will go into Osho's reading to make peace with my inner being. i need to find a balance. it's always cheem to read his articles. very profound, very true. juz read about 'rainbow'

if you know the key of awareness. Then you can turn everything into gold. When somebody insults, that is the moment to keep alert. When your wife looks at somebody else and you feel hurt, that is the moment to keep alert. When you are feeling sad, gloomy, depressed, when you feel the whole world is against you, that is the moment to be alert. When you are surrounded by a dark night, that is the moment to keep your light burning. And all these situations will prove helpful -- they are meant for it.

If you know how to use anger, you will see anger gives you a sharpness of being -- just as if somebody has sharpened a sword. Anger rightly used gives you a sharpness, a radiance, a tremendous vitality

how apt this article is with my present piss mood. but how? how do i keep aware when someone has insulted me? i will have to find a way, i suppose

pissed

Ok, i'm a simple person, all i ask for is not for anyone to step on my tail. Once u step on my tail, beware my wrath.

angry and depressed.

1) loan. i shall not elaborate, it's juz frustrating and a strain on your energy

2) pillow. how can a person be so calculative over a missing pillow? alright, there are two pillow, it is a pair. but honestly, there is only one pillow, all along there is only one pillow. what makes u so sure that there were 2 pillows? my stupid mistake, i should have checked stock before moving in and writing them in black and white. i'm juz piss, had difficulty getting to sleep. especially so if this is your family members. i mean logically, you should know, why would i want to take your one pillow? what can i do with your one pillow? i want to take, i also take millions of dollar. oh please............ juz the thought of it makes me fed up. your own family members so calculative or so not trusting? or what? i juz could not comprehend.

nvm, i only know that this chinese new year, i'll not be going anywhere. if i can't stand a person, i will not be a hypocrite and be happy and merry. i'll juz excuse myself, becos i do not want to spoil the new year mood of everyone. yes, i've made up my mind. silent protest!

juz an example to show how i can spoil people's mood. (in a happy mood) "Sandra, happy new year!!" (me, juz look blankly at the person) " the new year very happy meh?"

so i better excuse myself.

ok, piss meter says 100. so i better shut up.

so fast, it's already been 10 days since i blogged. this week will be another busy week before it's CNY. it's like so many things more before i can fully enjoy the 'keep work' feeling. ok, after tues... tuesday will be a busy day for me.........extremely busy......... jitters... after tues, i'll really be able to enjoy....

can only do my own shopping on thurs, hopefully, if not, friday. think i never done cny shopping so late... not to forget, the marketing of food to be done. but this year, due to my homeless status, think i dun need to buy so much... next year, next year will be a great year.

the shopping centres must be packed with people during the weekends. i only went to ntuc at amk and gosh, it was so crowded. that is the festive mood. so i can imagine orchard road... cos this is the last weekend before cny....

ok shall stop here....

haha, juz did another stupid tickle test and the test results are hilarious!!!

sandra, you're a String Bikini

Whether you're batting your eyelashes, smiling that sweet smile, or brushing past him at a party, you know how to work it, girl. And that's why you're a sweet and sexy string bikini. Just like your panty match, you're a perfectly cool mix of classic, flirty, and fun.We bet you're on everyone's invite list because you've got the confidence and charisma to talk to strangers and make anyone in the room feel important. And nothing's sexier than that!

looks like i've only been updating my blog every 10 days.... hmmm.... anyway, i guess it's a good sign to be busy. well, at least i have a job to do and a darn hard job. much better than people who are jobless, so i have no complaints. At least it brings food to the family table.

being busy, being in a different role is good. These few weeks, i discovered new things about myself. Some of these things... well, i never knew i was able to do it.

1) so far, with so many deadlines to meet, i have not really screwed up any deadlines. i was able to juggle and yeah, multi task, the buzz word. if i have the free time, i will be thinking what else to do next, what else to plan next. sometimes, i carry this book with me to note down my thoughts and planning.

2) i never knew i could do presentations in front of so many people. never knew that i can conduct a workshop.

