finally, booked for club med phuket. went to natas fair. as i expected, i think all the airline tickets were block book by travel agents. anyway, scout around, and managed to find this travel agent who is friendly and we were able to work out some things. so booked the club med with her.

so 3M, mark in your calendar, 14 june to 18 june. now i can heave a sigh of relief.

next, tomorrow we are going to get the double decker bed for the children. i bet they are excited.

random thoughts for the night

1) check out the newspaper on natas fair, wrote down the booth number to visit. now worried, the cost too high for the whole family to go club med, scared no money to pay, wonder if there is instalment plan.

2) really wish there is flight available, otherwise we may have to call off the holiday plans.

3) the children are playing nintendo wii downstairs. they sound so happy

4) very tired tonight. stayed too late in school

5) brought the kids to eat dinner at coffeeshop, ordered pizza. not too bad. they gobbled down almost everything. the italian guy gave the children another 3 slices FOC.

6) the 9pm show is crap.

7)i need to massage my feet. the muscle feels so tense

8)max was playing and shouting, suddenly, 'sh sh' then he ran to the toilet. ha, he's so funny.

blogging for the sake of writing something.

anyway, it's a thursday, and i'm looking forward to the NATAS fair tomorrow. I sincerely hope that i'm able to make a booking for club med with transportation included.

this is making me worried.

1) i'm on the net since 7pm and it's almost 10pm now. i've been checking on club med, playing guess the sketch and playing geo challenge and pet society. neck stiff.

2) max is sitting beside me and doing silly things like twirling the psp wire and peeping into what i was doing and repeating whatever i say.

3) max just kissed me when i smiled at him.

4) another weight loss advertisement on the tv. so boring.

5) max has been digging his nose and passing me his nose shit. and he doesn't stop calling me until i take the nose shit from him. he makes me want to dig my nose too.

so it has been decided. We decided to bring the kids to club med phuket during the june holidays. reason, it's cheaper than bali.

suppose to go to sleep, but since on the internet, might as well try to beat my score in geo challenge. yeah, finally broke the 7000+, now it's 10000+.

when i saw my score, i was like, i clenched my fist and 'yes'. that satisfaction.

ok, attending a workshop at ishop at cineleisure is cool.

wish i can 'koup' one macbook home. haha, just joking.

they should organise more of such workshops where it's conducted off site. it's really a refreshing change.

how silly of me. meant to do some work on sunday night, but then i copied the wrong folder onto my thumbdrive. so nothing was done.

so now, on a monday morning, have to rush like anything. good luck to me

went to parkway parade (again) today after dropping mil at church. then went to harvey norman because remember the advertisement that today is the last day. but things were quite messy inside though some of the things look attractive to buy. and there was not enough staff to ask for assistance.

in the end, we walked out of harvey norman and walked over to best denkei. it was there and plus the staff's assistance, we bought a pioneer home theatre set for our room, about $379. i guess it's good buy. with hdmi, vcd/dvd, usb, built in fm.

let me see, on saturday, after meet the parent session, went to have lunch at brewerkz. After happy hour, we came back for a nap.

Max was sleeping so he didn't follow us to brewerkz. when he woke up and couldn't find us, he cried.

anyway, the day went on as usual with sister in law and family coming over to our house for dinner in the evening. went out for dinner and the children played nintendo wii after dinner.

just have staff games day... played table tennis and badminton. It was fun though i'm all now sweaty and smelly. let me finish me the last few scripts before going back. tomorrow still have to come back.

so not going to do anything tonight.

i've finally finish my cantonese show.

It was fun watching it together. last night at 11pm, we finally finish the show. would we start on a new show? well, not likely. need a break.

it was really a nice show, i'm sorry, little nyonya must step aside. it's really a lot about kinship. 家好月圆

i have something to confess.

dear dear said thanks to me for taking care of his mother.

my sis in law and her husband also said thanks to me for taking care of mil.

actually i felt that i didn't do that much to be thanked. but nonetheless, accepted and you're welcome.

so monday came and now it's tuesday. day in day out, work work work.

for the past two weeks, been feeling down about work, i'm not sure of my future direction. maybe i'll do this, maybe i'll do that, or even maybe i'll do that. sorry, i dun think i want to explicitly say it here. but as i'm typing, i think i know what are the this and thats.

so a little unsure but surely and slowly, it would become clear. just continue praying.

