on working hard

you know, children need to be encouraged positively when they do something right, we celebrate their achievement. when the going gets tough, we also encouraged them to hold on, press on, the goal is near.

why is it that when we, as adults, face tough times, there is hardy someone there to ask u to hold on, press on. maybe there is, but as adults, we have to quickly adapt and remain positive on the surface, because we are suppose to be able to keep our emotions in check and control our emotions.

so here i am, since 6 something, been battling with my negative emotions, and i have another 10 mins or so to settle these emotions before i face the world. so here is throwing up all my negative thoughts as my last attempt to turn positive.

why do i work so hard for? suppose to have 5 days mc, but still press on. do others even appreciate that? i can't see my goals, i can't see my destination, there is not even any to speak of, maybe, but why the heck do i continue and keep telling myself just do it? does other people know? appreciate?

it's sad when you keep trying, but on the other side, the other party has things so occupied, u wonder if they noticed? u just feel that u r on the sideline, doing these things, like a clown and yet have to understand the other party's point of view. and when the other party turns around to you, u have to quickly respond, otherwise you kena scolding.

ok, a few more mins, end rambling and am quickly adapting.