when i say that as a person, we have many roles to play, i didn't mean 'people pleaser'. oh pleassssssssssse, we dun want to please people all the time, that is even more super tiring.

sometimes i just wonder how the human brain adapt so fast that we become unaware of it. as adults, we already know what mode to switch to when we interact with certain people. and with so many roles to play, there is really no time for 'me'. more and more often, i so wish to be left alone. yes, alone, so that i do not have to play the role of a parent, a child, a sibling, a colleague, a friend, a foe. certain roles are unavoidable, so if i can choose to avoid any role like the role of a niece, i would try to avoid it at all cost, becos i'm really tired. dun ask me to be that good niece to give in and apologise. sorry, this is a role that i dun play often, this is a role which is of last priority, this is the role that i will avoid.

sometimes i wonder, why on earth am i still alive? life is meaningless, going through the same motions day by day, having to solve other people's problems. also as you grow up, you learnt to say that some things are better left unsaid. the more you say, the more problems it create, so it's better not to say anything.