the problem with me is that i lack commitment.

for example:

1) only when i'm running 2.4km, i went jogging. then after 2.4, i stopped jogging even though i tell myself that i should jog at least thrice a week.

2) was uzapping away for the past 2 nites, then last nite, was lazy again, didn't go through the routine

3) u know some ladies have a regular routine of cleansing, washing, toner and then moisturize? then at times, there are the night cream, eye cream and then moisturize the body? well, i can try for a few days, then i'll become lazy to go through the process.

4) even with marcus, i think i lack the commitment to see through the revision. i'm not like some parents who can sit down every night with their children without fail to go through their work and then when they realise that their child is not clear about some things, they will a) sign up for enrichment classes and b) more assessment books for their children to do. yes, i know of parents who are like that.
then they can sit down there with their children, watching them do assessment. so no life for the kids and the parents.

so with marcus, it is a struggle for me every time. on one hand, i wants him to do well, but on the other, i want him to enjoy his childhood. it's a difficult balance.