fragile Mabel

mabel seem to have twisted one of the tendons in her right leg, thigh to be more precise. dunno wat happen, when she woke up on sunday, she was crying and say that her leg is painful. she didn't dare to walk the whole day.

brought her to the chinese doc. but she still didn't dare to walk. i think she is being paranoid. when i carry her, she is like so frightened that it's painful that she stiffen her leg muscle, think the stiffening of her muscle cause her the pain. she should juz relax her leg.

but she was crying every 15 mins at nite. it was like i know she's tired, but she didn't dare to lie down. she just sat on the bed, then she refused to let marcus go near her. she'll scream and cry when marcus climbed up the bed, and he's not even near her! omg!

had to carry her and pat her to sleep. only when she sleeps, then i can continue my work. i know it's painful for her, i can only hug her tight. wish i could remove the pain for her. had to tell her not to cry becos crying will not lessen the pain, no use crying. well, she kind of like understood a little.

we were discussing, we should make a sign and hang it on mabel. sign will read, 'fragile. handle with care.'

if there is a god out there somewhere, if i've not been a good mum, take it out on me, dun do this to my children and hurt me so deep inside. damn.