silly me

This morning during silent reading, i was reading reader's digest on this article.

30 something year old Australia man, has a wife, has a toddler. But he's an adventurous man. He loves kayaking, mountain climbing etc. He had this dream, the most selfish and riskiest one (according to him) to kayak alone from Australia, Tasmania to New Zealand. But he did not reach his destination, his kayak was found, but his body was not.

I cried. cried because when he left, his son was crying for him, shouting for him as he kayak away from the shore. cried again when i saw the pic of the crying son being carried by the mother, waiting in New Zealand as the search team was conducting the search. It was so painful.

As a woman, i wondered, why didn't the wife stop him? In fact, knowing his love for adventure, she did not stop him from fulfilling his dream despite knowing that she may lose him. Indeed, this thing happened in 2007, i wondered how she survived these 4 years. It must have been devastating. I wonder if i can be as understanding as the woman.

Recently, adrian made me dig out the old vcd and lend it to Kelvin. The storyline of that movie and the song has been circling in my head these few days. That's why my blog yesterday. People only regret when they lose something precious, then having to live through the memories and wishing the person was alive or time can be turned back.

can't change the past, only you can decide on your future.