dreaming of grandma

for two times this month, i've dreamt of grandma. And both dreams are on her funeral.

ok, i know, it's the hungry ghost festival this month.

大家讲华语！Presidential Hopefuls too!

大家讲华语！Presidential Hopefuls too!

大家讲华语！Presidential Hopefuls too!

大家讲华语！Presidential Hopefuls too!

Children

Why do parents bring children to the world? Look ma, I'm suffering, I'm not happy.

If I die now, I only worry about my 3 children. I'm sorry to bring you to this world to suffer. There r no more laughter, just worries, stress, sorrow, deceit and lies.

Children is the greatest gift? They are, they were, probably my source of motivation. But at times like this, they become the worry, the thing I can't let go.

Some unhappy couples remain married for the sake of the children. I'm not blaming my children, I blame myself for bringing them to this world.


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Of marriage and divorce

Why do two people hold on to the promise of 'till death do us apart'? If both are not happy in the marriage, why must we wait until death to do us apart?

For youngsters, they pack and leave house, we say they run away from home. Can a spouse do likewise, run away from home?

Dear god, please give me the courage to go. I don't care in what ways, be it I pack and go, be it I die, I just want to go.


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all of us are sick

All of us, 3M and myself, we all fall sick. Started with Max first, then it passed to me on saturday, remember my thermometer picture?

Then last night, mabel and marcus, both had sore throat and mabel was running a fever.

This morning Marcus actually went to school but he had a fever so i went to school to fetch him.

All four of us went to see the doctor and the doctor gave all of us 2 days MC.

so is this call in sickness or in health, we go through this together as mother and children? haha

On being ill

Who says you can't bathe when sick? Feels so much fresher after bathe. When you don't bathe, you just feel, well, so sick.

baking cookies

Mabel, Marcus and Max baked cookies today. They got the ingredients themselves and did the baking themselves. I think the domestic helper did help them a bit with the mixing of ingredients.

Well, looks like they enjoyed baking.

gym

For a very long time, today i decided to go to gym, reason because i've been getting leg cramps recently, just so sudden like that, no reason, while i was walking.

Started to work out slow, ran on the treadmill, then do some exercise on the machine. While i was doing some exercises, a group of about 5-6 men, (btw, i was the only one working out in the gym) came into the gym, i think one guy was selling gym machines, so they all came in to look at the gym machines.

So pai seh sia, i mean the awkward feeling, moreover, this is like after a period of so many months, first time i went back to the gym, i met this group of men. Well, it just feels weird that while you were working out, there is a group of people, watching. Plus, i not professional, so pai seh.

Zodiac quotes

ZodiacFacts #Gemini people believe in just one thing and that is living life to the fullest.

Hey, that's the title I have on my blog.


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Yucky feeling

In the morning, just as u woke up, u go through the day's event and thiNgs that u have to do, an u just have this yucky feeling and that sucks feeling that it's not going to be a pleasant day, long day feeling.

Almost feel like sleeping my day through.


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Quadraplets

Last night, I dreamt that I gave birth to quadruplets!!!! Wa piang.


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Husband and wife

Was looking at some old photos, am just wondering, life is weird. I mean, how did we end up with the person we are with now? is it fate?

I mean, so many people came into our life, some people had a few boyfriends or girl friends before they got married, so why this person you choose to marry? is it fate?

on the other hand, there are some people whose paths you will cross later in your life, then how? why did fate bring both of you to cross path and yet can't be together?

I don't understand life.

booking airline tickets online

Sorry, I just have to compare between zuji and Misa travel.

I've heard stories of nightmare of trying to book airline tickets online on zuji. Many years ago, I personally had a bad experience and i never really got my refund back even though they told me that cancellation of tickets is $50.

Hence, I was apprehensive about booking airline tickets again online. After some googling, i found MISA travel. Hoenstly, i had a pleasant experience with MISA travel. They did not ask me for money first. After i keyed in the details online, they sent me an email for me to confirm.

After I made some changes to the flight details, they replied back (it was very quick reply). It was like it was instantaneous respond and they assigned a travel agent to your booking, hence, she was able to respond to my emails very fast.

After you have confirmed the details, they sent you modes of payment details, i could do bank transfers, i could pay by credit card or go down to their office to make payment, the idea i'm trying to put across is, there are many methods of payment modes i can choose from.

After i've done the bank transfer, capture a screen shot and gave the banking reference number, i emailed the agent these details.
Almost an hour later, i got another email from her, asking me to check the details again before the ticket is issued as no changes can be made after the ticket is issued. The idea is they let you check before issuing the ticket.

I replied after checking the details and confirmed. Almost like another hour later, I got the e-ticket via email. It's fast and efficient.

I truly had a pleasant experience with MISA travel. I would strongly recommend to other people. I would strongly go back to MISA again.

update

A quick post before i start the day.

1) Marcus celebrated his birthday on 8 Aug with a small birthday party, asking a few classmates and his teacher to our house. Adrian invited his cousins. Will post pictures asap.