Max is so funny. he still keeps on singing 'he xin nian, zhu xin nian' even though chinese new year is over. then he goes, 'dong dong chiang, dong dong chiang' just like the lion dance. haha, his actions tickles me.

he is naughty too. he has been slowly invading marcus' toys. so many things that were once marcus' now became his. sometimes even marcus' psp. so that sunday, i bought marcus his 2nd instalment of pokeman vcd.

mabel has been nice to max too, giving in and being a great helper in the family.

sometimes really must be very conscious to be fair to all three of them especially the two eldest one.

i am hooked on cantonese drama serial.

how did it begin? on saturday, when i was at my sister in law's house, my mil brought one disc over to continue watching. It was episode 16. Since there wasn''t much to do, i watched it as well. then i knew i was hooked. it wasn't too difficult to realise who was who, then i was hooked.

that night after we went home, i managed to watch 2 more discs. btw, one disc is 2 hours, 3 episodes long. so that night, i slept at 3am.

on sunday, i started to watch at 8pm. another 2 discs. last night, being a weekday night, i tell myself, only 1 disc... so i started at about 8.30pm and by 1030pm, with the kids in the room, i stopped after one disc.

i never knew i would be hooked in the first place. i always snigger at people who are hooked to korean drama serial or cantonese drama serial. now i know that feeling. and i'm astonished. If the scriptwriter can stop the episode at the appropriate time to make you want to watch the next, this person has done a great job.

you know that feeling, you were engrossed in the show, then suddenly the screen freeze and the words came out, then you go like, gosh and you hit both palms together.

and the show makes you cry! that's what makes watching so exciting

let me see, so many days never update....

sorry, jessica, it totally slipped out of my mind that 14 feb is over. i was trying to recall in class what i did on that day....

in the morning, brought my maid to POSB as she wanted to remit some money home. queued, the form is tedious to hand in, she was not friendly in helping me and it's $30! then went home first, then brought her to Singpost and finally settled. But being a saturday, it was such a long queue.

After that, went back to school for a while. haven't been in school for the past few days due to training, never plan anything for monday's lesson, so felt uneasy. came back to sch, the staff room was so stuffy, so packed a few things to bring home to do.

went to eastpoint for lunch. then when i reached home, it was back to work. then my sis came over to play with 3M. in the evening time, it was to sister in law's house for dinner.

i hope there will be another sales...

nothing much to post lately because has been attending a 3 full day workshop from wed to fri. 9am-5pm.

now i can understand how our student felt, sitting down in the classroom for so many hours, listening to the teacher teach. it's boring! yes, it is.

so now, knowing this, how can i then improve and help them break out from this?

yesterday, succumb to sickness and max's crying and took mc. Actually it was more of max.

He woke up and he started crying. he said that he doesn't want me to go to work, if not he wants to follow me to work. then he just kept on crying without letting me go.

so in the morning, i had a great time with max, playing rayman rabbit with him and then we went for breakfast and he accompanied me to see a doctor.

After we came home, we played psp. but by then, about 12 plus, he was very tired. so he slept in my arms. i quickly took my medicine and soon, i was drowsy and fell asleep too.

I think max woke up at 3 plus and he went downstairs. but i was so knocked out from the effects of the medicine that i just continued sleeping.

this morning, as i prepare myself to go to work, max woke up and he open the toilet door while i was brushing my teeth. his radar system is just so sensitive. I had a hard time trying to discourage him from following me to work.

Then i realised that he doesn't want to go back to sleep, so i let him go downstairs and watch cartoon network. He also want to play the psp. only then, he allowed me to go to work.

so now i'm rushing to finish some of the things in school so that i can quickly go back and play with the children.

thank you for the present

thank you dear dear for the diamond. It was a pleasant surprise. didn't expect you to buy a gift for me. thanks and love you lots, dear.

