus again tonite.

well, to my dear sis again, teachers sux! oops, i think i'm a teacher also hor.... eh.... well, (speechless) anyway, i hope u can cope on thurs with all your last minute stuff by your teachers. and take heart, hardships first, then sweetness will follow soon.

ok, keeping it short, i still need to reply emails. oh no, here marcus comes again, "Mummy, let's play crazy taxi 3, ok? mummy?" how to resist such innocence?

it's only morning n i'm feeling zombie

really zombiefied, nearly typed this out like a letter, opening it with a hi. anyway, didn't have enough sleep, so i guess that's y i'm tired. slept at 12 plus.

it's funny, exams are over yet i'm feeling more tired than ever. guess i'm a worker, can't stop working.

yup, not to worry about the work review later this afternoon. whatever we say, their mind has been made up about us.

think the xbox games are really getting into me. played xbox games from 9 something to 12. of course, my children were playing as well, it's just that they dummy control especially when we play crazy taxi. so funny.

this morning, hubby will be going KL. well, hope everything turns out well and smooth, can come back in one piece. for all who are going on holidays, bon voyage!

still so zombie, coffee not strong enough to lift up those heavy eyelids.

Monday

finally the monday is coming to an end. also can't wait for tues and wed to be over cos these two days are very long days for me. just wish to get over my work review with HOD asap.

a bit worried about the work review too, cos i really dunno what to say to my HOD. what achievements have i done this semester? this semester has pass by so fast, especially the 4th term that i dun have the time to reflect.

guess we all have our worries. students worry if they can be promoted or not, teachers are worrying about deadlines to meet and work review. BGR problems, friendship problems, spouse problems, work problems, family problems. sigh, how come there are so much problems for human beings to handle?

another week is coming

it's a sunday night, the week pass by so quickly especially when u have two days mc.

it's like it's another long week at work again. although exams are over, but there are two more long weeks to go before the holidays. seems like eternity. well, i suppose tmr at school, it's hell broke loose. i can't imagine the headache i'm going to get

nothing much to say, guess the illness has made me more sober, less to reflect. or maybe just to lazy to put my thoughts down in blog.

laughing like a little child

from my sis blog about laughing like a little children and bring out the little child in us.

i do agree that we are sometimes conform by the society to behave and act in a certain way. well, i guess it's up to us to do our little crazy things at times. like taking out our shoes to walk on the grass (tho not advisable, u dunno how many dogs had shitted there!) touch that thing or person. there was once in Singapore and HongKong, on both occasions, i saw cement screed wall and a table top, something which i've always liked at home, especially the cement screed table top, so clean cut, so smooth. i think the people must be crazy, why i was caressing the the wall and table top. well, these are the little things we can do, just do anything we feel like it. no restrictions watsoever.

dun worry, i'll try not to give marcus and mabel plenty of assessment books. that pic is very nice, i'll always remember to let my children smile more. before they go to school and get bog down by homework. i'm also frightened that they will lose the child in them, on one hand i want to encourage them to do their best but on the other hand, i will not push them so hard in their studies, until i sign them up for enrichment and stuff like that. it's quite hard to balance, u noe.

manicure and pedicure

today i went to punggol plaza twice. first, was in the morning, wanted to check out the manicure price, but it was not open. so went home, then later in the afternoon, went back again, this time went in to do a manicure and pedicure. spent about 1 and 1/2 hour there, nice service, with tea to drink. itchy hand and mouth, agreed to a package of 10 manicures $399. well, but at least it's transferable, i can get my sister or my mum or my relatives to go. then got lucky draw. went to the counter to redeem, i got 20 coupons, my god, write until my hand pain.

but after the manicure, i felt quite weak physically. maybe it was suppose to be time for medicine and i haven't taken the medicine, plus the air con blowing, so was feeling very drowsy and weak. came back home, took some medicine, then slept while watching national geographic.

sick

i'm sick today. in fact, i was having a slight cough on monday. but today, i just felt the body very weak and fever developing. went to doc. 37.6 but this doc in punggol only gave me MC for today! that means i have to go back to work tmr! impossible! so at night, went to another doc, this doc, better, gave me two days MC until thurs. power!

nothing much to blog, the medicine is kicking in already, drowsy, better go and rest and sleep well. remembered i wanted to blog something, but it slipped out of my mind, too drowsy to recall. maybe tmr is better.