2)National Day - brought kids to escape theme park and met up with Kelvin and family. The children had a good time playing on the rides and Marcus and Mabel went on the viking 7 times, until Marcus felt dizzy at the end of the 7th time. It was a hot day that day.

This was followed by dinner at ang mo kio.

3) 3M asked Yee Yee to come to our house on Wednesday evening.

4) Max has the fever and running nose. probably from the sun on Tuesday and cheetos potato chips on Wednesday evening! well, i was supposed to buy for him on Monday, but until Wednesday, he told yee yee that i promised to buy on marcus' birthday but now marcus' birthday over already, i still haven't buy, so the yee yee had to help me fulfill my promise.

Hee, for snitching on his mum, max fell sick..... hahahahaha

anyway, think i'm getting the virus from him, my throat is starting to feel itchy.

Prayer

God, please give me strength, day to day, to be emotion less, to b void of feelings so that I don't feel hurt or hurt others.


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Monday morning, eve of national day

I just want to drive slowly and enjoy listening to my songs while I drive, but some drivers, nb, knn, cannot drive properly and juz anyhow, suka suka change lane without indication.

And it is 2 consecutive blue comfort taxis. What the hell, I know u all need to earn a living, but at the expense of other people's life???!!!??? Please, get a life! Or comfort taxi so lousy, signal spoil, cannot indicate?

Crazy day

I think I'm crazy today. Went hair salon to highlight hair, then pass by nail salon, went in for mani and pedi. And I choose crazy colors for my toe nails.




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optimism and pessimism

I believe a pessimistic person will have a tinge of optimism in them. likewise, an optimism person will have their pessimistic moments.

Motivational gurus tell us to look at things positively. I mean i totally agree that we should be positive and optimistic. But there are times when an optimistic person will also face a moment of pessimism. It is a matter of how fast the person can turn over and cheer up again.

I believe the factors that helps or hinders a person from turning a pessimistic moment to optimistic moment are:

1) energy. It takes a lot of self talk and energy to look at things from the positive side. Imagine a dying person who could still laugh when all those around them are crying, do you know how much energy and determination is involved? So it helps if you still have energy, it's quite fast to turn things over and smile again. But try it when you out of energy, especially after a day of work, say, like going home, something bad happened and try turning it over and smile again, trust me, it really zaps up your last bit of energy and sometimes, worse, you may be defeated and get into a spiral of downward unhappiness.

2) events. Depending on the magnitude of the events, it's a direct relationship. The bigger the event, the longer it takes for you to cheer up again. Depending on the number of events, again it's a direct relationship. The more the events for you to try to turn it over to cheer up, the longer it takes for you to turn each subsequent event around and smile again.

makes sense?

quotes

哭并不是因为悲伤，而是感受到爱一个人是如此的美好。

F.I.R.讓愛重生MV

I like the first part about tears.

F.I.R.飛兒樂團 - 愛有路可退MV 原版KTV

This WAS? another new song i found.

[KTV]F.I.R.新歌淚光閃爍 瑞影完整版KTV

Yeah FIR got new songs, or WAS it new song?

Asia markets tumble amid recession fears - Channel NewsAsia

Asia markets tumble amid recession fears - Channel NewsAsia

something to take my mind off things.

RED RED RED! that's all i can say about the stock markets today.

raining so heavily

sigh, raining so heavily. it coincides with my down and heavy feeling. God is not helping me, i'm trying very hard to recollect my feelings and move on....

I think God has a bigger picture, the rain brings relief to the hot weather that we were experiencing for the past few days. The rain helps people to cuddle together as they seek shelter under the same umbrella. The rain waters the plants that are dying of thirst. The rain makes people curse and swear but it makes them learn to be patient while they drive, learn not to be frustrated when they are drenched.

God has a bigger picture, i should not complain and think only of my own small inconvenience.

will want to have a Busy Day

Today is 4 August... time passes so fast....

will keep myself busy today and keep my mind busy and off from other things.

Will collect my emotions and try to be normal today.

i will miss you

Dear Faye Faye,

i wonder how u feel now, i wonder where u are now. how is rainbow bridge? i can see that you are well again, happy and running around, no more suffering, no more pain.


I will always remember your unconditioned love to us. When you were younger, you always scolded for being too noisy, barking when people come to the house or when u did not pee properly on the newspaper. But no matter how u were scolded, you will always be there for us, wagging your tail when we come home.

You have car sick, it was so difficult to bring you even to see a dog or for grooming. I also remembered you had ingrown nails.

At ang mo kio, there was a morning, i must have been drunk, i slept on the kitchen floor, i knew u were beside me all the way, looking after me.

it saddens me to see you deteriorating in the past few months when i went ang mo kio. No, i shall not recall those days.

In my mind, you will always be a energetic, lovable and lovely Faye.

Love you and remembering you always

Just sad

Turbulence of feelings going through, i didn't know how to blog.

Suppose to be happy and looking forward to a short working week next week and Marcus birthday. But somehow, many thing happen this week.

I just can't lift up my spirits, so can I be officially sad, emo for this week? Dun cheer me up.


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