max woke up this morning just before we are going out of the house. he started crying and wanted me to hug me. he refused to let me go to work, his cry got louder and louder and he started crying 'mummy! mummy!'. my heart melted, how to leave him like that? so tempted to stay at home to accompany him, but that work is work.... so painful to harden the heart and walk away.

he's so cute, really can't let go of him.... that pain is indescribable.

actually the night before, i knew he was a little sad to know that we are all going to work the next day. he asked, 'uh, then i one person at home?' tried to be very quiet this morning, but still, he woke up. promised max that when i go home, i'll play uno with him.

he's getting better at playing uno, as in, at least now, he plays according to the rules. and he knows what is draw two, draw four.

i really miss him and can't bear to let him go.