F***

have the tendancy to type the f word. even blogger took so long.

first to my sis questions on her blog about guys not knowing what gals want. and that worm in the stomach.

it's true that guys and gals want different things in life. gals tend to be more emotional, investing our emotions into little things, that's y they could not understand y we can cry over a drama serial, why we would get angry with little things, why we would get upset with them for not doing certain things.

one thing for sure, our anatomies are different, next, our thinking, our emotions are also different, that makes guys and gals so dun understand each other.
actually have lots of things to say, but i was so angrified, (sis, u noe why right) it's like within one hour, two things can go wrong together. and the day is going to end soon, these things have to come at 9 something at nite to spoil my whole entire day. it's not worth to be kind, not worth to choose to be happy.

i have chosen to be happy, despite a difficult class i have to invigilate today, chosen to be happy even though i'm very tired and wish i could sleep instead of going to the dinner, chosen to be happy despite the appointment i have to go today. (was really tired, i almost fell asleep while driving on the PIE) i dare say i have chosen to be happy, to live my life happily today.

i think my defences were down during the nite, especially after the sumptious dinner, especially thinking that the nite is going to end soon, so it should be alright soon. then the two things must happen, one after anothe, sucks! i really cannot control my emotion anymore, dun want to be happy. what for choose to be happy the whole day, then these things have to come and spoil your day? too tired to fight the negative feelings brewing inside me.

again, at this point, i noe some man must be wondering, what's the whole damn fuss about? just go and sleep, and tmr go and settle the thing, ok already lor, what's the issue?

the issue is, i intend to laze a little tmr morning, dun intend to go to sch tmr, lugged back a laptop and four classes of essays home to mark. now u ask me to go to sch tmr becos it's urgent, u needed the details by tmr morning? i dun think i have a choice to say 'no, u go and find the details yourself, i'm not coming back to sch tmr' there was not a choice here. maybe there is, either u choose to do it happily or choose to do it grumpily. both choices, u still have to do, which is wat i hate most, so i think i've made my choice, i'll do it grumpily cos i really very buay song.

as for the worms in the stomach kind of feeling, it will always be lost. thought i found back the worm in stomach feeling, but after tonite, i find that it was pointless. now that the person has hurt u, it's even more painful cos u have invested so much emotions in it. the hurt is like 20 knives stabbing into your heart like that.

men and women will always be different.

saw a JC fren

where should i start? ok, last nite, went for dinner with hubby and his colleagues becos it was his colleague last day, so in celebration, all decided to have a farewell dinner for her. there were like 14 of us.

at first, it was decided to go marina south for steamboat cum bbq. so only i have the luxury of going back home to bathe before the dinner. hence, since it's marina south, didn't wear too nice, 3/4 pants and a sleeveless collared tee, with slippers, tied up my hair in a ponytail as well. marina south mah, no need so nice.

then guess what, when i go and fetch my hubby, he told me they change to suntec city, the steamboat there. i was like, "why didn't u say so earlier?" it was like this attire is so unglam for the venue.

went anyway, i was already in town already and we were already late, they have started the dinner, so no point going back to change. so after we reached there, we sat down and proceeded with our steamboat buffet.

then the thing happen. i was like eating my food, then this guy from the other table stood up and he had to walk past our table to go and get the food. as he turned around, (so dramatic) i saw him. i was taken aback, becos he definitely looks familiar, he has not changed a single bit at all. i knew it was him, Eric Yeo.

i think he saw me too. he slowed down as he walked past our table. but he continued walking past. i knew we both knew what. then the qn popped into my head, 'should i go and call him?' 'what to say?' to some, recognising an old fren is like a perfectly normal thing, juz go and say hi. but i think my jc frens, especially my good fren, Baohua, will know why it feels awkward to say hi to Eric Yeo. pardon my rudeness in putting his surname, cos there were at least 6 Erics in our JC then, so we need to identify all the Erics by their surname, so it was quite natural to call him this way.

on reflection, i think both of us just lack that little bit of fate. in Chinese, they say 'you yuan wu fen'. ok, anyone can read my blog, can't be too frank. i mean i think there were a few opportunities when we could be together, but somehow, we didn't. we just lack that little fate. chemistry, yah, i could say that we did have some chemistry, in fact, more chemistry than the first bf i chose to be with. i dunno how to express further. you know i actually took 15 mins to write this paragraph. ok, to sum up, put it this way, if i could turn back the clock to JC time, i would have made another choice. did i regret? of course, a little. but then again, if we had been together, then i would not have met my present husband, then i would not have married and have two lovely kids. guess that is life, this is fate. who knows? maybe next life, we may be fated.... if there is next life.

