Just read something interesting and enlightening:

Why do I feel so much pain in letting go of the things that are causing me misery?

Hmm, was thinking of summarizing it, but then if I summarize it, the article would have lost its essence. You have to read it yourself if you really want to know. www.osho.com

Why do I find this enlightening? Because there were times when I felt immense pain in letting go of things, letting go of love. Of course, I’ve looked beyond all these already. Osho says, ‘You want to drop misery so that you can be happy – that is an absolutely wrong approach. You will have to drop both.’ Haha, cheem… I guess when we can say that we are free from the misery, in another words, if the things come back to you again, you will also not feel happy. Got it? Yes, I do, I realize that looking beyond things, attaining a choiceless realm, attaining an emotionless realm brings me to a greater sense of peace. And when I have this greater sense of peace, I am happier.

It is the same as playing stocks. Osho says, ‘you will have to see that there are investments in your misery. If you want those investments, you will have to learn to live with the misery, if you want to drop te misery, you will have to drop those investments too.’ It is the same as misery, I know of one lady in friendster, she has such a complicated relationship, now I know why she is holding on to her misery, because there is hope in her misery, so she is clinging on to her hope to her misery. Well, I’ve advised her enough but if she chooses to continue to cling on to her hope, maybe that is what is motivating her to live, well then, it’s her choice. I’ve stopped advising her. Asking her to read Osho’s article may only affirmed her actions.

Ok, so much said. I’m feeling drowsy from all the ‘enlightenment’. Need to rest and meditate.