my frustrations when it comes to disciplining my children

on saturday, max was being unreasonable with mabel. i know he was not feeling well, but he didn't want to sleep, so he was cranky. and he had some issues with mabel.

i really could not stand it, so i went to the kitchen, i caned a few times (4x) on his legs. i just feel that he's being too unreasonable, and marcus and mabel, i feel, is starting to get tired of always having to give in to him.

my mil was at home, of course. needless to say, she was very unhappy. but this time i really heck care.

i need to discipline my child so that next time, when i say something stern to him, he listens. no, next time, i just have to stare, max will be able to understand what i mean.

on thursday night, i really had to scold marcus for not completing his homework even though i've told him many times before hand, that he needs to do his homework before i come back. so i was fuming inside, mad.... but i cannot scold yet. i know if i start scolding, it will be loud and i'll probably hit marcus too. keeping your anger inside really can shorten your life, you know, who knows, you may have a heart attack. so after mil went out for dinner, i had to seize the opportunity to scold as much as i can, to give marcus a piece of my mind (i think it was many pieces)

i feel very frustrated at times when it comes to disciplining my child. On one hand, i have to make sure i cannot let go of the opportunity to discipline, on the other hand, i have to make sure to do it discreetly.

and the worse thing is, mil thinks that i scold the children because i was angry with her for scolding the maid. she thinks that i side the maid!!! so it becomes a vicious cycle, when i scold the children, she would scold the maid even more. aiyo, so frustrating.