but it really feels funny to see him again. it was like i've been wanting to meet some JC frens, but the more i wanted to meet them, the less chances i have of meeting them. so last nite was totally unexpected. and the thing is i'm so unglam, totally unglam, totally ah soh last nite. shit! so paiseh. he must be thinking, 'oh gosh! how come she become so fat, so ah soh?' haha. still laughing now. nvm, i'll get over it. i guess that's life again.

in the end? well, in the end, we didn't greet each other. in fact, i very much wanted to at least say hi before we all leave the place and get his contact number or at least get his namecard. (my dear husband, if u r reading this blog, dun mind hor. just my honest feelings) but then husband sitting beside me. anyway, we were one of the last two tables to leave. i think from the corner of my eye, he seems like wanting to say hi as he walked past our table, but my head was turned, because i was engaged in a conversation with my friend, so it's very rude to just turn away from my friend and looked at him as he walked past. guess that's another lost opportunity between us. after ten long years, we are still missing out on opportunities.

life is funny. ( and i took 50 mins in all to write this blog, one of the longest writing time)

Sunday nite and monday blues

ok, tmr is monday, time to go to work, feeling the monday blues.

for all those that are reading my blog, feel free to add comments, no worries, we are all open minded, civilised adults and human beings.

tired, going to chalet can be very tiring. well, hope that my sis had a wonderful birthday. she wear until so nice, nobody dare to sabo her. man, she was lucky. but i sincerely hope that she had a wonderful b-day and she took a lot of pictures. well 21st birthday leh. must have memories. i forgot about my 21st birthday already. i only remembered that initially, i wanted to hold it on a private yacht, but it was too expensive, then i forgot how i celebrated. i think in the end it turned out to be a normal dinner celebration.

back to my sis b-day, i think all of us enjoyed, except my mum. and the poor maid got all the scolding from her! haha.

pok, so much for b-day celebration.

think my daughter very cute, just as i'm typing out this blog, she is eating yogurt, but she's slurping the yogurt so loudly, and the yogurt is all around her mouth, and she is smiling at me as i look at her.
on the other hand, my son, not so likeable at times. as i'm typing this blog, he was getting ready to play the xbox game, crazy taxi. but he was like scrapping the disc on the floor. scolded him upside down, then he got angry and he stormed into the room. well, at least he knows how to walk away from anger. now he came out of the room and then hor, like real like that, sitting down with his dad and like going to play like that. children, fun and headache at the same time.

ok, got to go and start marking exam scripts already

catching up

Hey eddie (my papa in council), yes, yes, i eng, so we all should gather and talk! u arrange lah, u got our emails, correct?

then to my dear sis, yah, at first i thought since when we give our daddy my blog address. yah, this is one fren in college which shares the same name as our daddy, so i told him that, and he said then i should have call him papa, so from then on, i always call him papa in college and his gfs would be my mummy.

dating vs married

ok, i admit, i'm extremely tempremental and emotional today. one of those days when i keep thinking and reflectiong about life. this is one of the point in life where i get a little depressed, wondering about life, questioning about life but doing nothing to improve life. i should have taken psychology or philosophy in Uni.

i was thinking,

1) dating. during dating, couples will naturally hold hands, after marriage, they hold their children's hands, they have to make a conscious effort to remember to hold each other's hands.

2) dating, they tried to book into budget hotel to sleep close to one another, or if they do sleepover at each other's house, they dun mind squeezing in a single bed and they can literally sleep on top of each other to save space. marriage, they sleep apart, not facing each other, wanting a private space. they wish they have a bigger bed, so that they have more space to themselves.

3) dating, they kissed naturally, in the lift, on the bus, in public places. marriage, we wondered when is the last time we kissed each other? last week? last month?

this is life, natural process. that's why maybe married couples should take time to remind each other about their love, spending some time together. so guys out there, go and tell your wife that u love her today. she needs it. (even if you don't mean it) haha, irony.

so all the ladies out there, it's not just the guys' job. u too can tell them u love them, and i know we ladies really mean it. but ladies, maintain your health, beauty and body even as we age, cos we want our guys to mean what they say when they say they luv us.

