now i understand. when you love somebody, like i love max very much. i enjoy watching him sleep. i'll plant kisses on his cheeks when he sleeps. i want to be the first person he sees when he wakes up.

this morning, he opened his eyes, he saw me. then he put his arms around my neck. the feeling is great. that closeness feeling.

he was sick, need to bring him to see doc for his running nose.