It's been a very long time since i update...

i was busy and thought that by end of april, things should ease up, but ha, i was wrong. when is work going to ease up? although exams are here, not that i'm free, what i dread is the period after exams. Students are excited with the whole lot of activities plan for them, definitely going to be excited for them, but then, activities need to be planned by someone, and that someone is none other than teachers. so amidst the marking, must plan for post exam activities. hmmm, feeling extreme stressed.

marcus is also having exam this week, probably that adds on to my stress. for him, i know where is standard, as long as he does his best, not careless. but children are children, they need some drilling and practice otherwise they forget. luckily over the weekends, revised with him his maths. but he really got it from me... all the gruelling questions.

mabel, although she is not having exams, she loves to do assessment books. so she will be sitting beside us, doing her assessment books. but priority is marcus, so i only answer her questions when i'm done revising with marcus. but she is the quietly scheming one... must keep an eye on her.

told marcus and mabel that only if marcus pass his chinese, then will bring them to explorer kids at downtown east. must dangle a carrot for him to work towards to.

max is getting more and more cheeky and kpo. he can say a few words. walk walk, no, eat, up, i want, xie xie. took a few of his videos recently. one shows him and marcus playing, the other one him singing. need to go and find my card reader so that i can upload videos and pictures here. and also find the time to do it. he loves to go out. when someone takes the key, he would run to the door and find his shoes to wear. just before dinner time, he would call everyone to go to the dining table to sit down and eat and he has got a loud voice. he is also very quick to copy actions. so marcus and mabel have been feeling the stress to do the 'right' thing and not to do the 'wrong' thing.

family side, sister is going to dubai soon to work. wow, dubai. well, this is part of globalisation. i guess it would be a good change for her.

on labour day, the whole family had a nice family gathering. mum and aunties seem to be still missing grandma. well, can understand cos no matter what, mother and daughter relationship and grandma used to be the moral support, the pillar for the family. it's easy for us to say 'let go, move forward, learn to live without her' well, nobody can replace grandma's role. sometimes, i also dunno what to say to them when they cried. Even on grandma's 49 days, when we went back to her grave, well, i was controlling my tears already, so i can understand how my mum and aunties felt. that day, when i look through the funeral photos, i cried too. but i didn't know that their grief was so deep. i've never really blog about my feelings over grandma's death. will be arranging the photos soon and prob put it up on youtube, but yes, got to find the time for grandma. whenever i'm going to NIE for course, i'll definitely drop by to visit grandma.

i haven't fulfil my promise to grandma. it was always her wish that i go back to church. hmm, i dunno what is stopping me. distance? or was it a church that i can feel comfortable to go to? i know praying every night doesn't lessen my guilt to grandma nor to God, i would still need to read the Bible every day, QT and of course not forgetting to listen to God's words every sunday. i know mum, auntie sally and even steff have asked me recently about choosing a church and going to church weekly.

ok, that's the problem with updating once a while, you got such a long list of things to write down. think i'll stop here.