weather and mood

somehow u can't help but notice that the weather reflects your mood. or is your mood being affected by the weather.

the sky looks grey today, there is no sunshine.... exactly my mood. grey, overcast, no sunshine.

i think too many things been happening lately, from max being sick, to me, now being sick, to family issues, to work. oh ya and i don't know my internet and wifi not working since last night, another thing to resolve, sianz. and life has not been treating me well lately. did i ask for it? have i not treat life well? they say, dun live your life like a puppet. have i? Now i'm at a loss, i dunno wat else i can do, say to make life better. do more, intentions misunderstood, say more, wrong more. without life, i'm lifeless. with life, there are full of ups and downs, i guess going through a period of downs.

and my menses is late again.... it's a problem because it would set you thinking, was it stress that delay it or otherwise? and the longer it takes to to come, the more pms you have, more bad tempered, more frustration. and when it finally comes, because it's late, the cramp is unbearable. and you keep going to the toilet at the slightest hint of drip to check if it is red in color. you have to standby your pad when you go out, in case. argh..... hate it.