how do you know that your mind is focussed on your work?

when you try to sign in to blogger using your IC number as the user id.

and the best part is, when blogger prompt me that there is no such id, i didn't realise i type in IC number.

ok, i wanted to say.....

this is the 4th day of the week, i've scolded or nagged at marcus at least 3 mornings in this week. i really do not understand. tell him nicely to ask his BB teacher if there is parade this saturday and he has missed his uniform try out because that saturday, we were in batam. so i need him to ask his teacher, how?

i mean i could easily used my working email to locate his BB teacher and asked her via email, but i don't want to, i want him to settle this thing himself.

yesterday, he came home without his file. asked him where he left his file, as usual, he is clueless. so last night, i really gave it to him. file missing and he still has not gone to find his teacher.

this morning, he came to tell me, behind his ears are a bit swollen because of his spectacles. i think he judged from yesterday, mabel told me about her swollen lips, i asked her to see doctor and take mc. so today, marcus came to tell me behind his ears were swollen.

but i didn't ask him to see a doc and take mc. i sent him to school. applied some cream for him and told him if it's painful, then don't wear the spectacles. he took out his spectacles and wanted to keep it inside his bag. screamed at him, asked him to at least use a spectacles case. then he didn't want to bring the spectacles to school. stupi, then how to see the whiteboard?

so in the end, his spectacles, in a spectacles case, in his schoolbag.

at the lift lobby, i got fed up with him again. i told him 'marcus, i can bet with you today. you will either forget about your whole spectacles or your spectacles will be on your face but your spectacles box is missing. And then, you will still not find your file and you will still not find Ms Sim. i can bet with you that.'

i'm so....................... fed up with him. i hate his nonchalent attitude. Why does he have to manifest this nonchalent attitude? You could say that i'm a 'go do it' kind of person. I don't like too many choices, i quickly made a decision, and then just do it, no regrets. regrets also like that, what can you do? just move along and things will be corrected by itself. Life is short, i do not want to waste my life being indecisive. Let's just do it and move on.

so maybe for marcus, because he is slower and it does not meet my expectations, so it seems that i'm impatient with him. But i really hate his heck care attitude. If he continues like that, i'm going to learn from him too, heck care about him and let him rot. I'm tired of looking after so many 'babies'.

I think being stuck in my generation sucks. we are stuck in the middle. we got to look after our parents, we got to look after our children. any little problem, they come look for us to settle this, settle that. can't they settle it themselves? for children, ok, they need guidance. but for our parents? before doing things don't want to discuss, then when things are done, got problem, then we have to settle the shit.

that's why i say i'm tired.