Wakin concert

Feb 7 is finally the day we go and watch wakin's concert. It has been a long time since we last saw a concert.

we went out while max was taking his afternoon nap. that was the only way we could get out without him tagging along. since it was still early, we went to brewerkz at indoor stadium to have something to drink and later towards the evening, our dinner.

when it was time, we went in. i think it was at least 95% full. so at 8pm, the concert started. It was 4 hours of concert. that feeling of being at the concert, the sound system was great. It was really pleasant and soothing to the ears. Not to mention, good singing from wakin. He also sang some old songs, it was really down memory lane for us.

I love his jokes and his interaction with the fans. the costume is nothing spectacular, but it was his genuine and sincere attitude that makes the concert worthwhile.

Valentine's day presents

today, we went to parkway. After having a sumptuous meal, we went shopping. the kids went into a shop. they 'fleece' me of a bakugan, barbie drawing stencil and hotwheel car.

so this is my valentine's day presents to them.

today while having dinner at a coffeeshop, i overheard a father saying this to his child

'we are now in the public, don't show me that stupid face.'
'i say come here. u better come here and sit down.' (in a fierce tone)

hmm, from my point of view, it sounds very harsh. i personally don't like the way he scold. i sympathise with the kid.

Happy 16th anniversary, dear dear

it's 6th Feb today. 16 years ago, u held my hands. that was how i kena duped....NOT!

although after 16 years, that passion we had then is sort of like gone, i guess after 16 long years, the relationship has 'upgrade' to a different type of relationship.

somewhat, the passion that we had when we were young, heck-care, no worries, happy go lucky, cheonging every nite with friends. yes, THAT passion is gone.

the passion that we have now, commitment, braving storms together, our little outings on friday nites, sweet kind of passion, sharing quiet moments of togetherness and tenderness, assuring hugs, sharing wonderful moments with the children and as a family.

It's definitely different. happy anniversary, dear dear.

yesterday, worked until i forgot to go to the bank to bank in the children's hongbao money. so today, i rushed to the bank before it closes.

then later rush back because i had to meet my mum at the maid agency. we settle our dinner outside.

ok, my thoughts are random. you know this 30 thingy thing about yourself that is passing around. if someone tags you, then you have to write about 30 random things about yourself. was reading a few, it makes me understand the person better.

i wonder if i were to write, will i be able to fill up 30 things about myself? how long would it take for me to fill up 30 things about myself? how well do i know myself?

Thought of the day: are there different forms of hugs? which type of hug do you desire most? whose hug do you desire most?

i enjoy my form class this year. They are a great bunch of people. a bit crazy at times, but good bunch of people.

I hope that they will be able to persevere all the way to the O levels. We will do this together. from high school muscial, 'we're in this together.'

i love 5n1!

thanks to family members and friends, special thanks to sis, gor yee and sally for their words of encouragement.

thanks to friends
daniel: for encouraging words and for reminding me that i've a choice and being 'down' frequently is not normal
clarence: for showing concern
serene: for her words of encouragement
mdm adibah: for words of encouragement
howard: for showing concern to his teacher
laurence: for words of encouragement

marcus, my son for making the effort to do his homework before mummy came home.
last of all, to dear dear, thanks for the hug.

it's almost 6.30pm, still working. sianzzzzzzzzz

yesterday, i broke down.

i was so frustrated inside, for failing to keep up with my marking, for failing to be there for marcus and mabel when they did their homework, for having to do so much at work. i broke down.

i just don't feel like talking. after dinner, i went to the room, close the door and wept. i'm not sure if it's tears of frustration, tears of sadness or what. It just flows.

after that, i knelt down and i prayed to God. i told God that i'm so tired, i'm so frustrated, i feel so angry with myself. I told God i was too arrogant, i was so full of myself and i forgot to look to Him, i'm carrying too much burden.

after praying to God, i feel much better. things start to clear up.

let me have a quick update. On friday, was working very hard in school. was so fed up. then later that night, played mj to relax. but gosh, we started at 9 and played until 5am. but it was great fun, after having not playing it for a long time.

on saturday, my students came to my house for class gathering. 20 over of them. the house is so crowded. but it was fun. i ordered pizza and kfc.

later that evening, we went to a friend's house. it was a good time catching up with old friends.

then on sunday, it's homework day for marcus and mabel, then we brought the children out to brewerkz. in the evening, it's dinner time with mum, sis and aunties.