Reality vs Virtual

I could feel that yesterday i had a lot of pent up frustrations in me. i was like ready to burst at anybody who irritates me. but i had to control, i can't just take on anybody.

why was i feeling that way? until now, i still dunno. maybe it's just life, always rushing here and there to do this and that, but what do we achieve ultimately? so that we will not get summon for not buying season parking? so that life is better with more money at hand? so that we will be not be too late to fetch our kids from our in laws? so that our kids will not miss us too much if we are late in fetching them? this is not what i want in life. it's sad, but we have no choice. these are the mandane things we have to do, daily things which will not satisfy our emotions.

i was thinking, i kept saying, "life is worth the living, if we choose to" if we choose to live, choose to be happy, choose to do things that we like/want, choose a carefree life, life is definitely worth the living. maybe i need to be stronger mentally to push out the negative things that makes our lives sux. i dunno. if i can't choose how to live my life, then i really feel that life is not worth the living. that's y creepy thoughts like car crash, dying always come to my mind. but dun worry, i won't kill myself yet. i've my kids and family and ... to push me on.

sad, as i'm typing this, i dunno, i could feel the tears welling up in my eyes.

that's y i retreat to a world of virtual. thanks to the xbox. i like playing 'crazy taxi'. in this game, u get to drive recklessly, crash, and still not die. so i actually enjoying crashing into the oncoming cars. call me crazy, that's what the game is about. in reality, i can't crash into them, even tho i love to, but in virtual i can. and man, i enjoy crashing into vehicles, sending them flying off, then banging them and dragging them, shiok! and crashing into walls, buildings. great enjoyment.

sharks, gtg, c what i mean, i would luv to spend more time on this blog and make it interesting, i felt that i'm only revealing half of my thoughts. but we are always limited by time, the bell is going to ring soon, and i'm limited by this, can't do what i like, see what i mean. how to carry on life?

hate life, hate time

reflection for 2004

updates on melbourne trip. well, looks like family may not be able to go on to Melbourne, air tickets are too expensive for the whole family to go. so have opened up to ask friends to go with me to Melbourne. well, we are all in the midst of discussion through email.

in the meantime, it's a crazy time at work. everyone is rushing to finish the syllabus, cos tmr is the exams already. on one hand, i'm happy, this signals that we will be seeing the last of the students soon. on the other hand, i'm sad and worried. the post exams period is not one thing i look forward to. the students can be very havoc without any concrete things to do. got to plan something for them to do. sad, also becos,

this year has gone by very fast. it's like 'What!?! october already??!??" so fast. what did i accomplish this year? new friends? promotion? oh yah, i know what i accomplished. i had an accident, that is one great acheivement this year. ok, let me list down my achievements:

1) one great car accident (well, at least it got me thinking about my life, change my views about life and death)

2) more regular mahjong sessions

3) holiday trips (educational trips: batam, cairns. leisure trip: HK, bintan) still counting

4) Caring Teacher Award

5) more cash in the bank at month's end

goals for next year:

1) pay off the stupid credit lines and cards (but they are very handy when going travelling)

2) Marcus and Mabel are starting school. spend more time playing with them. teach them to rebel against their teachers! haha!

3) must plan a trip to bring M&M to australia in june



i think hor, i a bit mad leh, it's only september and i'm doing my reflection for the entire year. siao!

won 3N accomodation at melbourne

sigh... sorry to start the blog with a sigh. yesterday, juz won a 3N accomodation to melbourne. it was like a great prize, i mean i have always wanted to go melbourne with my family. this is a good chance to go since accomodation is paid for.

however, that's when the stress comes. it's stressful to plan a trip with family. it's stressful to find air tickets. and it's damn expensive. $850 per person, and that is without tax. so for the whole family to fly to melbourne just to enjoy a week in Melbourne, this is coming up to $3500. that is excluding food, transport etc. so tell me, is it worth to go or should i just sell the voucher away and have a fatter christmas?

had to turn down my colleagues who are going to Japan, otherwise, it was planned to go Japan with my colleagues. now i think i just want to stay put in Singapore, less hassle. but then again, it's melbourne leh... sigh the dilemna.

today is mid autumn, but look at the sky, so overcast, how to 'shang yue' tonite? life is worth living for, if u choose to. but sometimes, there is no choice. no choice because the god damn seconds are ticking away, and u always find yourself not having enough god damn time. sorry, some incidents were on my mind as i'm typing this and i'm really piss off. it's like when people ask me to find some documents for them, it's like i have the whole day to search for their one document like that and they want it instantly like that. please lah.