3) i learnt that you have to seize the opportunity if you want to shine. and once you get the opportunity, you must make use of it well.

4) i learnt that in life, many things are to be packaged nicely and 'sell koyok'. if you dun show, people won't know.

ok, enough said, after walking one whole round of Bedok Reservoir, i'm mentally and physically exhausted. go home, still have to play with son son.... he is getting so cute by the day.

not been updating because been very very very very very very busy...... and on top of this, am troubled with finding a house.

well, it's not that we can't find a house... 1st problem: the seller would not sell at valuation. i have a gut feeling that if we offer 18k or 20k above valuation, he may sell. but i dun have the money to make that kind of offer. plus not forgetting i have to fork out 5% cash payment on top of this.

then, there is another seller, selling the house without a valuation, then how can people offer? anyway, now pending for valuation report to come out... then according to the agent of this seller, there are a few interested buyers.. well, we'll see. we'll make our offer, if cannot, then too bad.

sigh... where to look for $60k??? back to work

wishlist

i change my wishlist again.... after much thought, i think getting another new hp is not practical... hmmm, then why did i include it in the first place? ohhhhh, the power of advertisement....

instead of getting a new phone, think more practical is to increase the storage space of my hp and my digi cam. my dear sis gave us a digi cam as xmas present.... anyway, if i want to take pics, i have my digi cam, if i want to listen to music, i still have my trusty ipod mini, if i want to organise my task/appointment, i still have my trusty pda.

as for my new hobby, it was not really new.... i had been taking pictures since .... that was when i was taught to take the sky, clouds etc etc.... well, i learnt to appreaciate nature and more observant of nature around me... i did stop for some time.... but after i went to melbourne, it kind of click in me again. as someone said... 'feelingnism'

2nd day of work... been busy already. reached home at 7 plus... miss talking to my children... think i can feel it esp with mabel... she's like she sticks around while i'm using the computer... makes me feel really bad. and i have not seen Max for TWO days!!!

ok, i got to update my hobbies...

i am suppose to update on my melbourne trip.

28th Nov
gathered at Changi Airport to take 9 pm flight.


group photo at the airport


in the plane

29th Nov
reach the airport early morning, btw, melbourne is about 3 hours ahead of sg, so most of us were very very tired, body still operating in sg timing


at melbourne airport


in the coach bus

Our first few stops were to tour around the melbourne city:
Parliament house


Chapel (can't remember the name)








then it's to alfresco lunch beside the Yarra River


then it's more visiting to:
Museum






Captain Cook's Cottage


then it's back to the hotel to check in. well, the place looks clean and decent.






at night, it was to the Crown Casino. nice fire displays we saw.





and i've been inside the casino. not to gamble, juz to check out wat it is like inside the casino. only in there for about 15 mins

30th Nov
On way to Phillip Island to watch the penguin parade. on the way there, we stop by:
Sunny Ridge Strawberry farm for some strawberry picking










We had ice cream after we picked the strawberries




Had fish and chips for lunch


wildlife wonderland where our students have close contact with the animals



wombat


feeding the kangaroo


ostrich



Seal rock (beautiful sunset)










then last of all, penguin parade. We are not allowed to take photos or video the penguins. so we took some pics at the visitor centre






after we went back to the hotel, some debrief session




1st Dec
Great Ocean Road!!!
the beginning






then we had lunch at (i can't remember the town)




the 12 apostles
















Loch Ard Gorge




London bridge


Some group presentation at night




2nd Dec
considered the last day. went to Sovereign Hill, basically, this is an interactive museum where there are people dressed in period costumes, re-enacting the 1800s. cool. The students have the most fun here, panning for gold.



real gold smith


pose for the camera :)


real horse


man in police costume, 'threatening' one of us with the 'sword'


in the tunnel experiencing the miners' working condition




demonstration on how to pan for gold


our students serious at panning





then the rest of the day is for shopping. had a chance to sit in a horse carriage.


3rd Dec
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